Nice. I’m day 370 AF.
Feels great, doesn’t it? 
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Checking in to maintain focus, stay safe, sober and mindful everyone! 
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Yesterday went well. Luna did pick herself up a little bit. Workday was good, new job seems to be happening (although still not clear when). And there was some sunshine on my way home 
Today seeing a doc for my hand, very probably not going to solve the issue but maybe at least get some answers to what’s happening? Will have to wait and see.
In the meanwhile, let’s all have as good a day as wel all can friends. Sober and clean or nothing will come from it. Love from my commute.
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Went to the doctors office for more tests today. It’s been a year since I stopped drinking, but I did a number on my internals. That’s what lots of years of heavy drinking will do. I just feel lucky to be alive.
Good news is I’m on the mend. Most of my blood work came back already ( I love technology). So far there’s been great progress. Almost back to normal. Still holding my breath waiting for the rest of the results, but I have a good feeling about it. 
No plans to drink ever again. I’m more than fine with that.
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Checking in.
Remembering the day when every morning counted. And still, every morning counts!
Long day ahead.
Stay on the sober side
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@Pamela I bargained with myself every which way there was for many years, believing something would work. Eventually, I understood there was no controlling it. The problem was whether or not I cared about the outcome. Tbh, I’m not sure what my warning signs are. The first time I wanted to get sober, it was like a switch flipped. It was night and day and not drinking was easy. Until I got hit by a case of the ‘fuck its’ 10 days into quarantine and ruined the streak for 3 years. I didn’t care anymore. Then one day the switch suddenly flipped back again, and here I am. I guess that’s why I vowed to myself to check in daily this time (something I didn’t do before). I NEED to remember where I was. I NEED to remember what I did. I NEED to remember the truth about my disease. I can’t go back. I won’t! So I remind myself daily, just like it was yesterday. I guess my warning sign would be when I stopped arguing with those lies that still live somewhere in my head…but then wouldn’t it be too late? Hmm. This really got me thinking if I’d even see it coming 
Can’t ever let my guard down
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Heh, just realized I wrote 681 yesterday. Anyone even notice? Didn’t think so. Doesn’t matter. I’m here for today! 
Anyway. I feel pretty good. I braved the arctic tundra early on and accomplished everything I set out to do. Relaxed with a show before school was out, then puttered around the house while my daughter played with a friend. Ended up with another headache by the end, but not as intense as last night. The tasks where I’m looking down seem to be the culprit (another reason to hate the dishes 
). Nothing too spectacular, but overall a nice day 
Hope you all have one too!
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Day 15 
So I am happy to present my new Avatar - Sobriety Championship belt to adore
I know I know it looks amazing… please don’t be jelous 
Champ has a good taste, that I guess, we can all agree.
#TeamBringIt
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Ugh the worst part! I am in this hell right now and it feels neverending. Deep breaths my friend…we will get through this
Yeah you did!! Keep it going champ
Seriously the best thing you can do…stay as busy as possible and you will get through the cravings. It does get easier and then you can start making new routines for yourself. Great work
@MizzTT welcome back Tasha. Day 1 is awesome work… great to see you putting effort into your sobriety. We are here with you… ODAAT
@Kareness hope you do get that review. I’m sure it’s stellar! Good luck with your tests… hopefully some good results 
. I know it’s nerve-wracking having to wait but these things are out of your hands - do your best to breathe. LOL – yeah that shit is heavy and it was not easy to get it into the basement but now that it is set it is a dream. Hope you will get to use it soon and enjoy it as much as I like mine.
@Bomdhil sorry that you relapsed Thomas. Do you have anything left at home? Do get rid of it if you do. Glad you are going to meetings and happy that you are on day 4. Just do not give up on yourself 
. ODAAT
@Pamela it’s important to know the warning signs and have a plan for when they arise. For me the biggest is when I start thinking I never really had a problem. That maybe it was all in my head and I could moderate like the normies. This is when I play back my voicemails to myself and read the notes I wrote in early sobriety listing how bad it was and how hard it was to get to day one…no way do I ever want to repeat that
Good for you! I too don’t mind drinking around me any more but if I had an open bottle of wine around I would be in trouble. Grateful that you poured it out!
