@Ccn31 Congratulations 
@MrMoustache It is tough when a āfriendā undermines and hurts us. You are being strong by fighting to stay sober. 
@GOKU2019 Pain is tough to deal with. Sending strength. 
@Philipwithonel Happy birthday! 
@Butterflymoonwoman Early happy birthday! It is tough when people donāt remember things that are important to you. I wouldnāt want to lend money for my own birthday either. I would rather have a heartfelt letter or a massage if money is tight.
Checking in day 165
Been a hot minute everythingās been going good
I hope everyone had a good thanksgiving and has a great day tomorrow
Thanks much. Itās been good
Thank you so much
Thank so much. It was a day full of gopd things
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Home from brief vacation. Had such a wonderful time and feeling a bit sad and lonely that it has come to an end. Ahh well itās all good
Imagine a day when you wake up and the first thing you think about isnāt your addiction. Carry on it really does exist.
Happy Birthday @Philipwithonel 
Monday morning again after a nice, relaxed weekend. Saturday meeting was a speaker meeting. The lady who spoke always fascinates me with her stories when she shares so this was a treat for my ears.
Sunday afternoon has always been a drinking, cooking and sharing time with my husband. Talking anything through and planning for the week and the future. Both of us hang out in the kitchen and spend time together until the food is ready and then he drifts off to watch TV (Grand Prix highlights usually). Iāve been buying a bottle of alcohol free red wine and drinking it from my favourite wine glass. It makes me feel the familiar pleasant afternoon of the old way with the sober mind of the new way. So far no issues but I am mindful that can change and if it does the alcohol free red will be down the sink where the other reds went.
Lovely Yoga Meeting in the afternoon. I like how calming it is and stills the mind while keeping the focus on sobriety. Lots of breath work during the meeting.
A new month, new week ahead and a new chance to be sober and present. Have a great 24 everyone.
Yay, a new day and Iām still alive! So great to wake up without a hangover! Iām drinking my morning coffee and listening to music. Itās really gray and dark outside, but thatās okay because my spirit is high as f*ck!
One of my crazy friends (I seem to have crazy friends) sent me a message where she told that cannabis is originally from Sirius star (!), she saw a video in IG. Oh my goshā¦ I didnāt reply to her.
Have a great sober day/evening yaāll!
Congratulations Phil with your birthday! 
Iāve got you another chandelier as a present, saw this one in a castle in France last september.
Thank you, my friend!
366 days
1 leap year of stacking 1 day at a time.
Busy day at work, flat out all day and its starting to come into summer so it was hot today too.
Day off tomorrow before nightshift. Will be getting to the gym tomorrow morning for sure.
Have been going back and re-reading my early posts. They seem similar to my posts now, but some I can sense and remember the desperation I was feeling. Its seems a long time since Iāve felt that way so it was good to refresh just how difficult those early days are.
I had tried and failed many times. This group helped me many times. Thank you all who contribute and take time to help others
ā Day 2266 
9 days away from feet freedom 
Tired. I find it difficult to wake up without feeling energetic like normal. It affects my mood big time. So I search for the little things that cheer me up like buying a new watch face that shows me a different flower every day (still curious about how many daysā¦a week? A month? I hope a year!)
) and small house chores.
8 months AF
1m13d Smokefree
Well folks, guess my immune system had to shutdown at some time so here I am.
Lifeās been a mix of work, sleep, meet and repeat for the last weeks.
Which is my new normal for winter I guess.
Usually Iād be kneedeep in one bar or another.
During winter there are many drunk people in my city, so I always could blend in if I wanted to/cared enough to mimic normal behaviour. 
Guess where I wonāt be going for the forseeable future.
On times like this I am reminded of a former friend of mine. We used to get high together and get up to all kinds of degenerate stuff.
He broke my ribs during a fistfight, I broke him out of rehabā¦just all kinds of awful behaviour all around.
We used to talk a lot about freedom and I find his definition of that word absurd if I may say so myself.
Yes you donāt have to work and get to choose what to do with your time. But if all that just amounts to getting high itās still a prison, isnāt it?
You just trade one destructive system for another. Arguably a worse one, since one actually letās me express myself in my free time.
Could be much worse if you ask me. 
So yeah just feeling a bit directionless at this moment in time.
Donāt get me wrong I got the basics down but there could be more to my life than what I am currently doing.
Or maybe I just need to be more content from time to time.
Guess thatās the german in me.
We do love to complain about stuff. 
Anyways, Iāll try to get healthy first. 
See you around and as always, take care^^
2004
Had an easy day at home yesterday, did some chores, made myself stamppot, petted Luna, watched a movie (Flow, very much recommended). Might repeat today, not sure yet. Some outdoor activity is in place I guess. Maybe just shopping for groceries will do. And cook something nice, something new.
Whatever Iāll do, Iāll do it sober and clean. And make today as good a day as I can. Iām expecting the same from all of you my friends. Love. Pic is from a couple of days ago in Utrecht. Early mornings are so pretty there.
@MrFantastik HUGE congrats on your year Marty!
@SoberWalker of course you can bike with a plastered foot. Youāre Dutch! Do take care though!
@JonasE I guess itās a bit of both. Contentment with what we have and doing active work to improve our lives. Weāre getting there. One day at a time friend.
376 sugar
240 UPF
114 gluten
114 dairy
50 mindful eating
Just a short checkin today. Thereās been all kinds of stuff going on, just busy. Iāll teach a class in a few, have some errands to run. Yoga in the afternoon, chilling in the evening.
Turns out my brother has COVID. Iām hoping my daughter who spend some significant time with him on the weekend did not get infected. Weāll see.
Peace and love for life always 
Thank you!
Wow, that is so stunning.
