Yesssssss. Ten weeks tomorrow. Hell yeah✨🩷
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Lol I don’t know about amazing but thank you!
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So happy for you. The new place sounds great. It sounds like it will be great opportunity for you to get easier access to the mental health support you need without all the back and forth from the psych ward . I know the paperwork and financial aspects seem overwhelming right now but just think of how much better and more relaxed life will be able to be once you’re settled in there. You could be working on that better future you talk about wanting before you know it. I think this might just be that first step you need towards it . 
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Checking in on day 590. I didn’t make it into work today, I don’t think I will be up for it tomorrow either as I have major soup brain. I know to listen to my body though, trying to push through will just mean symptoms last longer. Work can survive without me, life is more than work. I hope everyone has a good Friday eve! 
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Feel better soon @Dilettante!
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That’s awesome bud! Sounds like a great place. I think the security of knowing you have help right there if need be will probably help a lot. You’re doing great. You going to keep being amazing. 
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Checking in on day 70.
Life has been lifeing really hard for me lately but I’m here and I’m sober so at least I’ve got that going for me right now . Just gotta keep going at it ODAAT . You guys are all awesome. Stay safe and sober everyone
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@jules000 Dinner Yeah to finding a therapist that you click with. A positive step forward 
@sarahbear glad you are working on self care. It does help in the fight with depression. I’m sorry you are not feeling well. I do hope that you get better soon. Grateful that you don’t have a desire to drink. Just keep connected here and working your recovery Sending you hugs!
@mxelle AWESOMESAUSE MEL! Double digits 
I hope your sleep regulates for you soon. In the mean time, do get it in when you can (nap whenever you are able) and keep taking it ODAAT
@juli1 So very sorry friend. Big hugs to you! 
I know sometimes we have a breakdown to shed all the negative force around us. Did it help to scream and let out your frustrations? How are you feeling since you posted? Hoping you are doing better my friend
@tragicfarinelli WHOOHOO! 5 months no THC is amazing work! 
Coming up to 1 month no vape too – you are crushing it
@cr84 Thanks love! Much love to you friend Check in as often and with as much detail as you need – the danger days will not have a hold on you this time. We got your back and you have some solid tools / routines to help you stay focused. ODAAT!
@amavericksoul I’m sorry you are feeling so empty. Hope the check in helped. I find a good gratitude practice helps when I am feel empty. I like your idea on projects. Do share your work if you feel up to it with us on the Crocheters, Knitters, Crafters, and the like 2020 to present thread.
WOW some really big things happening for you. Your post sounds hopeful and it brought me joy to read. I think you will be a great thing for you to head up the new grief group, love the Music Therapy too.
@solareclipse and @charliec YEAH to 40 days!! Keep stacking up the days
@swiftiegirl93 Congrats on your 1 week
Sorry that life has been so hard. Grateful that you are not turning to drinking during these times. 70 days is very impressive Tisha. Keep fighting the good fight and I hope things get easier for you soon
Checking in on Thursday evening
806 days free of alcohol and weed
1221 days free of cigarettes
Didn’t have enough time to read through all the posts… hope everyone is doing well
Been a busy day and I am grateful to be finally sitting down. Needed to get some things taken care of before tomorrow and grateful that I was able to accomplish all of that.
No desire to numb myself so that is a blessing. Just trying to push through one second at a time.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love 
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Day 23
Work week tomorrow
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Checking in sober. I had therapy today and didn’t tell my therapist I relapsed. I don’t want to let her down, she is so excited for me on this journey. I felt worse when she was like “isn’t this the longest you’ve been sober?” (It would have been the second longest.) ugh. Idk why, I mean she’s my therapist I’m supposed to be able to tell her anything. I’m so tired of talking about it. It’s like I have to keep breaking bad news over and over. I make bad choices and see myself making them and I can’t stop myself. Oh well. At least I didn’t drink today.
