Oh yay. 50 no alcohol… That is so wonderful… Congrats on the weed days too.
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Thank you! I’m starting to feel like a human being again, haha
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You can, its normal to come to a conclusion like this and seek help from someone else.
Before, I’d suggest you tell her exactly what you told us. Its a meta conversation in therapy, so talking about how we are talking together. If you can’t work this out with her, or she is defensive, I’d consider your other options.
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A very good luck on interview… I am praying for you…
Getting out and feeling accomplished is important for your self esteem.
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Second check in for the day. Work kick off Meeting went well , I crushed my portion of the presentation and successfully got out of there without getting roped into hitting the bar. Now I can continue to hideout in my warm and safe little booze free hideaway I call home.
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Checking in day 315. AA Meeting this morning were just Homies… Had great discussions. Sharing is amazing when you are around others who get it and been where I am now… Met with sponsor and always a pleasure. She has 43 years sober and wisdom to share and I listen. I got outside and planted some seedlings. Kale and lavender. Not exactly as I would have done it but achieved plants in ground even though I followed instructions of the Boss… I am on a mission of learning and practicing Humility. If it keeps the peace I am IN. I have water aerobics tonight and keep telling myself maybe I wont go… no I can’t do that. Going to get in swim suit and be ready to go …I feel so great afterwards but getting there is the battle.
Orange Marmalade recipe is on my counter and I have home grown just picked oranges. I could procrastinate on that event too. but no… I am off to conquer Marmalade.
Stay sober my friends and to those here for new SOBER life and new attitude for 2025…
“LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER SOBER AND GETS BETTER EVERY DAY!”
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4 weeks
Im going to call my sobriety date the 9th i think…though i dont think i did drink on the 8th the 9th feels more solid.
I shoveled so much snow today. I was seriously late to work and it put me in a bad place for the rest of the day. I have to go back tomorrow on my day off to finish somethings and drop something off. I have to go to the library, costco, dollar store, post office. And to get my sisters christmas present.
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Thank you for asking. No fires near me. @Dazercat said winds are nasty and one started not sure how close to him. Mother Nature is fierce at times no matter how we try to control her.
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Sounds like a very busy day. Do you have to shovel snow every day? Or are you good for a few days? If you are using your arms what a work out. I shoveled some dirt today for planting and had to sit and rest after.
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It’s pretty bad. Up to 1262 acres burning since 10 am. Nothing contained yet. Very close to Santa Monica. Not close to me. Winds are going to be hurricane force tonight. And we haven’t had rain in forever.
How to doing @Clenton85
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@JazzyS I’m tired from just dragging the walk pad up the stairs and getting it out of the box! Glad you like yours. I’ll try mine out soon.
Continuing the discussion from Checking in daily to maintain focus #72:
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Yesterday i took a couple girls out on the bus to go to a McDonald’s with a playground. As soon as we got there my big girl started screaming at my little girl about her socks
So i asked her to take off the headphones and stop yelling (headphones have noise canceling so she wasn’t meaning to yell) and then she was mad at me the whole time we were there and wouldn’t play with the little one.
Then when we left we walked about half a mile to a grocery store (where big girl wanted to go) and little one started melting down.
We were gone for 5+ hours and the whole time one or the other or both of them were upset and i felt super overwhelmed. 
Today i had to go apply for unemployment and my big girl is mad at me because she decided that today we were going to stay home and i left.
I just can’t win.
Day 820.8
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You are very much a winner! Keep that in mind always! Children are acting like children, it’s on them, not you! ( Sorry, children)
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Well i went on a dating sit hopeing to maybe connect with someone. Ugh nothing is easy these days.
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Ugh I remember those days of smaller kids and nothing you do seems to please them.
You’re doing the best you can for whats happening at the present time, try and find 20 mins to decompress headphones on with music, shower, walk etc.
You’re doing amazing @Scorpn and this season will pass 
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Boredom is setting in, I am finding each day harder than the last but trying my hardest. Day 5 and waking up the last few days not hung over or full of regret has been great. But man I have been eating so much, mostly just to keep my hands busy, it’s so cold out hard to go for walks and enjoy the outdoors. Telling everyone I am doing dry January as a way to get out of explaining why I am not drinking/partying but I have a dinner on Feb 1 and that honestly scares me, but one day at a time I guess.
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Just checking in. Ooof today was a bit of a day at work but got through it. One of my students has a chronic medical issue, hes rarely at school and always uncomfortable; one of them is very loud and can get aggrsssive/agitated, which sets of the othef who doesnt like loud noises and is afraid. So much to balance in 3 my-size (I wantsd to say “little” as they are young but they are literally as big as me) humans. Day 4 of no smoking. Definitly feel tired and a bit irritable, but I am okay. Just oooo tired from startinf back thus week and not sleeping so great! Hope son sleeps through the night…poor guy his poor ear. We have had a referral for him to have tubes placed in his ears for 2.5 years now and still waiting…yes, i love our universal healthcare system (that we pay out the ying yang for in tax) but our system is collapsing and it is so frustrating when it comss to our little ones! Going to call the hospital and see what the heck is going on and inquire aboug the waitlist.
Aside fron all this I am okay. Witnessed and was involved jn emerg response to a student who has seizures at school today. It was almost -20 outside and I took my coat off to wrap around his legs, as another teacher spoke softly to him. Such a little guy to endure that, cannot say I wasnt effected.
Xo everyone. Be well in this new year xo.
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Day 54
No Alcohol! 
I’m grateful to be living today with hangover-free mornings and no anxiety or depression. Life still has its challenges—like being unemployed, unmarried, and feeling the pressure of increasing age—but I have hope that everything will fall into place if I stay sober and work hard in the days ahead.
However, I still experience cravings and urges to drink every day, but I’m proud to say I haven’t given in. One challenge I face is the fluctuation in my mood: some days I feel happy and highly motivated, while on other days, I feel lazy and sad for no apparent reason.
After doing some research, I’ve learned that these mood swings are part of the recovery process, as my brain is adjusting to this new, alcohol-free lifestyle. I’m optimistic that, with time, things will improve.
Is anyone else here experiencing similar mood swings in the early days of recovery?
I hope everyone is doing well! 
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Oh yes… the fluctuation in mood was like a roller coaster… highs n lows and everything in btwn. Its quite normal for sure. Now my mood has settled out for the most part but in early recovery it was hard. Especially when i hadnt learned any new skills yet to manage intense emotion. Overtime, the more i learned diff skills to do this, the easier it became to keep my mood more stable 
Have u found anything that helps you during ur highs and lows?
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Cool! Thanks for the advice!
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