@sober26 sorry the withdrawals are so bad. Hang in there! 1 week tomorrow . It does get easier. Hope you had a good evening
@Catmama23 good luck Lauren. Don’t go into it with feelings of past disappointments. I’m glad that you are seeking better employment and not just settling for where you are at. Grateful that you are not drinking as a way to deal with your manager. Wishing you luck with your job search
@Climbin those sites are never easy. I only dipped my toes in a few many years ago and it really was a ego deflater. Don’t get discouraged!
@JMS19 it is hard to keep busy during the cold winter months. Maybe take up a hobby like puzzles, coloring in adult coloring books or paint by numbers or baking/ cooking some new and exciting. Feb 1st is a ways away so you do have time to gather more sober days and strength. If you still feel wobbly at that point (which is completely normal in early sobriety) then are you able to not go? Or you could be on antibiotics or make yourself the DD. You are doing great so far…keep this momentum going
@Mira_D congratulations on your 4 days smoking free 
. Good lord…that incident sounds scatas hell. Glad you were there for the little guy. Of course it effected you. Big hugs to you. Hope the guy is safe and well 
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@s_unrelax excellent work on your sober days! Totally normal to have these mood fluctuations. They do even out and get better and you also develop tools of how to deal with them. Keep stacking up the days. Don’t worry about your age. You are getting your life on track now and it’s never too late to start living.
@mno glad to hear the job is a go. Hopefully you’ll find out the when soon🙏🏽. Good luck with your doctor appointment today. Fingers crossed that you can find some relief and comfort with your hands
@MNfast that’s great news. We do put our minds and bodies through hell with our addiction. Great to know that we are able to repair some of not all of the damage 
@Just_Laura I didn’t catch it but to be honest with the crazy amount of posts I have found myself speed reading. Really hope I am not missing anything from anyone. It does matter… You are 693 days sober 
. It’s great when we can hit that cold air and get our errand / tasks accomplished. I seriously feel so powerful when I get simple stuff like gas and groceries in this cold weather 
. Hope that headache goes away and you are able to get some sleep
Checking in late Tuesday night…now early Wed 
748 days free of alcohol and weed
1163 days free of cigarettes
It was a super busy day and I’m so tired but wired. It’s just a little past midnight here. Glad I am seeing a dent in some of my major tasks.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day/evening. Sending you all so much love
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Checking in on day 8. Very tired and cranky:sweat_smile: I am proud of myself though I drove to Tacoma (about two hours from where I live) and realized it’s not as nerve wrecking as I thought and did my advanced state board practical! I feel I did well, maybe a few minor hiccups but I definitely think I should pass. 
my house in a disaster in all honestly…I have adhd and when my mind is hectic my house gets the same way. With my written state board before that and then this test I’ve only been able to focus on getting through the tests. I have five days until my next, and final practical thank God, so I will be trying to focus on getting my house back in order so my mind can be more at peace too. And continuing on my walks. 🩵 I’m just so burnt out on motherhood too, I raise my son full time alone and he’s severely autistic so it’s a lot on me! Just need to try and decompress. I celebrated passing my written with a 10k step walk with my new weighted vest in fresh air with music playing in my headphones and it felt amazing-much better way to celebrate than alcohol which actually just strips away all the good endorphins.
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Getting gas at 8:30 was the first thing I did bc my light was on. I stopped the pump at $10! Good enough!!!
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How long do you have alcohol freei know when i first stopped i could not for the life of me sleep maybe 2 hrs a night for about a month i really had to find things to calm my mind or my stress would drive my anxiety crazy. I started to meditate fir 30 mins before bed and listened to calm forest noises and after a while boom back to minimum 8 hrs a night i just had to learn to slow my mind down. Hope that gives you a little help reach out if you have more questions
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Had a day where a few things didn’t work out for me, added in with the constant dull pain im in it did get me in a mood.
