Checking In - hunting for the weekend, don’t really feel like drinking much, but I am just feeling exhausted in general. Not a bad thing necessarily, and honestly I may just be experiencing some peace.
Therapist was asking this week if I’d like to try some EMDR therapy, looked into it a bit this week, but I’m undecided
Hey sober fam,
Just checking in, sober, mindful and feeling good overall. 
One small step at a time, odaat… Hope you have as good a day or night as you can wherever you are right now friends! 
Checking in 14,700 days clean and sober. One day at a time. No relapses. Just a simple plan and a desire to not drink or use. AA and NA with meetings started my foundation to rebuild my life. In the early days I showed up and listened more than sharing. As days turned into weeks which turned into month I built up the courage to share my story. A few sponsors until one stood out. The steps once completed gave me piece of mind. The village of support help guide my journey through the good the bad and the ugly.
No one is alone in this process unless you choose to be. Reach out for assistance. Reading on this site is similar to listening at meeting. Take what you need and leave the rest. Open your mind to absorb knowledge so you can succeed. Keep it simple!
Checking in at bedtime. Something about going to bed on a weekend night sober is just that extra touch more rewarding to me than a regular work night.
Today is day three out of eight days in a row of solo parenting, as my wife is away on a girls trip. So far it’s going perfectly. We are rocking the daddy-daughter time. We have full days packed for the next 3 days; it’s a long weekend here in Canada.
My mom and I went out for lunch at my favourite restaurant in town here today, and we both had their in-house made sodas. Glad I wasn’t tempted by booze at all today. Being responsible for my daughter is definitely extra non-negotiable motivation.
Have a great weekend everyone.
See you here tomorrow night.
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World events turned into local events and vice versa yesterday, and had me severely shaken. During my using days this would have been just another reason to drink (and/or smoke) even more than usual. Now it just made me sad and mad and not thirsty at all. Reminded me of stupid arguments about politics in the bar when under the influence. Never again.
Instead I went to Rijksmuseum and visited the temporary exhibit of Asian bronzes. 4000 Years of history, and some incredibly beautiful work. Soothed and calmed me. Saved me really. Endlessly better than trying to sedate myself, not succeeding and ending up in a fight and unable to function. Sober life is just so much better.
My working weekend’s starting now. So I have to get my ass moving. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean or nothing will come of it. Love.
@Chance Thanks for checking in James, and keeping it real and simple. As it is. Love your numbers!
Deal! 
Now i just need to get rid of this horrid toof
343 days
Out early for a bike ride. Was a great ride, forest trail mostly with a little bit of gravel road in there. 4hrs and 40km in total. Legs aren’t feeling too bad.
Have a great weekend everyone
It wasn’t fomo. I was angry and frustrated for making stupid mistake. I slept poorly but I’m little calmer this morning. It will pass over time. Humans are imperfect and make mistakes, I’m not exception. I have to live with that. I need to learn self compassion. I need to learn to handle my emotions instead of avoiding them.
Dinner was okay. Before dinner I told my husband I would not drink. He knew I was in bad mood. In one point he put his drink in front of me to see if I take the bait, the devil. I wasn’t tempted but it’s something I need to discuss with him. I need support and he wants a drinking buddy. Not the ideal situation.
Grateful that you are calmer and better this morning. Si right- we are human and we deserve some slack, compassion and understanding. 
This would be torture for me- being tempted like that. I do hope that he is able to respect your decision to be sober and not create this temptations. Wishing you luck with that conversation.
You are doing great 
… We are here to root you on and help you if the temptations get to be too much
Hope you have a wonderful day 
Thanks. 
We will work it trough.
284 days sober from alcohol
Guys, I made it to the gym!
I struggled before I went and then…
I was so surprised how nice it was.
It is a 2500qm gym with additional spa.
It is all included in the card I got from my employer. To make it easy for my brain, I went to a yoga course one day and next day to a body balance course, that was just amazing. Especially the lightning in all the areas is super nice and during body balance course we had a room with extra smoothing light effects. And beautiful music. Will start with strength training introduction soon. Jippi
What an experience. Stepping out of the comfort zone makes sence most of the time.
