Checking in on Day 31 - yay! What a difference a month makes.
Generally quite upbeat but my body is really struggling. The nausea is really boring now and the stress on my body has triggered my FND, so my leg isn’t working properly 
Hoping that is a temporary thing.
Need to start my working week. Hoping I am a bit more engaged.
Have a good day all.
Hey Mel.
It totally makes sense. I was dabbling in THC edibles for a while, very much now and then like maybe twice a month maximum at first. Then I did it every weekend. Then for a brief spell, quite often. I got it to the point that 25mg edible was enough for a decent night of nothingness. It felt ok because there was no consequences, I didn’t fall over or argue or start a house fire. I just wanted to be in that nothingness.
It was great fun for about two weeks of every night use. Then I started to get lazy and unproductive and apathetic towards growth (I’ve lost 23kgs over a year or so thru dedication to moving my body more and sobriety and good eating). And I also felt really depressed…And I fucking realised that it was just the same as the drink hangover. Just no broken bones or loss of dignity. But I was about to lose my purpose and action all over again. I could also feel myself preferring myself high than sober. That lightness lured me in again.
Sending you all the strength here, it’s insidious. I get you. I’m over two weeks off taking any THC at all and have zero plans to ever start again, because deep down I do acknowledge it would have been a problem for me just like alcohol was, eventually… (Even though I easily stopped and started as I wished).
It’s addiction that’s the problem perhaps, the source a by product. Lots of love, it’s hard. Good look. You got this.
334 sugar
198 UPF
72 gluten
72 dairy
8 distraction-free eating
Back home. I tell you people I do hate long car trips. Yesterday’s trip was as good as a car trip can go - only 10h for 900km including breaks. But still not my favourite way to travel…
It did have some good sides though. I spend a lot of time chatting with my mum, I could practice driving, and I could load up on books and foods from home.
Yesterday evening I checked out a different Recovery Dharma online group. Wow! It really was great, all that stress from the travels subsided, I felt grounded and at home in my life. Great group. I am going to zoom in more often.
I did my rowing session this morning, and the rest of the day is going to be all about getting sorted out: laundry, groceries, planning my week, errands, that kind of stuff. Yoga in the afternoon, Recovery Dharma in the evening.
Today’s picture is Mary with child. A small wood carved shrine at a spring I visited on my hike along the Polish-Chech border last Saturday.
Peace and love for life always 
Day 204 AF
Day 3 smoke free
Well ladies and gentlemen,
the fun part of this journey just started. Romantizising cigarettes, longing for the feeling, all that good stuff is hitting me like a wave.
I had two packs safed at work “for emergencies”. Which is me building a relapse. 
So I gifted them to some coworkers and they took them from me.
We had a little discussion about quitting and how many people in germany are still smokers.
Which is quite a lot to be honest. Most of my collegues used to smoke or are still actively smoking.
Guess I’ll have to make myself a new daily routine but so far I’m just riding along and avoiding triggering places. 
This is my life now. This is what I do.
Take care everyone^^
290 AF
Out with wife and dinner celebrating my son’s 21st birthday. Hes such a great young man. I’m very proud and love him very much 
The believed arthritis is still there. Hand quite sore again this morning. Ibuprofen seems to do the trick but if this continues for more than another week or so I’m gonna have to have checked… argh, I detest bodily issues.
Anyway, have a great day. A shot of us out at waterfront last night before dinner.
Hey all, checking in on day 1590. I hope everybody has a good one!
Great reply/share Dirk. Since this year I entered the “dating scene” via dating apps. What I got from there is that it is a jungle. My experience is that my brief “relationships” resulting from those endeavours were based on sex and filling the void. I left relatively fast, since I was not looking for that. Besides that I some how was attracted to some that had a drinking problem. I recently met a woman I know from a portrait photography course I did last year. I was to chicken to ask her number then (she had the same) we ran into each other some two weeks ago. We are now dating and taking it easy. It feels totally different then meeting someone online. I’m not saying online can’t work, but for me this feels so much more real and the way it should be at least for me. So now cancelling my serial dates that were planned, which by the way I recently saw as nice encounters, not really for getting a relationship. That mindset helped me in seeing serial dating as not to serious.
Checking in on day 8. Hope everyone has a great day!!
Happy Monday!!
Great to wake up after a weekend without being hungover! Looking forward to seeing what the week has in store and the opportunities that present themselves.
MAKE it an awesome day my friends!!!
Day 485. Working 8-2 today, taking a few hours off and will go for a dog walk along the beach i think. Good to enter rhe week sloooowly
Today was much better. I get what feels like an emotional hangover after a hard day like that. I have found that doing certain things help me get over it more quickly these days but sometimes it does linger.
200 days sober
I haven’t been sleeping too well the past few nights. Not bad dreams but just waking up around 3 and not being able to fall back asleep. It has really drained my energy and ability to focus well throughout the day. Despite that I am doing okay. Haven’t had any thoughts of drinking and emotionally I’ve felt a bit anxious but still not too bad. Mostly I’m tired. Am hoping for a good sleep tonight and am just going to let myself sleep in as long as I need.
Hey 
1590, not too shabby 
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Day 2. Throwing out all the paraphenilia related to weed, which is not easy. Attachment. Threw out the hash/weed supply, now the things. Money down the toilet, shame shame. Ugh. Onwards.
@happyfeet So good to see you Anne! Glad things are still going well for u!
@mxelle Way to go Mel! Thats not easy but im so glad u did it! Another step in yhe right direction 
@Laner Congratulations on hitting the 200s!! Hope ur able to get a bit more rest in today. Waking up st 3am is exhausting lol
@Chevy55 what a lovely photo for u and ur family Hope the arthritis lets off a bit for u
@JonasE Smart move Jonas! Getting rid of those packs of smokes was a great thing to do! Proud of u!
@acromouse Glad ur home safe and sound
@jennyh Congratulations on 1 month!!!
@DresdenLaPage Congratulations on 1 year!!! Great work 
Day 981
Morning 
Just enjoying a cappuchino while i catch up on this thread. Hope everyone is doing well this fine Monday.
My plans for the day are cleaning. My son is still home from school so I will just tidy up the apartment. I tried to wake up early for a workout, but that didnt happen. So no gym time for me today. I have some phone calls to make and laundry to put away also. Its supposed to snow today and Im actually kind of looking forward to it! The first snow fall is always the prettiest 
Not much else going on here. Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
Day 237 without alcohol 8 months just 6 days away! Improvement in my daily life is amazing. I get to go to AA This morning. I AM HAPPY! Miracles surround me.
Checking in team, off to a busy start at work, but looking forward to having some structure in my life after a week of vacation.
Not sure if this is the best place to ask, but does anyone have suggestions for healthy habits that keep them busy in the evenings? Reading? Etc
Many thanks!!
Checking in