These past few weeks I have had fleeting thoughts of drinking but its almost comical to me when they pop in… they are easily dismissed, maybe earlier on they may not have, but by denying them in the early days you build strength against those thoughts later on.
Anyway i didn’t drink, went to acupuncture and then home to relax with the wife and kids.
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Hi all, checking in on Day 110. Life is busy again now back to work and school but it is OK. Going back in is never as bad as you think it is going to be.
Thank you to all for your kind words of the previous thread. My colleague was one of those people that leaves a huge hole as she was so active and full of life. It has been sad being back at work, but I can share this with other colleagues so that is really positive.
I am out and about on site visits today, the pregnancy sickness is finally manageable so can pick that up again. Quite excited I have my 20 week scan next week too. There is a lot of sadness at the moment, but a lot of things to be excited about too.
Wishing everyone here a positive, sober day.
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Check in Day 61
Half day at work today and quick packing for my trip. I leave this afternoon by 3pm to drive 30 min to the station to catch a train. Then a tube, then a train and then a taxi to get to my hotel. I will be there by 7:30pm this evening and plan to go straight for dinner. Take a lime and soda up to my room. Get on the 9pm online AA meeting and then get to bed ready for the big day tomorrow. I don’t think I will need anything else to do as I will have all of you on my laptop and in my pocket and the meeting finishes at 10pm so I should be ready to sleep then. I might take a sock I am knitting just in case. I keep an emergency sock on the knitting needles at all times since it is small enough to tuck into my handbag and easy enough to remember the pattern without needing to carry it with me.
Tomorrow will be spent in presentations and then schmoozing with the people from the company we are merging with and getting to know them so I expect I will be quite busy until its time to make the return journey at 5:30pm. I should be home by 11pm and definitely ready for bed!
I don’t know what the future holds on the work front but I do know I will not drink today and today is all that matters.
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Checking in. 51 AF, 22 weed free. I slept pretty okay although I woke up twice because of really crazy and vivid dreams. It’s so fun to dream again because when I smoked and drank, I couldn’t dream at all. I had an early morning because I had to go to the lab to take my bipolar and borderline med’s levels. My doctor also ordered a liver levels because she wants to know if I had been drinking but that’s not an issue for me, thank God. And I also should have fasted without eating or drinking anything, but I drank some water and a coffee before going to the lab, so let’s see what the tests will reveal. I just needed my morning coffee so badly, haha. Have a great day/evening, I love you, fam!
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I’m enjoying my new coffee too much. 
Another day, another play for positivity. It’s an activity in itself this positivity. Keeping busy, blinkers engaged, stay in my lane, process, don’t speak just for the sake of it… it’s kinda working. On my fifth book of the year already
Stay sane, make happy
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Thanks ill try not too
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Ugh another night cant sleep hope to get some sleep soon dad is sick and coughing up a storm got him some NyQuil hope it helps soon
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Thank you for that reminder. I tend to forget that and stress over it.
@MrFantastik Sorry to hear things are still bothering you. I hope you get out of your funk soon. I usually hate everything including myself when I’m in one of those.
@Stobbe07 Hey Jarred. Welcome to TS 
Nice to see you here with us.
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This morning has been a bit rough. My nervous system is not used to getting up that early. My symptoms are worst in the morning, so it took the whole system a while to settle.
But I got up and helped my daughter to school. Her school try out yesterday went ok. It’s still stressful for her, all the walking, stairs and some such. But she managed it ok, and went for another day today. We are taking it as her symptoms allow it.
My partner left today for a six week clinic stay. I will need to rely more on the help of others in that time. But my family is here for us, and a home help should start coming from next week on.
Today I want to do some programming in the morning, a meeting later, and a bit of rowing exercise. I also want to wash my hair today, which is a major thing right now and exacerbates my symptoms quite a bit.
Today’s picture is a nice wintery view from my balcony.
Peace and love for life always 
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