@CR84 @mybeautifullife Stay strong today, do whatever it takes to go to bed sober tonight. Don’t listen to lies the 
tells you! You got this!
I will do the same!
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Day 1085
Really enjoyed reading everyones check ins this morning. Really feeling for those that are struggling or having a hard time right now tho 
@Ccn31 congratulations Kara on 5 months!!! Great work 
@mybeautifullife Welcome to the double digits!! Awesome job!!
You know last night i was just feeling so defeated. Not in a recovery sense but just a general feeling of defeat in life. I was beating myself up over my lack of a relationship with my HP, beating myself up over my failed attempts at getting healthy and meeting my health goals, beating myself up over my lack of energy lately… like honestly January has been a tough month (I think it has been for many of us).
So i prayed last night and listened to a few blurbs from an online sermon from Elevation Church. It did help. And reading others posts this morning, helped me also. I just feel… i actually dont know how I feel… but its not a good feeling. But i also feel hope that things will get better. Ive been having alot of worries lately too. Worries for my sons health (that his brainstem tumor will begin to grow again). I worry for him. I get these obsurd thought’s of how I probably wouldnt make it/do well, if cancer took his life. I worry about my health (yet Im struggling to change that). Im too much in my head lately so im trying to practice being in the moment. Thinking of the future creates anxiety and reliving the past creates depression. So i just need to stay present. So today thats my goal. Is to stay present. Im not going to make permanent decisions based on tmeporary emotions. Just pray and deep breathe and remain grateful. Sorry for the longish post. I have alot on my mind. Its like being stuck in my own self made prison. Today will be a better day. Im at work so thats a good distraction. Tomorrow ill get back on track with my daily routine. Things will get better. Have a great day everyone!
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My deepest condolences James 
Im glad ur still here and with us. Put everything you got into sobriety. Work on it daily. We are all here for u friend 
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@just_laura OOF that would be a lot to walk into after work. I’m sorry. Grateful that you are not letting it get under your skin and didn’t loose your shit. I wish I could say that things will change but most of the time I think we just have to change how we react to em. I’m glad you can see the positives of having him around and focus on them. Hope you are able to enjoy a relaxing Sunday 
@handoferis I’m glad that you muted the anonymous comments. We don’t know who is out there lurking and just poking at you just for the sake of trying to rile you up. You don’t need that in your life. Keep working your blog with whatever makes you happy. Glad you were able to have a good cry and an emotional release. Sometimes one this sets us off and then we are finally able to unload all the burden we have been carrying around. Hope you are doing better today.
@goku2019 So lovely to see you pop in – you have been missed. LOL – the app did get a face lift at the beginning of the year – I am still getting used to the changes. Happy belated birthday friend. I am so sorry for all that you have been going through for past month. I do think maybe counseling will be good for the two of you. Do you think that would be something you’d be interested in? Drinking and the dark negative thoughts are no answer and will only make matters worse. Try to find a positive outlet for yourself
@joyce19 Sorry for the difficult reach out that you are dealing with. I know some people (even family) can be hard to deal with and can be toxic to our growth. If you feel like this is leading towards the negative then I would advice on staying clear. You have to protect yourself. Sending hugs and love 
@mybeautifullife WOW that is awesome work on you should be proud. Don’t keep looking at your relapses but instead focus on your strength and sober time. You have learned that moderation is not for you. You have learned tools and tips to help you stay sober. You have support around you and we are here cheering you on. Keep up the amazing work and stacking up the days! Great work on your double digits 
@canadiangirl I know I leaned on sugar a lot at the beginning as my body was trying to get the missing sugar from all the alcohol consumption. It is a battle for sure. Wish you luck with your challenge. Check out the No More Added Sugar thread if you haven’t already – some great tips and support here to help you out.
@rockstar24777 It is a great reminder that the chemical inbalance can cause our depressive episodes and 100% need to be aware that it will all pass. Great to see you doing and feeling better. SO happy that you deleted the apps. I do think they are so harmful for one’s self esteem. I only tried to use briefly years ago and it did send me in a negative spiral. HAPPY Sunday friend – have a great day
@ccn31 YIPPEE Kara – way to go friend. So grateful that the dreams are not our reality. You are doing a fantastic job – keep it up
@TeaCosy It is a mystery for sure – grateful that you didn’t give in to the thoughts yesterday
@cr84 Thanks Cass Giving you love and hugs – Changing up living situations can be a hard adjustment. We will just need to make the best of it 
28 days is impressive work friend. Keep pushing through and know those cravings don’t last. You are stronger without the poison. Totally important to get back to your routines and have something to focus on. I am excited about celebrating your 30 days and many more milestones with you.
I’m so sorry love – It has to be a ongoing fear and that has to be overwhelming to deal with on a daily basis. Sending you love and hugs and I do hope that reaching out to your HP is helping to cope with these thoughts / feelings. Will work with you on staying in the present 
Checking in on Sunday morning
Slept well I think. Feel like I was knocked out when I did finally fall asleep. Woke up with chills and a fuzzy stuffy head. My sis just got to my parents place so hopefully I will get to see her for some time during her visit.
It was snowing this morning but doesn’t look like it will accumulate to much.
Just enjoying a nice cup of coffee (2nd now LOL) in bed while I catch up here… Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day – sending you all so much love
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Thank you Jazzy. I’m on a mission to stay strong this time. I usually pull away from the apps (accountability) so this along with some routine will surely help get me through:purple_heart:🩷:purple_heart: 
ODAAT:muscle:
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@acromouse I never heard of this. I’m gonna have to check it out. Thank you
@Jeslie that’s great. Keep up the great work!
@mrfantztik I missed:unamused: Happy 428 though
@Finn To a day a little better than yesterday and worse than tomorrow. (If that even makes sense)
@onthewagon Hell yeah:muscle: love this.
@canadian girl The thing is you caught yourself. Watch the fake sugars though too. They are quite terrible in their own right. Just something to keep in mind. regardless you’re doing amazing my dear🩷💪
@mrmoustache Have you tried seeing if setting up a little routine may help? I’ve never been routine oriented before. Like EVER. This most recent attempt I accidentally got one going and now the last few days I’ve been so busy I’ve missed parts of it and find myself in a funk. Just some food for thought✨
@Chevy -27 C !!! I was crying at -20 wind chill taking my dogs out. Oof 
@Rockstarr Those apps are trash in my (albeit old) ass misses the days of just talking outside of technology (I ironically state here) But as far as deep personal relationships, I feel like they should be… PERSONAL. Personal opinion lol
@ccn31 5 MONTHS!!! Luckily that was just a dream and you woke up without a hangover:muscle:
EVERYONE IS DOING GREAT. LOVE IT 🩷💜🩷
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