Checking in early on a hangover free Saturday morning, never gets old. Going to do an online RD meeting, a long walk, and some relaxing today. Off work for the weekend which is always nice! Have a great day everyone! 
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Itās Saturday morning here in the States, tomorrow we do this silly thing where we āFall backā an hour. So at 2am we all fall back to 1am. Then sometimes in the Spring we āSpring forwardā an hour. Itās supposed to somehow give us more daylight hours during our awake time. Most folks see it as more of a hinderance than a help. I like the Fall back one because I get an extra hour of sleep (depending on my cats, so judging from how one of them has been lately itās not likely).
Anyway, Iām 19 days away from hitting 1 year of sobriety from PMO. Around this time last year I was allowing my addict brain to play tricks on me. After being in recovery since Spring of 2015 Iād have thought I would be self-aware enough to catch on to the tricks and manipulations of my addiction. Not the case! Especially when Iād been just riding the wave of sobriety for a long time prior. I wasnāt putting in the work. I wasnāt actively participating in my recovery program. Pretty much nothing other than a few daily(ish) routines Iād put in place like meditation and avoiding certain triggers. These things had become more habits than anything though. I wasnāt truly playing an active role in remaining sober, and because of that I ended up having hell to pay. The pain and suffering I endured and caused was just like before Iād ever even admitted I was an addict.
Slowly but surely, with the help and support of my wife and recovery program I came out of it and was able to experience the brightness of life in recovery again. There were several weeks of darkness to get through first.
Iām grateful for all of it: the darkness and the light, the mountains and the valleys. Itās a true blessing to experience all sides of life; helps me be well rounded and more accepting of the faults we all have as humans.
Works been pretty rough lately. There was a deadline we werenāt able to hit. No real fault of ours, but I still struggle w/ not taking fault on anyway. Another beautiful gift of the life of an addict- feeling responsibility for everything that goes wrong. I have to resist the urge to take on false responsibility though. Iāve worked hard and need to acknowledge that fact.
Thatās enough from me for today. Wishing you all a pleasant and healthy day/night!
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Itās funny how you can think you are the only one that does/thinks/behaves a certain way and then you come on here and read posts from someone else and see similarities.
Congratulations on your days of sobriety, looking forward to seeing you share when you reach that one year mark which I know you will do 
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- Took my wheel out for a small ride last night, felt so weird. It was like ive never rode before lol. Had to be really careful. At work this morning and all is good. Hope everyone has a good weekend much love
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I am now waiting for a room in a psych ward but I am going inpatient. it only took 15 hours and now I have to wait for a bed to open
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That for the update. That is a long wait. Hope a bed opens up quickly 
. Stay positive my friend. Hope you were able to rest your eyes for a bit
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Day 993
Currently at work for an 8 hour shift. Pretty quiet this morning which is nice. Feeling a bit tired still but hoping this coffee helps. Going to spend some time later figuring out a new health plan for November. Just figuring out a new exercise routine and eating plan. Then do laundry once i get home. Thats about it for me! Have a great addiction free day everyone!
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Checking In - at the cottage today doing a ton of work raking leaves and chopping some wood. Feels great to be out in nature!
Need to be aware of the urge to have that post work beer, but Iāve brought some great N/A options with me, so I feel comfortable
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Checking in 7y10m18d sober
Iāve been catching up on here a bit. Now I am feeling more ready to get my brain to do engineering consulting work today, I definitely wasnāt ready earlier. I promised something that Iām not going to be able to finish this weekend, but that will just have to be okay. I canāt let myself stress over it. I hope everyone has a happy and healthy 24 hours. @SadMemeQueen thinking of you and wishing you well!! Hope you get to talk to someone soon.
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212 days sober
Iām wicked tired tonight in a really nice relaxed and ready to sleep way. I think it helped that I went on a long hike today. My friend came with me and we got in 23 kilometers today.
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It was really nice to be out in the mountains. We also had a good conversation. I liked the balance of good talks and quiet times.
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Thatās so beautiful 
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Thank you so much for the tip! Iām looking into it 
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Day 3 and had such a good night sleep last night.
No dreams of gambling and losing money. So that was a good start for this day.
Thank you all so much for the tips and kind welcome words. Iām in a positive state of mind at the moment and thinking: I can do this!
Itās nice to know there is a community here who can helpt when I hit the bad days and the addiction is taking over.
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Hey checking in i feel like a emotional wreck. I throught booking my fight would give me relief but i just have been thinking about all the things that my ex has made me realize that i had missed out on in my addiction. Alot of growing up i have needed to do and alot more im learning. I really wish things werenāt the way they are but there is nothing i can do but move forward. By myself i sucks but if i dont do this i will never know, right so with work slow here i leave next week. Still alot to do before i go.oh know i might love it . Idk 
keep ya all posted
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Day 9. Went over to my in-laws for dinner and fireworks which would always have been an excuse to drink heavily. Tonight I was designated driver and feel great about it. Temptation hasnāt started to sneak in yet.
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Saturday afternoon. Spent the day so far playing with my 18 month old daughter, and taking down Halloween decorations.
Iām tired and cranky!
No escape from or easy rest from the work/housework/parenting grind.
When my daughter gets up from my nap, we are heading to my in-laws for a walk and some dinner. Hopefully I can drop the effort level and chill out a bit this afternoon there.
Iāll be solo parenting tonight after dinner.
Looking forward to another sober Saturday night, and hopefully a good rest tonight.
Take care of yourself. 
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Day 28
Pretty Fall day. Just chillin, some light chores. Been sleeping ok. Husband is working at it.
Have a great afternoon!
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