Sounds like you were an excellent representative of both your new country/heritage and the old. Your dress is beautiful … thank you for sharing the picture and the holiday.
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Jesus C. I feel like I have nothing left in me… Here we go, day 0 to day 1. I’ve actually never reset the way the timer resets to zero, I always waited and went to day 1. I like it more thid way:
I feel like a healthy dose of narcisim in the beginning is good, look at me, my efforts, i’m such a great sober person. I don’t have this, and its almost like I’m battling the … real me? Or, battling the addiction with only myself but, I feel weaker. Strange feelings this time around, different battleground. The addiction was doing push ups…
Jesus, help me.
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Absolutely beautiful victory 
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Sobriety is not easy by any means. The detox and the having to face our feelings, to face ourselves with a clean and clear mind is terrifying and exhausting. It also has been the best gift I could have given myself.
Being celebrated for each second is necessary as the early days we are building our foundation and each minute is like walking that tight rope. I don’t see this as being narcissistic.
Working towards your day 1 
. Don’t look down …keep pushing forward and lean on your support (home and here).
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I dont agree in the “you can’t love others” part but I agree with the spirit of this. I have a gaping hole, I’m trying to deal with this. Just hope I… survive it, without sounding dramatic. I feel weak.
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I too was having trouble with that particular part but overall liked the message.
You will not be dramatic and I do hope you can push through. I know how utterly painful it is and would like to offer whatever help I can. This community is here for you 
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@Juli1 @GOKU2019 @mxelle @Dilettante @Cjp @tailee17
Thank you all for the beautiful comments on my 1000 days of sobriety! Really means alot!
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Day 1000
Work was good overall. I came home and the surprise that my husband and son had for me, was that the Christmas tree was put up! 
They put it up early bcuz they know i love the lights and bcuz Christmas is my fav holiday. Really puts a smile on my face!! It just needs to be decorated which my son amd I can do Monday at some point. I made supper and then had a nice shower. Just putting my boy to bed and then will relax watching a movie with hubby. Work again tmrw which is good. Grateful for my job. Not much else going on at the moment. Just enjoying the evening. Have a great night everyone!
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Ive been poorly (I think I have long covid) so no urges, just feelong horrible. I hope everyone else has had a much nicer day
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Checking in, On lexipro. Haven’t had any difference from it yet. Got a half cast. Happy about that.
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My workday yesterday was rather brutal as I did a group we usually do with two. But I made it. Hoping today our team will be up to strength. I’ll make it as good a day as I can regardless. Sober and clean like I expect from all of you. Pic is a bronze image of Śhāntinātha, the 16th Tîrthankara of Janaism I saw Friday. Love.
@Butterflymoonwoman Huge huge HUGE congrats on reaching quadruple numbers in your quit dear Lady. Your dedication, strength, grit and love a shining example for us all. Thanks so much for being here. Big hugs and much love your way 
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@Butterflymoonwoman Congrats on 1000 Dana!!! 
It’s so inspiring to watch your continuous growth throughout your journey. You really do deserve this better life you’ve been creating for yourself Proud of you for doing the damn thing everyday 
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My daughter still slightly feverish this morning, so I was grateful to wake up full of energy 
While she layed on the couch watching tv all afternoon, I got alot more done than intended. Before leaving for work her temp was a perfect 98.6° and said she felt so much better once I got home this evening. She wants to have a sleepover with a new friend from school tomorrow, but I’m gonna play that by ear by how the day goes. I’m feeling like I need some proper time to catch up and participate around here. There’s been lots I’d like to respond to lately but don’t have the time when I see it and forget to go back later. My mind is all over the place lately. Wish I could think in a straight line 
Tiredness is making it hard to think altogether right now so I’d better be off to bed. Have a happy sober Sunday
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Congratulations @Butterflymoonwoman !!! Yes, yes, yes… feel your freedom! Big hugs and lots of love.
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One of my best friends just called me drunk and crying because she couldn’t find her car. I was able to talk her into a safe place so she could call an Uber and get home safely. She was helped by two friendly strangers along the way and the world feels good for this kindness. Things could have turned out much worse. Maybe she and I will be able to continue the sobriety conversation we started.
Drinking is death for alcoholics so I don’t drink. I’m grateful.
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Day 666.
Well… my dear friends, I still feel like death warmed up (or the devil warmed up, to be in theme with today’s number.) Yesterday I was only awake for about 8 hours, watching Netflix, went to bed early, woke up at 9 am and I’m STILL sick. Fuck this cold! It’s annoying me now.
Plus, I got two assignments due next weekend, a whole bunch of paid work fell on my lap, and for my other project I gotta do a certain number of articles in two weeks to win a little (much needed) bonus. In other words, I’m fucking swamped and this illness is like super inconvenient.
Even more annoying, yesterday I was supposed to go to classes all day and the main reason we flew back was so I can go to school. But I was too sick. Funnily enough, when I was of actual school age, I used to love sick days. Hell, when I was working a full-time 9-5, sick days were awesome! I guess it hits differently now that I’m paying out of pocket for school and that my work is entirely freelance.
Anyway, I’m gonna get comfy on my sofa and try to focus enough to get at least a tiny bit of work done today. If I can read the internet, I’m well enough to be productive.
Aaaaand to mark my delivilish number of sober days while simultaneously hitting a nostalgia button for all other millennials, here’s a photo of the Red Guy, from Cow and Chicken.
Edit to add some husband appreciation: Last night I was too sick to do the washing up. I usually make sure the sink is empty before going to bed because I really like waking up to a clean kitchen. Well… this morning I got up to find that my husband did it all. That’s on top of walking the pup, cooking, and running to the pharmacy to get me medicine. He’s just awesome. 
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Day 254
Woke up in a cold sweat with adrenaline, so I’m up drinking coffee at 2:25. It’s been a long time since I had a trauma episode this intense but I’ll be ok. Coffee will save me!
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344 days
Another good day away on our weekend get away. Got out and did some white water rafting today. Was great fun. Then went and picked up the kids from their cousins and made the drive back home.
Pic for @acromouse of a stop along the bike ride yesterday
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What a great idea, gonna try that! I could use more positivity. Have to dig up my elastic black tourmaline beads bracelet for that purpose. Think I wil change wrists a lot in the beginning 
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