Checking in day 383 AF 
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Happy 24 all 
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326 days for me. I am well but very mindful of everything. I never over analyze events except for lately. Silently contemplating what is happening around me and in my life. I think if not for sobriety I would be in bed covers pulled over my head
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Checking in. Greetings from the psych ward! Today has been a good day. They granted me a permit to go outside for a walk and I did so. It was very lovely, sun was shining and it was only +1 C. After that Iāve been just reading and chatting with my two roommates who are really good fellas. Iām going home on Monday and I got a psych nurseās appointment then which is nice. Canāt wait to go home, I just wanna go for a run and do my all little things alone. I feel rested and I donāt have those dark thoughts anymore. Week in here did wonders. Now Iām listening straight edge hc punk while my roommates are sleeping. Life is full of hope again and I feel positive at the moment. I just gotta stay focused and vigilant. Iām so happy to be sober and alive. And oh, my cholesterol levels are a bit high, so I gotta focus more on eating healthy (Iām a vegan, but I eat too much shit) and exercising. But Iām kinda happy that my cholesterol levels are a bit high, because that serves me as a real motivator. So, healthy life, here I come! Have a great day/evening, my sober peeps! May the force be with you!
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Iām at 4 days sober from M.Oing and 5 days sober from porn.
I need to remember that when things get stressful, boring, or i get an urge to act out that is not my true goal in my life.
Acting out just keeps me depressed attached to this habit that doesnāt move me forward in life.
And that iāll feel a little bit of pleasure when acting out, but iāll feel worse after acting out.
Itās never a good idea to act out.
staying hooked to Pmo will keep me from pursuing my goals
Pursuing Pmo will keep me from spending the effort needed to find and work on a relationship, itāll keep from pursuing my faith, and from pursuing a job that i am passionate about.
Yeah i might say internally:
I have all these stressors and pmo is one of the things that relieves them for me.
But i know that there is plenty of other ways to destress.
Meditation, deep breathing, walking, and doing a hobby that i find fun (reading, mtg, etc)
What i need to continue to remember is that just because a person caused some much drama in your life in the past it doesnāt mean it is bound to happen again, so I should be careful to reduce drama, but not live in constant fear and anxiety about wondering if itāll happen again.
The thing is even if iām sure itāll happen again i can find peace with it because Iāll know better how to deal with it again and i know that itāll wonāt bring me peace to constantly think about ways to prevent it so i should give myself a break from thinking about it.
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So glad to hear you will be going home soon and things are looking brighter for you mate 
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Sunday morning lay in 8.40am.
Off to gym soon then probably not too much in the arvo as itās expected to be around 36Ā°C maybe just a quick wander through a fairly local forest. Good day to you all
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Thanks, man! Appreciated it!
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You sound sooo positive and uplifted!! Im glad to hear ur doing well 
Hope Monday goes well for u!
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This made me laugh!!!
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Sounds like a little rough go but definitely handling like the champ you are š©·šš©·
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@sabrina80 sorry for the illness. Hope you were ablet o rest and recover today. 
I love it! Look forward to seeing the new look 
@noshame Sorry for the grumpy and blah feeling. Change in meds can cause behavior changes. Glad that you were able to see yourself as not being helpful and are working on correcting that. Hope your day gets better
@betu sounds like a stressful upcoming month. I do hope that you are able to find your peace and serenity and have some space for yourself. 16 days is strong but still early and its important to be vigilant of your triggers. 
@finn Sounds like a wonderful routine and very active. I spent most of my first few months either sleeping or playing silly games on my phone. You are doing a wonderful job in stacking up your days. 
@pamela666 Sorry for the guilt ridden meltdown. Our addict brain really feeds on our guilt and regret. We have to remember that our past canāt be changed and we are doing all the right things in paving a better tomorrow. Day 2 and counting ā you keep up the amazing work
@von100 I do love a great staycation. What color are you planning to paint the space? Have a wonderful time decorating
@juli1 I love the thought and the positive direction. 11 days is amazing girl ā love this for you Jules
@tailee17 Big hugs to you my friend 
Hope you are able to find some comfort and find out what is happening around you
So very happy to read thisāso very positive in your words. You are doing an amazing job my friend. Hoping for continued momentum in this positive direction!
Late afternoon check in
I wrote out the check in on my phone and ended up deleting it instead of sending it 
Glad everything was rather fresh in my mind to rewrite it.
My brother made us a great brunch today and I rested for most of the day. I too am still in pjās and only got the challenge done today @Jesile
Feeling like I have an ear ache / infection and head is pounding. Did enjoy a lovely slice of vegan biscoff chocolate cake that iāve been craving forever. Now maybe time for sleep LOL
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love
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Beautiful realizations.
I would add, there is a lot of misunderstanding and negative stereotyping with narcisism, but itās just a way humanās sufferā¦ Perhaps at the expense of others, sure, but also there is a possibility to look honestly at this suffering and change.
I loved your thinking here, a lot of compassion towards yourself, so also towards your family.
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Thank you! Youāre doing great!!
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Checking in for a second time today. Got a 30 minute brisk walk in on the treadmill this morning like I wanted to but unfortunately no haircut ( maybe tomorrowš¤·š¼āāļø) since I got sidetracked by some side missions here in the house . On the positive side I did get rid of 3 big garbage bags of random clutter out of my house, both bathrooms deep cleaned and 4 loads of laundry done. As an added bonus my husband is making dinner right now which is HUGE because itās 1 of the maybe 10 times a year he actually does. So making sure I enjoy the break from cooking for everyone.
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Lavender it is an ascent wall. I paint the other 3 walls grey when first moved in but never finished painting the room ( was to busy getting drunk )
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Did some one say Exercise? Oh yes I am up with that. So glad you are feeling better and coming home Monday!
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Excercise ???!! I thought they said extra fries!!
ā¦.Sorry I couldnāt stop myself. Iāll just escort myself out now 
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Ooh I love this color combinationā¦will feel very relaxing to work in this space. Exciting that you will be taking this project on and will now be completing it with your sober self 
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