170 days sober
I’ve been in all day with a fever and just generally feeling like krap. My friend came by for a bit to keep me company in the afternoon. We had a good time talking and playing some games. It was a pleasant distraction. Despite not feeling well my spirits are high today and my mood good. Just taking it easy and going to bed soon.
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Already posted today about attending a friend’s birthday party and I was ready. I had a plan and support system but something came over me on my walk this morning. I decided I can not for some reason, I just feel like I’m not ready so I let her know I can’t make it. I feel really bad but at the same time I know I have to be a little selfish right now. Hope everyone is have a wonderful sober Saturday!
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Checking in! 
Just starting my weekend now! Today at work I had a tournament, my colleagues from the restaurant set up the entire terrace for lunch for 120 pax, and once they were done it started to rain! 
What a mess…
I’ve been listening to “Alcohol lied to me” this week (again), and alcohol has not been a trigger today, even though everybody had a drink in hand! The lady/member that loves to give me hugs during tournaments (
) today clearly had been sniffing on white lines… besides her regular excessive wine consumption! No hugs for me today though! Yeah!
I’ve just taken a bath, and now I chilling on the couch with the kitties! 
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Day 207
Looking at an orchard of walnuts on the ground. With rake in hand I am off to get them all together for sweeper to get them ready for pick up. I use to say I ME was never meant for physical labor unless it was done in the bed room. Clearly God and hubby wants me outside! Good thing I want to work on my arm muscles 
. Stay sober my friends. There is a whole other way to live than being drunk all the time. So much more rewarding for me anyway.
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@Laner feel better soon 🩵
@JazzyS thank you I did a lot of meditations and it was much needed 
I’m sorry for your pain and suffering, try to pace yourself 🩵
@One4theroad I agree, it is never worth it 
wishing you success with your group 
@Juli1 love that number 
@Butterflymoonwoman I’d be pissed too! I’m so glad your son hasn’t came to any harm due to someone’s incompetence 
grateful for that technician I hope you both feel better soon 🩵
@icebear it is a big deal! I’m proud of you too 🩵
@HakeemOsman congrats on your studies 
very adoreable photo 
@Mira_D I hope you are able to relax and enjoy your mom’s company, sending calming vibes 
@Mno that is a majestic building loving the clear bright blue sky too
@Noshame congrats on 500 days AF 
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@Tragicfarinelli sorry it didn’t work out 
@Dolse71 congrats on 4 years 
@Lighter I hope your first patrol ride goes/went well
@Tyland sorry about your job
1502 days no alcohol.
967 days no cocaine.
482 days no vape.
7 days no binge-eating.
As soon as therapy ended yesterday, my addict was adamant that we were going to binge crisps, so I was in a battle with him for the rest of the day. I did a lot of meditations, including one called ‘inner child/processing emotions’, and eventually I fell asleep early and didn’t wake up until 11pm when the shops were already closed.
So I’ve made it to a week without bingeing again. I hope this time will be different. It’s not easy when my addict gets in my head about wanting/“needing” crisps. At the moment, I’ve still been eating strawberries and mango, often multiple times a day. As healthy as that sounds, it’s still an addictive behaviour that’s making me pre-occupied and compelled, and I’d prefer not to be doing it.
Today I visited my niece for her 6th birthday. I was anxious all morning because I knew certain family members were going to be there, it took me forever to make myself shower and get ready, but I did. I got there much later than I was planning to, but it was okay. The certain family members were only in the same room as me for about 10mins, then they left. So I got to spend an hour with my nieces, brother, and SIL, which was nice. Those 10mins with the other family members were not pleasant, but so far, I don’t feel triggered, so I’m trying to put it out of my mind.
I hope you’re all having wonderful sober weekends.
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Checking in day 264 AF
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Checking in with 167 days sober. I’ll stay sober today too.
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@hakeemosman Wishing you luck with it all – I do know how overwhelming it can be with the deadlines and always trying to stay on top of it. You are doing great my friend.
@sobermama40 Way to go with your 1 week !!! Love the mindset of starting the day with it ½ conquered Keep up the amazing work! I am proud of you for being selfish and protecting your sobriety – I really don’t see it as selfish actually. It is taking care of you and that is impressive. I am sure your friend will understand (if they are a good friend). Congrats on working on your journey
@frank68 Hope the open house went great and you are able to relax and enjoy the rest of the weekend.
@nohsame Way to go Matt – 500 days AF and working that first step It is one day at a time for us all – lets keep pushing forward!
@tragicfarinelli Sorry that the application process needs to be redone – the semantics do suck at times and do trip me up too. You are not stupid and you are not worthless. Don’t let that brain of you tell you otherwise! You my friend are a fierce woman and can do whatever you put your mind to. Wising you luck with the application process. I do hope your eye starts to feel better soon 
@butterflymoonwoman So glad you are feeling better today – love your attitude. So grateful you did able to advocate for your son and not settle for less. Hope you are able to find a temp chair that fits and his chair is fixed and back to you soon.
@dolse71 WHOOHOO 4 years! Way to go Paul! That is some outstanding time AND it’s your birthday! 
WOWZERS – double celebration – happy birthday friend. 
Thanks for leading the way and all the amazing support.
@lighter OOH today is the day! So excited for you. Let us know how it went. WOW – love your swim gear – have fun in the water. You really are a serious swimmer! Let me know how the shoes handle – I am thinking about getting some for the spring.
@catmancam Thanks friend. I am trying Glad the meditations helped. Congrats on your 1 week no binge eating! Happy birthday to your niece. Sorry you had a not so pleasant encounter with some family members - grateful you were not triggered.
