307 days AF
Checking in, happy to be sober and will stay so, today 
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Start of Day 65
I finally got the official words I was seeking for so long from my wife nearing the end of lastnight… " I’m not in love with you". Now, I have the confirmation to tie with her more recent feelings and actions towards me. I was hurt and relapsing crossed my mind several times because I didn’t want to feel the feelings of loss, hurt, and being a failure. But I’m still here and sober. Here’s to another glorious 24. ODAAT 
P.S. in other news, I start a part time gig today so I’m blessed for this opportunity and pray that I’m able to positively impact those that I’ll be around and befriend during this new journey.
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Happy Monday!
I am so grateful to not be hungover after 4 days off ! Im at the gym with and doing the next right thing. Im NOT writing an email how im out sick from a made up illness!
Definitely rethinking the number of days im taking off ovet Christmas. Thonk im going to plan to work more.
MAKE IT AN AWESOME DAY MY FRIENDS!
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Sounds like a great start to your day. Enjoy the gym 
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Day 332 AF
Monday morning, with 1 more week left on my leave of absence.
It’s been a double edged sword most definitely with all this time off. Had time to get back in gym, design a winter workout program, focus on some physical ailments and take care of. 
But as all good things, it lead to much too much time in semi isolation. A bit of a pity party for myself and some mental struggles. I’ve thought a lot last night and decided (as I do) to cast those aside (push them back down) and count my blessings and appreciate what I have. Forgive those that don’t have the time (or desire) to reach out and understand they deal with their own issues. Move forward in the light, and prepare to get back to work and be surrounded by coworkers that enjoy me, and I enjoy them.
It helped writing it out yesterday, some kind hearted souls writing me and understanding these things shall pass. 
thank you to them and this incredible community of support. You truly have been my rock since this journey began and I look forward to celebrating my 1 year anniversary with y’all next month.
Peace 
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Day 1,635 days clean and sober today. Felt some mild withdrawal symptoms last night which is right on track (4 days off the medication) and it’s sucked but I took it as my body is healing itself and that made me happy. Amazing how our bodies work nonstop to balance itself, pretty rad.
Just got a message from my boss to come in and cover someone so I gotta go lol.
I hope everyone has an amazing day, I love you guys! 
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Day one…again.
It happened again. I think I fooled myself that this time it would be different; surprise surprise it wasn’t.
I have also come to grips with the fact my addiction is not just one faceted in relation to booze, there seems to be a component of sex addiction wrapped into what I am dealing with.
Anyways, that is the first time I’ve admitted that one this forum and I hope that my honesty and acceptance will help me stay on track.
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Thanks for sharing and being vulnerable enough to put the newer aspect into the light. Youre arent alone in that and theres others here that are able to support you throigh that. Youre in the right place. Keep coming back
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Hey all, checking in on day 1632. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Thanks so much Phillip, this seems to be the only tribe in my life that really brings me joy and comfort these days
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Congratulations 1 year sober. Wish you many years of sober life 
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You’re welcome. For sure, it feels good being here. Theres plenty of threads that could assist you as well with what you’re now willing to confront. You got this
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Day 1444,
She is ghosting me, what a joke again.
Have a good sober 24 hours.
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Whoop, whoop, congrats
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Thank you
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22 days alcohol free. Have a great day everyone.
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Day 276
Going on a patrol at noon and then pack up for a few day’s trip west. Always does me good.
Have a great day.
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@Butterflymoonwoman I’m sorry love. That would be frustrating and sad for me too. Your 40th is tomorrow and I do hope you have a wonderful day celebrating your special day! I personally would make my birthday all about me - was my day for myself - by myself. I took myself to museums, plays, a movie… whatever I could manage at the time. It’s harder with a family I’m sure. Sending loads of birthday hugs and love your way 
@SadMemeQueen your best friend isn’t at the facility with you - right? How could they stop you even if they wanted to? Saying they won’t stop you isn’t saying they don’t care or don’t want you to go through with it. I know you are hurting but hurting yourself will not ease the pain. I am glad you threw out the stuff. Please talk to someone at the facility and please don’t buy anything else 
Seriously this killed me. What an amazing life skill to have and share at her age. 10 min for lunch for a kid is not enough time…half of that is yapping away about kid stuff.
@s_unrelax doing great with 17 days. Keep pushing forward…the last feeling will lift as you gain your sober strength. Keep planning and thinking of your goals…you will get back to working on them and excelling in your journey
This is awesome…I spent a good 2 months or so just staying super busy with tasks to keep my mind and body occupied. It takes time to detox and break free if old habits…also time to build on new habits and routines. You are doing great - be patient and keep walking you path 
@BrownGecko sorry sleep is off …it does get better but unfortunately the crappy nights do come and go for a while. Some great sleep advice on the threads if you want to search 
uptop. Maybe something may be helpful for you. Have you had a chance to check out the Grumpy A-holes (quitting cigarettes/ nicotine products) (Part 2) thread? Some great tips for quitting smoking.
@MrFantastik yippee 
. 1 full Year of sobriety 
…you did amazing work and it shows. Keep stacking up the days
@JonasE congratulations on your 8 months AF! Get healthy and keep working your recovery. The direction will work itself out… first we got to get solid footing in the present
@acromouse sending healing vibes… hope your brother gets better soon and your daughter and the rest of the household is Covid free
@Philipwithonel I’m sorry friend. That would hurt but at least you have official closure and can begin to heal and move on.. Congratulations on your new gig 
I’m sorry love. Glad to see you back in track. That addiction really can play tricks and we have to keep the message that we can’t have one sip ever in the forefront…this will forever be our downfall. Learning that multiple factors and possibly multiple addictions that feed off of one another is a growing step. Take time to work the recovery in parallel - it does get easier
@lighter way to go Marie … 9 months is absolutely amazing…so grateful to see you working your recovery journey and excelling in do many ways. Keep going strong my friend
Checking in on Monday morning 
Not much to report. Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day… sending you all so much love
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day 13. visiting my elder parents. thankful
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