@mxelle we chatted once about what might help and I said I like to have triggers of cold and heat. Now I gut my ice tub on the terace (which had 3 degree this morning) and 3 sauna available just 7 minutes from home. Ohh life! I remember how we chatted about this long time ago… after making this additional area available for me this week.
With going to the gym I made my goals for 2024 
Staying sober
Having a solid start in new job
Gym
Fine.
Don’t think about drinking anyway.
Depression is on a super fine level. Nearly 0 these days. How releasing.
Have a great weekend! 
@Wakikki So awesome you’re closing in on 3 years 
I too believe I’d be dead, or close to it, had I not stopped when I did. SAD is a huge issue in my area bc of our brutal winters, but I know it won’t even come close to the depression alcohol would cause. We can and will get thru every stupid thing life throws at us without that poison and come out stronger for it 
Be gentle with yourself, you’re doing great
Just went on a side quest after reading this 
While drinking, 10hrs was my norm (until the end when all I did was sleep til it was time drink(up to 16hrs). After quitting, 6hrs most nights would easily get me thru the day in a great mood. When I feel I need extra sleep, I try, but usually wake after 8hrs max feeling fine. If I sleep way more than normal, I’m usually tired and miserable. I found this(in an app ad) interesting and thought others would to due to our universal sleep issues 
@Chance You’re truly inspirational! Sober longer than I’ve been alive! Your constant presence is proof this is a lifelong journey. I hope everyone’s paying attention here bc this is what you gotta do people! It was listening to others like you that got me where I am today 
Thank you for being here and sharing
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Late check in again. My daughter was still coughing this morning so I took her temperature before school and it was 97.1°! Oddly low, but she said she was fine. Seemed fine after school too. Work was slow and boring but looong and late. Came home to my daughter having a 102° fever! Thank God I had some medicine and she went right to bed. No school Monday so I’m glad she has 3 days to rest Hoping it won’t get worse than it is. She rarely stays sick for long. I’d better sleep so I can care for her tomorrow if need be. Goodnight
Wow that gives me hope thanks for sharing
Hey everyone well things are going. Im happy to be working hope it pays off so i can put this experience on the good choice list of my life. I was lonely be for i left where i knew people anyways. Know i just maybe i can make something out of myself ,make money. Well so fare seems like there are nice people here but hey we all know there is good and bad everywhere its witch one you look for right. Hope the best to everyone (odaat)
Ok, I am 7 houres to early but I know you are going to tackle those so:
congratulations Dana with your 1000 days milestone!! 
. Will get my mega steps in for the day, my nature, then make a huge chilli for later with a film. The Holdovers it is tonight. Life can be good. 
Congratulations Dana you’re a super woman! 
1000!!
@Tragicfarinelli Your plans for today sound great. Hoping for some pictures 
@Butterflymoonwoman I am going to shamelessly copy @SoberWalker and send you congratulations on your huge milestone of 1000 days a few hours in advance. You are such a great lady. 
@Just_Laura Hoping your daughter gets well soon!
@Juli1 Very glad to hear you had such a great first experience in the gym 
and doing so well overall!
@Raspberry You do deserve support from your partner instead of this crappy behaviour.
@MrFantastik Your bike ride sounds nice. Any pictures?
@Mno Violence sucks. Always. Glad to hear you treated yourself to something more soothing
@PositiveThoughts Enjoy your daddy-daughter-time. Those make the best memories for life
@scaredsmol Those urges suck big time. How are you doing?
353 sugar
217 UPF
91 gluten
91 dairy
27 mindful eating
Feeling much better today than the days before. Still some lingering symptoms though. But I already did my morning movement, meditation and went grocery shopping - a nice walk.
I am going to take care of my IT-tools and my plants today.
The rest is going to be chill: reading, tv, games, relaxing yoga, maybe a meeting.
Today’s picture is one of the first drawings I did with a digital pen on a tablet some years ago.
Peace and love for life always 