Checking in on Saturday afternoon
So I heard that a nearby town was doing a Gilmore Girls theme event - they had turned the downtown into the fictional town from the show and changed up store fronts to be like the show. I love that show and did not want to miss it and even with me feeling like shit I did make myself go. It was hot and humid today and that was not fun but I am glad I did get to see it for myself. Was a interesting set up and I’m sure I would have enjoyed more if I was up for it. It was a great way for me to celebrate my 21 months of sobriety. I by chance wore my sobriety necklace today.
Glad to be home and resting. Not much else planned today - trying to watch mindless tv to not focus on pain and itching.
ODAAT! we are warriors! Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love 
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I’m beyond blessed this morning I got a blessing from God!!! I been cleaned 2 days the last day I got high I messed completely up , but something in me snapped I wanted and deserve better in my life it felt like God was talking to me I spent all my money on my DOC that night grocery money gone gas money gone ! I was looking online for a payday loan something i done so many times after I messed up never found one after praying to God for help I actually found one honestly didn’t think I would get approved I filled the application out went to sleep prayed all night I woke up and prayed for this loan to get approved I looked at my phone and soon as I did I got a notification of money got added to my card …I broke down in tears … IT WAS GOD!! I believe God lead me to that website I feel beyond blessed I could not stop crying and thanking God for this blessing!!! Day 2 of being clean beyond blessed …if I missed spelled anything sorry I just couldn’t wait to share this blessing with y’all GOD IS GREAT …I even got on here last night looking for advice on where to find free food I was so desperate
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33 days and at last cravings have settled.
To all you 1 to 3 weekers out there keep winning the fight. I have struggled with cravings hourly until today I just thought hang on I haven’t had a craving at all today or yesterday. I’m not sure how long this will last but I didn’t even notice they had disappeared… now I need to stop eating junk food that’s has gotten out of control. Once I reached 4 weeks sober I kind of got into the new way of life. Had to change my normal routine a bit. Making sure I never go shopping in the evening. I picked up a few supermarket bits on my lunch hour to avoid the old habits of 3 bottles of wine into the 6pm shopping trolly. Bed by 9pm every night. I think I’m in with a chance of hitting them treble digits I haven’t seen since I was a child!!
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If anyone happens to stumble upon my mojo, can they kindly return it to me? It’s been missing for a few days now 
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Day 455. Did the ironing today and cleaned the floors… Relaxed in the evening watching TV. Bit of an uneventful day. Bit dull. Hoping to get out did a walk tomorrow 
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i’m on the case!
don’t worry friend – i’m sure you will get it back 
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@Noshame Congratulations 
on 500 days no alcohol! Apply those tools you used to get here to pot also.
@Tragicfarinelli That sucks. But everyone makes mistakes / misjudgements. Just got to move on. But I also go down the stupid/worthless road everytime I make a mistake, so I understand you.
@Dolse71 Yippee indeed! Congratulations 
@Sobermama40 That sounds very wise. You can easily show your friend you care another way that doesn’t risk your sobriety.
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I loved my initial ride today, and am now their greenest recruit! It’s super exciting when you start over, and it actually starts 
. Finally after all the nightmare of this year, it’s all changing. It’s paying off.
Maybe watching too many crime shows did this. Hahaha…but i definitely wouldn’t do this drinking! What a beautiful day. Gives me so much hope
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Day 5 morning. I was too tired last night to post. We spent the day out with the family, but my head was very foggy and I had a tough time living in the moment. Brain was craving for some distraction constantly. It’s been really hot recently, which makes it even more difficult being out. In the evening I was feeling better and I could wind down by playing and watching Go after dinner. Of course was very grateful I didn’t drink.
Last night I saw a dream where I had been without alcohol for a long time. In the dream I was feeling very happy and energetic. Usually the dreams I see are drinking dreams, so it was nice to wake up with something positive for an exchange 
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Great Saturday! Work was awesome. I love people coming in getting ready to hit the mountains, trail, or big trip and helping them find what they need and just talking about it. It’s inspiring. Looking forward to many sober adventures. If I hadn’t gotten sober I wouldn’t be here. Making that decision to take a huge pay cut to save myself and change was extremely hard. Was a big thing always holding me back. God is good. 
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Good morning sober fam 
Time for some breakfast, meditation and workout to set the tone for the day! Weather is still wet, but this campsite has an indoor area which I can use to work out. Plan is to climb a mountain in the area and hopefully still make it to the city by tonight.
Stay mindful friends!
*Always grateful for your presence here @acromouse
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208- no drugs or alcohol
The days are going fast. I’m staying busy so I have no time for my feelings or mind to play games or get in the way. I’m in a pretty good routine with work, meetings, counseling, and riding my bike a lot. Things are good but I always want more because I’m a addict. I think all is well so what now? I think about my future and what am I going to do with my life to reach my goals. I’m reminded my only goal is to continue to stay sober and learn to be a part of life. If I stay on this path things will come together and more will be revealed. I have times where a feeling of peace floods over me and when this happens I hold onto these moments. Because life happens and I’m still learning some of my character defects and learning to change my thinking. I’m grateful I remember my last day drinking and drug use and the feeling of wanting to give up. The feeling of being completely lost. My higher power intervened and put me in jail which is where I needed to be. I will never forget. Very grateful for my progress. Like I said I want so much more and I’m sometimes restless but I’m learning to trust this process. Staying busy helps and To stay in today and do what I can for today. Going to stay on this path because I won’t have a life if I don’t.
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