Today was very stressful and my manager was driving me CRAZY. On top of a lot of bad qualities he needs constant emotional reassurance that we all like him and feel ok. I’ve never experienced anything like this, it’s so unprofessional. I won’t take on that emotional burden but he creates these awkward situations and I have to deal with that on top of all the stress. Haven’t been able to exercise or anything all week because of extra appointments and things throwing off my schedule. Also one of my old health issues has resurfaced since my relapse. Not sure if it’s related or what. Plus constant stress from the neighbors. I’ve been feeling SO negative lately, more so than usual which is saying a lot. Usually I can get myself out of the mood or it passes but my life feels like Groundhog Day. Not to mention the crap and insanity that is happening in the US right now. I am throughly disgusted by this country. And afraid…What will happen to my job? Will this incite violence in an already violent and fractured population? Downstream effects on safety and rights?
There is a tiny good thing that happened which is that the community manager said she “found a credit” on our account and now we only have to pay half of the original buy out fee. Wow! Maybe the management company did say something to her because of the letter we wrote and this is just her way to save face. Regardless of how it happened I’m just grateful as it saves us a lot of money. Tomorrow is the apartment inspection and the only damage is the result of me in drunken states. Boy that really puts the spotlight on my addiction… oh yeah that door has a hole in it because… alcohol. Oh yeah that plaster is coming apart because… alcohol. Oh yeah that giant stain on the carpet by my bed is because/… alcohol.
Thank you for being here and sharing. 
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Checking in at the end of day 4. Tired, going to bed.
Have good night/day all.
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Checking in sober on Thursday night.
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Thank you so much, Tisha, for your kind and encouraging words! Yes, you’re absolutely right. Although the paperwork and financial side feels pretty overwhelming, it will be worth it in the end. I absolutely love the new neighbourhood.
I’ve read about your recent struggles, I hope you’re okay, my friend?
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Late night check in. Made it another day AF. Still feeling super off, anxiety is what I pinned it down to, took my med about an hour ago and I’m starting to feel better so yay for that. Hopefully I can sleep tonight, not holding my breath though.
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Checking in. I feel like I might be coming down with something, which would explain why I have been more reactive to things today and sort of grouchy. Both twins were home from school today. My son has missed 3 weeks now due to a bad virus. Not much else to say. Work is worky, I’m glad it’s Friday tomorrow. I hope everyone has a good and sober day/evening!
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Going to bed sober not feeling good but thanks @JazzyS, congrats to everyone celebrating time (even if its just a few days) and sending love and support to everyone struggling.
Tomorrow is friday, means weekend, not gonna drink but i know im gonna want to, so I need a plan in place. I know what to do i just have to actually do it!
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Oh thank God! Our power’s been out for 2 hours and I live in a dead zone. I’ve been watching the spinning wheel of death on and off for the past hour 
Finally some service 
My daughter’s upstairs at her friend’s (who I checked on within a minute of the lights going out and found their place completely lit up, a flashlight in everyone’s hand 
), so I’ve been sitting here all alone in the cold candlelight 
Ah, it’s all good. I have a headache and the silence is nice. Except the alarm panel is right outside my door and beeps every 9 seconds (Yes, I timed it 
).
Power went back on and it’s 3 hours later now. Took care of what I needed before settling in for the night. My headaches gone, yay! I think it was from work. We had to move a bunch of tables and chairs around, which isn’t unusual, but it really wore me down. Work tomorrow morning too. There’s no school, so at least I get 2 extra hours to sleep. Nice 
Stay strong this weekend 
ODAAT!
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Glad your headache is gone, enjoy sleeping in tomorrow!
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Checking in 225. Feeling good & strong. I will see 226 with no major issues. I have some major goals coming together over the next few weeks. Really hope all goes to plan. Im sure it will.
Ive started to realise life actually has been good to me. Ive worked hard, i should recognise more that ive contributed to my happiness by my acts & continue to build on this.
Have a great day.
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