@raspberry Congrats on your 1 month milestone! Knowing that 3+ month is your tripping point is good knowledge. Now you can prep for this and stock up your tools in your tool box and of course strengthen your sober muscles! You can get through that patch and keep stacking up the days. I try to keep my day 1 misery in my mind to remind myself that the addict lies are bullshit. @goku2019 OMG I hope you are ok. Sorry for the abdominal pains. I totally understand the need to grab that cold tall one to help deal with the pain. It really doesnāt work. Have to keep that in our minds and remember that it most definitely will make things much much worse! Hope you are out of the ER and feeling better @bomdhil Yeah to day 4. Sorry for the unsettled feelings. Its ok to feel them and just let them pass. We all go through them and the main thing is to know that drinking will not help settle shit. You are stronger today for not drinking! Keep up the amazing work @tailee17 BIG HUGS love. Glad you found your shield and will have it with you moving forward. Hoping the negativity has left you and you are feeling better Grateful you worked through H.A.L.T. ā we are here for you love ā hope we can help you with the loneliness @Lizziebeth Great to see you checking in and wonderful job with 28 days and so happy that you are seeing the benefits of sobriety! Keep going strong 1 Month milestone is just days away!
Checking in on Tuesday evening
671 days free of alcohol and weed
1086 days free of cigarettes
Been a day! Started off somewhat good. Had a long meeting that I got through with the help of coffee. Managed to get some work done but then crashed hard with fatigue and symptoms. Glad I had energy to make dinner and am now chilling watching a movie my brother got me. Hoping for a early night
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love
So tired after the first day, but a good tired. Very happy and I think this job will be a good fit I get to shadow the girl I am replacing, which is wpnderful. Then we were pff to see in-laws this evening as some are headed back home to Belgium. Busy day, lots to be grateful for. Xo.
Iām unemployted too but from other causes. It was quite nice at first to have free time and do hobbies but it getās boring. I would like to work again to get my life balanced and feel like part of the society again. Itās good if you have the opportunity now to focus on your recovery before starting to work again
Another day of experience work ahead. I wasnāt the best yesterday. Hope it will be better today. Will work on it. Sometimes thereās just no one to really connect with. Thinking of it, maybe it has to do with not getting any direct results. Which isnāt the point of it all really. Slow and tedious work and often no visible results. Is what it is. I still like it.
Two free days after today. I like that more. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Letās make it clean and sober, or nothing will come from it. Love.
@JazzyS Iām not ignoring any serious pain or growths or anything I meant more like, Iāll notice a strange bump/coloration on my hand, but then itās the same on the other oneā¦or some weird detail in my mouth, but Iāve never actually studied it before so itās probably always been there idk. I think itās just being more aware of everything now as Iām watching my body age
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Updateā:star: 6 months of phone calls that went no where and collecting useless paperwork for no reason, thereās finally a break in the claim case! After being tossed around to every dept. that couldnāt help me, I got the # for the original agent assigned to the claim. I left a message 2 weeks ago but she never got back to me bc apparently she no longer works in claims! Shocking, I know Eventually a new agent did(who actually put in some work) and her voicemail today was like music to my ears It was everything Iāve wanted to hear for the past 6 months! Within 2 days it should be finalized and begin processing my refund I still have to make the past due payment thatās $700+ more than it should be, which is annoying bc theyāre giving it all right back anyways, but itās almost over!!! I just donāt understand how nobody could help until now. She said there were hospital records and everything on the Laura responsible for the accident! Eff that woman from 6 months ago who told me it was completely out of their hands and I needed to deal with the consumer report center, which did nothing but waste my time. I hope she steps on a lego
I was looking all over for my earring today, and I mean all over bc I didnāt know where it fell out. In the corner under my nightstand I found an empty flask! Then, under my driverās seat where you canāt quite reach, were 3 empty shooters! Going on 2 years and still finding them Geez! The earring was in the bathroom in case youāre worrying about it Hope you all have a wonderful 24 hours!
326 days
Working a 24hr shift today. Just over halfway through. Been quiet today, nothing like yesterday. @Mischa84 its lucky Iām working tonight, gives my wife a chance to watch the last half of episode 2 that she fell asleep during
Thank you, I have almost the same sober date as you got, Iām on day 6 now. I have no cravings to drink at the moment, I mostly want my energy levels to get back to normal. Hopefully my dopamine levels will balance aswell, Iām dealing for example with lack of motivation and numbness. At least Iām motivated on my recovery and I believe time and sobriety will cure a lot. Have a good early recovery!
That Alberta weather. Lived in Calgary for a year and traveled there for better part of 20 years. Learned it can snow any month of the yearā¦ stay bundled.
We in NS are stilll basking in 20 deg weather so Iāll take that as long as I can.
@Just_Laura I really am impressed by your perserverance. And I am very glad to hear all your hard work is going to give the results.
