Day 1006
Morning TS fam! 
Had a good start to the day by doing a full body workout. Now home to relax a bit before my son comes home at 1pm. I also spent time this morning doing my morning prayer and daily readings. Feels good honestly to get back on track. Its amazing what routine can do for me. I am someone that needs structure for sure. Hope u all are enjoying ur friday! Much love
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I am happy for you 🩵 I’m similar with needing my day routine to stay sane but I’m still far away from it. I miss it so much, I feel like my life is upside down.
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Love it!!! Haha thank you so much!!!
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Checking In - Have another weekend of hunting with my dad ahead of me, looking forward to the meditation aspect of the peace I find while out in the woods.
I am thinking of a goal to set for myself physically. Perhaps another distance race, or who knows what else). suggestions are welcomed!
I think having something to “work towards” that in combination with sobriety would really be helpful for me.
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4X1000 mg Paracetamol a day Mischa. Fever has it purpose, but it’s been long enough. And congrats on withstanding the temptation of the honey wine from your stupid (in this case for sure) husband. Take care, sleep well, rest, recover. Hugs.
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I missed this, but I guess I get to congratulate you on your one year on the actual day! It’s been such a wonderful thing to be here to see how much you have grown and progressed. You’re doing so great. Congrats, buddy!
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I missed this. 6802 days clean from opiates. I was really looking forward to 6800 for some reason. Felt like a nice number. I forgot and missed it… 8 days sober is a nice round number too! I will take it.
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Week two back at my moms - getting over this break up pretty well. I have my days, but I don’t miss him I just miss having someone. I need to learn how to be comfortable being alone - a valuable lesson I’ve been told. Had an ok day today. Its day 93 since I’ve smoked 
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Great to see you Faith! 93 days is amazing - about to hit the triple digits soon 
Keep up the amazing work 
Sorry about the break up. Wising you well with finding that comfort. I personally enjoy my alone time 
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Checking in on this lovely Friday. Sun is out. Tuesday will be flying to Hawaii for a few weeks… A little challenging as knowing for sure Home Tasks completed and I am smart in my packing.
My husband comes in later today and again I hold on to the Serenity Prayer. I can’t change HIM but I can sure change my responses and receptiveness…
I was able to read all the posts here from the last few hours… I love it here…Thanks to you I discovered the bunny with a pancake on his head. How great is that? Yes it is the small things where I can find joy.
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My mum told she thought I’d done really well not drinking so that was nice and supportive. I think she goes back and forth. 15 days today! I hope everyone is having an excellent day.
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15 day is great…keep going… you got this.
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Friday afternoon check-in. 
Goal is to go to bed when my 18-month old daughter goes down tonight. Sober of course.
Gonna rest up for a big, long, active Saturday that starts at 5:30AM.
Enjoy your day… make it a great one!
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Day 74, happy Friday everyone. 
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Checking in day 319 AF 
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Day 510
Mixed day. Worked 8-11 then was on my course 11-5, then worked ten minutes to check everything was ok
The course is about conscious and unconscious processes so sometimes its a bit uncomfortable. Today was mainly uncomfortable 
going to bed early
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Day 259
Had a good patrol and a nice lunch with an old colleague. I am noticing the tension in the air, even on a beautiful day. It makes it difficult to go about like all is well when it clearly is not. I am stepping back into my bubble again.
I don’t want to, but it’s protective thing. I gotta honor what I’ve been through. I’m extremely sensitive to anger and aggression, still. It’s been boiling hard for a while here, and now? Eek. Overkill aggression, no kindness, no manners…just people on edge. I’m not young and I’ve never seen this before. Not at this level. I am fragile. But you can be fragile and have courage. I did everything I set out to do. I wish things were different.
Please may I not think I’m doomed. Or that I’m permanently broken. In this climate it is now more difficult to recover from trauma. I live in a neighborhood that is an exurb. It’s out of the fray. I’ve gotten used to that. My world is different and much quieter. So I went downtown and cars were weaving, tailgating, honking 2 seconds after the lights changed, some trucks were blowing black smoke, people seemed manic and really tense for such a pretty day. No thanks. 
I would make a hug stand downtown but I’d probably be shot. So I’ll do one here! Unclench your jaw and fists, people- and come to the hug stand.
Maybe I need to live in the forest ? 
. Are people any kinder in the forest?
So happy to be home and have what I do. Peace.
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My forest is sans people, which is perfectly fine with me at the moment. I so feel you. I appreciate you being vulnerable and sharing this because it resonates so much with how I’m feeling. I’m lucky I live somewhere that is “Midwest Nice,” but there is a passive aggressiveness here and underlying tension that is palpable.
You have nailed it. It’s hard to witness and even harder to feel in oneself. I’ll take a big hug, some deep breaths and a reminder to unclench. 
One day at a time, as always.
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@grayce1 What a lovely way to start the day! No Smoking is a lovely less smelly option 
Glad you are utilizing the online meetings for when you are unable to make an in person meeting. Remember that you are not alone! You are doing great
@mindofsobermike Congrats on your official 1 year! Yesterday / today – either way you are crushing it! So happy for you and glad that you were able to keep clear of your friend. It is sad to see people in active addiction but as you know – we can’t help those who don’t want help or think they need help. You did great to pass this test!
@vanessa8 OOH this is lovely Vanessa! triple 2’s is a great number! So happy for you and glad that your hubby and you are getting more quality time together with less drinking on his part 
Keep kicking ass in your sober journey!
@mischa84 OMG I’m so sorry friend – having that kinda of temptation and pressure to drink would be hard to resist (especially when you are feeling like crap and want an escape). I am glad he finally let up. Proud of you for not giving in. Hope tomorrow is much easier for you. I can only imagine the difficulty of trying to take care of others (young kids) when you yourself re feeling so unwell. I can hardly take care of myself in that state.
@lastry OOH that is a fantastic number! 6802 no opiates and 8 days sober !!! you are a rockstar Keep up the amazing momentum Fiona
@scaredsmol 15 days is awesome. The back and forth can become confusing. Keep pushing forward and know you are doing an amazing job on your journey regardless
@PositiveThoughts OOH that is an early start – hoping you get some good rest tonight!
Seriously – so much ugly all around. I tend to close off and try to focus on the positives and like you said even that is difficult at times when you are surrounded by smog and nasty scents even when you are trying to enjoy the outdoors. Not sure if the forest is any better. When we are meant to be tested then the test will find us (that is my thinking anyways). Gotta find that inner peace so we are not faltered by these people (I am so working on this myself so I know its not easy). You are lively and deserve to enjoy a fulfilled life (not in a bubble). Hoping you are able to find the peace in your surroundings. I’m feeling similar ways at the moment – sending love and hugs your way!
Checking in on Friday evening
695 days free of alcohol and weed
1110 days free of cigarettes
Been a hard day. Glad to know that I survived it sober. I have had a few bites that are still itchy and annoying since August. I did try to cut one out and hopefully have been successful. Will know when the wound heals and hopefully the itching wont resume. The first time in over 2 decades that I wanted to keep cutting. It was a weird sensation and I’m glad that I knew it was just my addict mind trying to manifest itself in some form.
I am exhausted. Resting now as I catch up on TS while watching the fight on Netflix.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening – sending you all so much love
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@JazzyS and @RosaCanDo
Thank you both. I appreciate it so much. I feel alone with these observations, and I figured they aren’t as glaringly obvious to others. Not so. It’s sad and exhausting- I’m having a hard time.
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