Day 12. My son’s birthday today. Historically it would have been a good reason to open some wine (i mean, almost anything was a good reason at some point that’s how I ended up here).
Instead, tonight I got home early and we had family dinner and opened his presents together. I won’t lie, part of me misses the buzz of alcohol but these are memories I will keep this time! And tomorrow morning I can get up early and hit the gym before work, rather than make up an excuse for being late and on my C-game.
Excellent James83. So relate to what you said about any excuse to open a bottle. As a said on mine I’m usually drinking and going to bonfire. And usually drinking for Celtic game. But sitting with cup of tea and feel better for it.
Ouh thanks for understanding.
I can do it. Technically.
Bananas for the monkey.
Kidding on a dry level is also fine.
And deep talk anyway.
But the real smalltalk is still weird and I am not finding my place in it too much. Especially if I have to finish my work with a deadline. That’s priority to me.
Check in day 5.
I did not check in yesterday. I was so depressed i barley did anything. The urge to drink was very very strong but with the patients of my amazing husband i was able to get through the day. I am so thankful to have him helping. It was really really a struggle. Now day 5 i am so happy i made it. I am so happy i did not cave i woke up in such a good mood. Day 5 and strong.
Day 996
Well today has been a better day, despite some news that i recieved. I put my son on the bus and then went for a workout. I then opened up my email to see an amount owing (I guess I didnt have to speak to this lady at all and they processed my paperwork anyway). Its quite a large amount of $$. Will take me years n years to pay off. And oddly enough, im sort of relieved. I am grateful that it wasnt jail time (which was my main source of anxiety) and Im grateful that i have an answer now. I will obviously have to make a payment arrangement as almost $30,000 is wayyyyy more than i even have at this point. My past is catching up to me and im full of acceptance today. It is what it is. I will just plug away at my oustanding debts and eventually it will be paid off. Im grateful to God for my recovery and that i no longer live that way anymore. Im grateful to be free. Grateful for family and u all here on TS. Just full of gratitude today 🩷 Have a fabulous day everyone!
well it’s election day. as a woman and as someone who’s part of the LGBTQ+ I’m terrified. I feel helpless. and we won’t even know the results of the election until tomorrow at the earliest. so I don’t see myself sleeping much. my rights are at risk and there’s nothing I can do
Im glad you got some sleep . Try not to worry about the election s just concentrate on your own well-being today, we can’t control the outcome of the world
Day 1494 of continuous sobriety. I finally got my GED. I took all the tests yesterday. And I did WAY BETTER than I thought I would. I dropped out at 16 years old, 2 days into my sophomore year of high school (grade 10 in a k-12 school system). I’m 41 now. The thing I realized was that these government entities I’m applying for employment to are extremely thorough with their background checks. With regular jobs at places like The Home Depot or Safeway, they don’t check any of it. You can put down that you graduated and have a diploma and they don’t really look into it at all. But government entities do. Very thoroughly. And so, I decided to just finally get it done. And so I spent 7 hours in a testing center at my local community college yesterday and took all 5 of the tests. And I did really well. 87% (B+) in Language Arts, 87% (B+) in Social Studies, 87% (B+) in Science, 90% (A) in Mathematics, and 98% (A+) in Civics. I’m extremely proud of myself. Thanks for letting me share.