I usually donāt have that kind of endurance and let that kind of shit slide or try to ignore it. I am supposed to make a doctorās appointment for a procedure and I am so procastrinating on that one @Lizziebeth Congrats on four weeks Great work! @tailee17 I also donāt do well with negativity around me. It always drags me down and exhausts me. Sending you comfort and hugs @Bomdhil Hang in there friend. Hope today is better. @GOKU2019 Oh man, I am so sorry to hear you have to go through all that pain, discomfort and uncertainty what might be going on with your body. I hope this gets checked out really soon and you can feel better @Lighter The spaciousness you are enjoying in your sobriety is palpable in your words. Thanks for sharing this with us @Raspberry Yeah, I get that forgetting part. What helps me is to do something recovery related every day. Being active here, but also online meetings through the week. Just to stay aware. Congrats on 30 days. That is amazing @Englishd That is tough, to see what kind of excuses people will find to look down and ridicule others who are suffering. Sorry you have to work in this kind of environment. @Mischa84 Very glad to hear your work is giving you so many positive experiences. Sounds like the right place for you to be
I had a scary situation yesterday evening. One of my fingers turned first deeply blue and than white. I thought this was some kind of vascular emergency and got to the ER. Turns out it was a reaction to cold. Never had that before, but it happened this morning again after getting out in the cold. Iām very glad itās nothing serious and just a nuisance that disappears with warmth.
Today is a nice, cold, sunny day. I did my morning yoga and rowing workout. The rest of the morning is reserved for work on my game. After lunch my daughter and I are going to do some school stuff shopping before the and of fall break. Yoga in the afternoon, maybe RD in the evening. My ex will come over in the evening and stay the night in the spare room. Itās going to be an interesting experiment.
Todayās picture is from the Polish-Czech border where I did some hiking last week with a shoutout to @Jana1988.
Itās been a beautiful bit of weather leading into fall this year. Cool and crisp in mornings and warm in afternoon. Today high teens to 20āsā¦ digging it.
Hand feels much better today compared to yesterday. Got an appt with a nurse practitioner but itās three weeks down the road, so weāll see. At least hand feels better though shoulder was making some weird crunching noises this morning and was soreā¦ damn old age is complicated
Today I sit on a training committee for the municipality with management and union. I am interested in seeing the dynamics of this and what (if any) real concern these people have for government employees. Should be enlightening. This will determine whether I give any of my time to these folks for extracurricular responsibilities.
Hereās a snap of the sunset last eve for those that are interested.
Day 254
Really missing the gym. Having been sober and lost 25kg since Feb my Mental Health was as strong as it had been in many years. My self confidence had improved out of sight and the routine of the gym had a massive impact on that. Now that I am unable to attend, I feel Iāve lost a great motivational/discipline tool and I donāt want to slip back into negative thought patterns. I am still walking/cycling each day and trying to remain upbeat.
āMorning everyone. Up nice and early to sit and have coffees and wake upā¦not sure if anyone else is like this, but Iām in a coma for a couple hours. I build in extra time, it works!
Got past my travel anxiety. I love traveling, but always have this little episode while packing. Now Iām getting happyā¦ I will be driving across Texas for seven hours before arriving at my hotel in eastern New Mexico tonight. Then 4 hours to Santa Fe tomorrow . I like doing the big push out of state but thatās it! I used to do 11 hour drives when I was broke . Now Iād have a thrombosis.
Weather looks spectacular all around, once I get a few hours northwest. Sunny, dry, 79. Then 67 in town tomorrow. More sun. Blue skies and sweaters and boots. Looks like snow in the mountains in a few days. Iām really excited. No fantasies about drinking. It would ruin everything! I think Iāve ended the poisonous romance. Iām so much happier and energetic without it. Will be breaking walking records with a little yellow lab. Sheās a handful at age 2! Iām going to lose 10 pounds.
Have a wonderful day. I need to get a little exercise then start leaving.
Being honest to myself challenge, vroom vroom. Trying to not feel responsible for the feelings of others, people target me when I give them my boundariesā¦.progress not perfection
1 Month milestone is just days away!
I get to shadow the girl I am replacing, which is wpnderful. Then we were pff to see in-laws this evening as some are headed back home to Belgium. Busy day, lots to be grateful for. Xo.
I meant more like, Iāll notice a strange bump/coloration on my hand, but then itās the same on the other oneā¦or some weird detail in my mouth, but Iāve never actually studied it before so itās probably always been there 
idk. I think itās just being more aware of everything now as Iām watching my body age 
Updateā:star: 6 months of phone calls that went no where and collecting useless paperwork for no reason, thereās finally a break in the claim case! After being tossed around to every dept. that couldnāt help me, I got the # for the original agent assigned to the claim. I left a message 2 weeks ago but she never got back to me bc apparently she no longer works in claims! Shocking, I know 
Eventually a new agent did(who actually put in some work) and her voicemail today was like music to my ears 
It was everything Iāve wanted to hear for the past 6 months! Within 2 days it should be finalized and begin processing my refund 
I just donāt understand how nobody could help until now. She said there were hospital records and everything on the Laura responsible for the accident! Eff that woman from 6 months ago who told me it was completely out of their hands and I needed to deal with the consumer report center, which did nothing but waste my time. I hope she steps on a lego 
Geez! The earring was in the bathroom in case youāre worrying about it 
Hope you all have a wonderful 24 hours!
(and I know how much that hurts, from experience, although a Thomas the Tank Engine was worse 
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. Now Iād have a thrombosis.