Ive never had a hairdresser massage with a haircut, hopefully it’ll be over and done with quick!
Glad your Moms ok 
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Checking in. I’m safe, I’m at a psych ward. They took me in because I was (and I am) a total wreck. I have still very, very dark thoughts and I’m full of fear, but I’m in a safe environment, so I’m really grateful for that. Doctors and nurses are so wonderful and compassionate in here.
But I wanna thank you all for your wonderful messages and all the support you’ve been giving to me! I read all the messages with tears in my eyes. I’m just so grateful to all of you, this community is literally a lifesaver. I can’t thank you enough, my sober fam! THANK YOU! I love ya’ll!
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I am glad you are exepting help.
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Checking in on day 538. I slept really badly last night…that kind of sleep when you feel just on the verge of being awake the whole time 
luckily my daughter got up and out of the house for school easily today and I made it through work 
I’ve just completed a workout so I’ve hopefully tired myself out enough to sleep better tonight.
@MrMoustache I’m glad you’re in a safe place and being looked after
@Naomi well done on not picking up after a frustrating day, sober you can deal with anything life throws at you much better
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Im so glad that ur in a safe place with compassionate people that will help 
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LOL I love that - what did you end up getting? If you haven’t already - post your readings on the Any Avid Readers Here? What are you currently reading? thread
@lighter I do love a good road trip… Absolutely love the freedom of driving on the open road and feeling care free with some great tunes blasting. Hope you enjoy your trip
@Minatasha Way to go friend. Great work on deleting the game. It is a great feeling to feel free of these games. I had so many on my phone that I used for distraction when I started my sobriety. Felt good to delete them when I gained some strength in my journey. Keep pushing forward 
Good for you! Don’t worry about what others say or think, they don’t know what you have been through and how much effort you are putting in daily to stay sober. Super proud of you and keep stacking up the days
Great job on pushing through. We gotta remember that the urges don’t last and the wine will not solve anything. You are doing great with 17 days 
@LittleMissL Sorry that you did not have a good day. Sending hugs and comfort your way. Hope you enjoyed the movie and pizza night 
@Naomi Oh man that is a lot going on today. I am sorry that your friend was unable to hear you vent today. Glad you did not pick up the bottle and found a way to push through. Hope you have a good nights sleep and can wake up to a better day tomorrow
@MrMoustache so very happy to hear that you are at the psych ward where you are safe and around professionals who can help you. Grateful that you are checking in here regularly. We all do want to see you doing well. Sending love your way - hope the thoughts subside and you are able to get a decent nights rest 
Checking in Monday afternoon…
Been a lazy day. Did get a few minor tasks done but still trying to get motivation to do more. My body and mind are not on the same page LOL. At least I know I don’t want to numb myself …ODAAT!
Wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day / evening! Sending you all so much love
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Thanks, cuddling with doggo and watching funny dog videos helped alot! Feeling better already 
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5 weeks
All i want to do is heat my frozen spanokopita and drink a bottle of red wine to go with it. Just hours of being with myself is tiring. I cant believe i picked up a shift tomorrow. Ruined the vibe today. And one of these days ill be so sick of myself ill drink again.
Ill try taking a melatonin at 7 again because that gets me to sleep around 11. Ill try to get there early and take the group of residents i like to have.
Fuck this.
I have to go to the pharmacy to get eye drops for my cat. I still havent cleaned my car - its bad to the level of multiple empty food containers and piles of trash and recycling in the passenger seat. I may bribe myself. The best fries in town are at this Mexican restaurant pretty close to the pharmacy. I may go there and get an order of take out fries and a soda and just clean my car in the parking lot.
All i have to do is leave now with a trash bag and some more sanitizing wipes and washcloths.
Thanks for being a place to write this nonsense. Leaving now.
Edit: so that went horribly! They tried to charge me way more than I paid the last time so i didnt get the eye drops. Then i forgot the ketchup (the best fries in town are at a place that has no ketchup which is Fine its worth it to just bring some of my own…but still. Then i drove while still angry which i hate doing. Now im in a strip mall parking lot with my plain fries and a dirty car. Im not leaving here until my car is clean. Then i can go in the grocery store and get something sweet. 
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Checking in sober. Still have this random
Cold flu virus whatever thing which is keeping me out of the gym and killing my mood. Taken some lemsip (blackcurrant flavour of course, not horrible floor cleaner lemon flavour) which has helped and am in bed early. Keeping my fingers crossed that I will be well enough to be back in the gym in the morning. Literally can’t believe I just wrote that… I’ve come a long way.
Finally got my tax return done after collecting all the paperwork and treated myself with some skittles as a result - definitely a guilty pleasure. @Tragicfarinelli don’t be too jealous of my tax return completeness.
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Well done! 
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Glad you are in a safe place & I hope you start to feel a bit better soon, sending hugs
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Thank you 
I love this! I do this often just to get some shit done. Hope you were able to get those fries and enjoy in a tidied up car.
The spanokopita sounds lovely - i have a slice left in my freezer that I am now debating on heating up. We don’t need no wine… we are doing well without the alcohol. Keep coming here and don’t let the down moods convince you that you need a drink.
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@Betu thank you new friend! I’m glad you enjoyed it. It’s nice to meet you and excellent work on your double digits. It gets better and better, but so slowly sometimes that you barely notice it. Welcome 
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I’m happy you’re safe and can begin again.
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Thank you! And I appreciate the insight. Odaat.
Big hug and see you around for sure.
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I’ve just been catching up on this thread and I see a lot of posts from people having crappy days, just bleh days, illnesses and other life goings on…i just want to send out a hug to everyone here (and anyone who might be reading but not posting) and to say how proud I am of each and every one of you for coming here and sharing and finding strength in this community life isn’t always easy and I dont have any wise words of advice, but I see you and I’m here with you and we can get through things stronger together 
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Checking in. It’s Monday and 371 Day sober. God when I hit that 365 I didn’t think I need to count anymore. I’ll just proud I made the year and I’m gonna continue on… I like this group, but I’m not on here much. Hopefully, when I retire this year, I can be on more. It’s cold here in New York, but there’s a beautiful full moon how about where everybody else is at
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Thank you not that I had a terrible day but we have Covid going around my facility again so everything is shut down and makes for a long day. MeI’m personally not sick But I work in a forensic psychiatric center, and when it gets like this, it’s such a disservice to the patients because they don’t move off their units for weeks at a time. At least let them come up to the gym for a little while. I don’t know. It just makes me angry at times… Regardless, I’m happy I’m not second at least
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Oh how I know what you’re dealing with. I’m proud af of you though. Sober rage is another monster. You got this🩷💜🩷
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