Huge congrats Paul! Awesome numbers. Excellent work.
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170 days sober
Iāve been in all day with a fever and just generally feeling like krap. My friend came by for a bit to keep me company in the afternoon. We had a good time talking and playing some games. It was a pleasant distraction. Despite not feeling well my spirits are high today and my mood good. Just taking it easy and going to bed soon.
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Already posted today about attending a friendās birthday party and I was ready. I had a plan and support system but something came over me on my walk this morning. I decided I can not for some reason, I just feel like Iām not ready so I let her know I canāt make it. I feel really bad but at the same time I know I have to be a little selfish right now. Hope everyone is have a wonderful sober Saturday!
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Morning im so ready to start over where is the reset button people? The more i go throw these days i have wanted to throw my hands up in the air, middle fingers to all. As soon as i finally seem to stop crying over the ex i get let go from my job. One thing after another. I hoping to find something better doing what i enjoy doing climbing trees and doing removals so im off to go fish.
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Checking in! 
Just starting my weekend now! Today at work I had a tournament, my colleagues from the restaurant set up the entire terrace for lunch for 120 pax, and once they were done it started to rain! 
What a messā¦
Iāve been listening to āAlcohol lied to meā this week (again), and alcohol has not been a trigger today, even though everybody had a drink in hand! The lady/member that loves to give me hugs during tournaments (
) today clearly had been sniffing on white linesā¦ besides her regular excessive wine consumption! No hugs for me today though! Yeah!
Iāve just taken a bath, and now I chilling on the couch with the kitties! 
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Day 207
Looking at an orchard of walnuts on the ground. With rake in hand I am off to get them all together for sweeper to get them ready for pick up. I use to say I ME was never meant for physical labor unless it was done in the bed room. Clearly God and hubby wants me outside! Good thing I want to work on my arm muscles 
. Stay sober my friends. There is a whole other way to live than being drunk all the time. So much more rewarding for me anyway.
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@Laner feel better soon š©µ
@JazzyS thank you I did a lot of meditations and it was much needed 
Iām sorry for your pain and suffering, try to pace yourself š©µ
@One4theroad I agree, it is never worth it 
wishing you success with your group 
@Juli1 love that number 
@Butterflymoonwoman Iād be pissed too! Iām so glad your son hasnāt came to any harm due to someoneās incompetence 
grateful for that technician I hope you both feel better soon š©µ
@icebear it is a big deal! Iām proud of you too š©µ
@HakeemOsman congrats on your studies 
very adoreable photo 
@Mira_D I hope you are able to relax and enjoy your momās company, sending calming vibes 
@Mno that is a majestic building loving the clear bright blue sky too
@Noshame congrats on 500 days AF 
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@Tragicfarinelli sorry it didnāt work out 
@Dolse71 congrats on 4 years 
@Lighter I hope your first patrol ride goes/went well
@Tyland sorry about your job
1502 days no alcohol.
967 days no cocaine.
482 days no vape.
7 days no binge-eating.
As soon as therapy ended yesterday, my addict was adamant that we were going to binge crisps, so I was in a battle with him for the rest of the day. I did a lot of meditations, including one called āinner child/processing emotionsā, and eventually I fell asleep early and didnāt wake up until 11pm when the shops were already closed.
So Iāve made it to a week without bingeing again. I hope this time will be different. Itās not easy when my addict gets in my head about wanting/āneedingā crisps. At the moment, Iāve still been eating strawberries and mango, often multiple times a day. As healthy as that sounds, itās still an addictive behaviour thatās making me pre-occupied and compelled, and Iād prefer not to be doing it.
Today I visited my niece for her 6th birthday. I was anxious all morning because I knew certain family members were going to be there, it took me forever to make myself shower and get ready, but I did. I got there much later than I was planning to, but it was okay. The certain family members were only in the same room as me for about 10mins, then they left. So I got to spend an hour with my nieces, brother, and SIL, which was nice. Those 10mins with the other family members were not pleasant, but so far, I donāt feel triggered, so Iām trying to put it out of my mind.
I hope youāre all having wonderful sober weekends.
š©µ
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Checking in day 264 AF
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Ya but it life thanks have any trees in uk
Checking in with 167 days sober. Iāll stay sober today too.
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@hakeemosman Wishing you luck with it all ā I do know how overwhelming it can be with the deadlines and always trying to stay on top of it. You are doing great my friend.
@sobermama40 Way to go with your 1 week !!! Love the mindset of starting the day with it Ā½ conquered Keep up the amazing work! I am proud of you for being selfish and protecting your sobriety ā I really donāt see it as selfish actually. It is taking care of you and that is impressive. I am sure your friend will understand (if they are a good friend). Congrats on working on your journey
@frank68 Hope the open house went great and you are able to relax and enjoy the rest of the weekend.
@nohsame Way to go Matt ā 500 days AF and working that first step It is one day at a time for us all ā lets keep pushing forward!
@tragicfarinelli Sorry that the application process needs to be redone ā the semantics do suck at times and do trip me up too. You are not stupid and you are not worthless. Donāt let that brain of you tell you otherwise! You my friend are a fierce woman and can do whatever you put your mind to. Wising you luck with the application process. I do hope your eye starts to feel better soon 
@butterflymoonwoman So glad you are feeling better today ā love your attitude. So grateful you did able to advocate for your son and not settle for less. Hope you are able to find a temp chair that fits and his chair is fixed and back to you soon.
@dolse71 WHOOHOO 4 years! Way to go Paul! That is some outstanding time AND itās your birthday! 
WOWZERS ā double celebration ā happy birthday friend. 
Thanks for leading the way and all the amazing support.
@lighter OOH today is the day! So excited for you. Let us know how it went. WOW ā love your swim gear ā have fun in the water. You really are a serious swimmer! Let me know how the shoes handle ā I am thinking about getting some for the spring.
@catmancam Thanks friend. I am trying Glad the meditations helped. Congrats on your 1 week no binge eating! Happy birthday to your niece. Sorry you had a not so pleasant encounter with some family members - grateful you were not triggered.
Checking in on Saturday afternoon
So I heard that a nearby town was doing a Gilmore Girls theme event - they had turned the downtown into the fictional town from the show and changed up store fronts to be like the show. I love that show and did not want to miss it and even with me feeling like shit I did make myself go. It was hot and humid today and that was not fun but I am glad I did get to see it for myself. Was a interesting set up and Iām sure I would have enjoyed more if I was up for it. It was a great way for me to celebrate my 21 months of sobriety. I by chance wore my sobriety necklace today.
Glad to be home and resting. Not much else planned today - trying to watch mindless tv to not focus on pain and itching.
ODAAT! we are warriors! Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love 
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Iām beyond blessed this morning I got a blessing from God!!! I been cleaned 2 days the last day I got high I messed completely up , but something in me snapped I wanted and deserve better in my life it felt like God was talking to me I spent all my money on my DOC that night grocery money gone gas money gone ! I was looking online for a payday loan something i done so many times after I messed up never found one after praying to God for help I actually found one honestly didnāt think I would get approved I filled the application out went to sleep prayed all night I woke up and prayed for this loan to get approved I looked at my phone and soon as I did I got a notification of money got added to my card ā¦I broke down in tears ā¦ IT WAS GOD!! I believe God lead me to that website I feel beyond blessed I could not stop crying and thanking God for this blessing!!! Day 2 of being clean beyond blessed ā¦if I missed spelled anything sorry I just couldnāt wait to share this blessing with yāall GOD IS GREAT ā¦I even got on here last night looking for advice on where to find free food I was so desperate
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33 days and at last cravings have settled.
To all you 1 to 3 weekers out there keep winning the fight. I have struggled with cravings hourly until today I just thought hang on I havenāt had a craving at all today or yesterday. Iām not sure how long this will last but I didnāt even notice they had disappearedā¦ now I need to stop eating junk food thatās has gotten out of control. Once I reached 4 weeks sober I kind of got into the new way of life. Had to change my normal routine a bit. Making sure I never go shopping in the evening. I picked up a few supermarket bits on my lunch hour to avoid the old habits of 3 bottles of wine into the 6pm shopping trolly. Bed by 9pm every night. I think Iām in with a chance of hitting them treble digits I havenāt seen since I was a child!!
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If anyone happens to stumble upon my mojo, can they kindly return it to me? Itās been missing for a few days now 
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Day 455. Did the ironing today and cleaned the floorsā¦ Relaxed in the evening watching TV. Bit of an uneventful day. Bit dull. Hoping to get out did a walk tomorrow 
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iām on the case!
donāt worry friend ā iām sure you will get it back 
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@Noshame Congratulations 
on 500 days no alcohol! Apply those tools you used to get here to pot also.
@Tragicfarinelli That sucks. But everyone makes mistakes / misjudgements. Just got to move on. But I also go down the stupid/worthless road everytime I make a mistake, so I understand you.
@Dolse71 Yippee indeed! Congratulations 
@Sobermama40 That sounds very wise. You can easily show your friend you care another way that doesnāt risk your sobriety.
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I loved my initial ride today, and am now their greenest recruit! Itās super exciting when you start over, and it actually starts 
. Finally after all the nightmare of this year, itās all changing. Itās paying off.
Maybe watching too many crime shows did this. Hahahaā¦but i definitely wouldnāt do this drinking! What a beautiful day. Gives me so much hope
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Day 5 morning. I was too tired last night to post. We spent the day out with the family, but my head was very foggy and I had a tough time living in the moment. Brain was craving for some distraction constantly. Itās been really hot recently, which makes it even more difficult being out. In the evening I was feeling better and I could wind down by playing and watching Go after dinner. Of course was very grateful I didnāt drink.
Last night I saw a dream where I had been without alcohol for a long time. In the dream I was feeling very happy and energetic. Usually the dreams I see are drinking dreams, so it was nice to wake up with something positive for an exchange 