Just waking up on day 19, loving going to bed early, sleeping through the night, and waking up (sort of) fresh! i have been aiming to do a meeting everyday (NA or RD), however this week i have been falling asleep during the 9pm or 10pm meetings! rhanks TS have a good day, with desires to have new lives! 
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Morning check in (trigger warning - weight gain mentioned)
Happy Friday everyone!
A calmer morning in our house today. Daughter is getting ready for school with the minimum of fuss for a change. She has her first drum lesson today and a club after school so hopefully that is helping.
My son is having a rest day because heās done quite a lot this week. We should find out today if he had a place at the therapeutic school we visited earlier in the week.
My folks are coming to visit tomorrow which will be nice although it does also stress me out a little bit too. I always feel then judging my weight (Iām a big olā bear) - despite the fact that they might not even say anything - although I am at the biggest Iāve been for some time.
Since trying to quit alcohol, Iāve been more lenient with eating too try and curb my cravings. However, I think being so big is depressing me so Iām just robbing Peter to pay Paul. I need to make healthier food and more activity my next priority.
Keep on keepinā on ST peeps. ODAAT 
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Morning check in, going to the coast today. The sun is out already and although Iām tired (itās impossible to sleep 8 hours), Iām looking forward to a long walk.
But first starting the day with a coffee and The Good Boy on my lap.
Have a good day 
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Checking in on day 36.
Lots of tough stuff going on at work right now, and today is Friday. These two things have many times been the excuse I needed to get wasted from lunchtime onwards. How many weekends have I ruined that way? Not this one anyway.
Iām seeing friends tonight. Theyāre very old friends but we rarely see each other without alcohol. Thatās more of a reflection on British society though; alcohol is endemic. Maybe Iāll move to salt lake.
Tonight I organised for us to goto one of these games bars - bowling, darts, that kind of stuff. Sure, thereās alcohol but itās not the only reason to be there so at least Iāll have some distraction. I canāt hide under a rock forever and I think Iām ready to face a sober Friday night out. They all know I have given up drinking, so there wonāt be any pressure.
Have a great sober 24!
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My three day weekendās here. Seeing my therapist this morning after six weeks and happy about that. Although at the same time feeling a little bit stupid for feeling dependent on a professional. Also happy about going to Utrecht after not being there for over a month after I switched jobs. Funny how that works.
All in all Iām doing a lot better than a week ago. While thereās still plenty to be worried and upset about. All I can do is keep living the best life I can. Three steps forward, two steps back. And keep breathing. Slow deep breaths. Feel my body. Relax. Be mindful of myself and others. Mentalize. Live. Love.
The weather is glorious. Letās have as good a day as we can all. Sober and clean or nothing will come of it. Lots of love to you all. And to myself.
@Catmama23 Iām glad you can be honest here Lauren. Success with the inspection
@Naomi Enjoy the beach friend.
@james83 Enjoy your night out and know weāre always here if you need some help. Youāre not alone!
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Have a good one mate. 
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@sobernow Hold on David. This first week is so rough, on the body, the mind, the heart. Be nice to yourself. This is hard work
@Mno You are not stupid for being dependent on a professional. We all are. Some professional takes away my trash, a professional delivers my mail, another one takes care of my teeth. You get the picture. We all are interdependent.
Love the picture. I think I once spend a very nice summer afternoon there with a friend of mine when we were staying in Amsterdam.
@james83 Night out with friends and games sounds good. Remember to have a fallback plan in case you do feel triggered.
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Slept very well despite the calls my partner got cause he was on call last night. Early up, great morning meeting. The sun is up and shining. My daughter has now her third day of an ongoing migraine. I hope this spell breaks soon for her.
I am going to work on my gamejam submission about ageing. A short walk and yoga in the afternoon.
Todayās picture is a stop on our wonderful rail trail āNordbahntrasseā. It used to be a railway line and has been converted to a path designed for pedestrian, bicycle, skating traffic. Itās 22km long and runs through most of the city. If you want more pictures.
Peace and love always 
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Day 30+
Feeling better. Iām two different kinds of sober today. Iām alcohol free sober but also mentally sober. No brain fog today that I can tell. My mind feelsā¦ Solid?
Recovery is going well. Finished my work and Iām free for the rest of the day. Itās cloudy today, everythingās kind of a browinsh grayish color. I wish the birds would come back. I miss them so much. I can just get lost in their little songs. I hear nothing but magpies now. I miss the spring so much it breaks my heart. I canāt wait for it to come back too. Just think of all the cherry blossoms and the bees and sunshine. Fluffy clouds and a different kind of silence, a happy one. One more week of this and Iāll be able to leave the house again. I havenāt left the house since last Wednesday. I wish I could go for a walk. I miss my climbing gym. I miss my climbing friends. I miss being active. Iāve become a proper couch potato.
After checking in here Iām going to clean a little, dishes, laundry, that sort of thing. Iāve also rediscovered R.C. Sproul. He has an old theology course. Fascinating stuff.
Later Iāll look around ST for threads where you guys share your nature pictures. I think I saw one the other day but canāt remember what it was.
ODAATĆ100^1000 is how I feel, lolz
Have a great day everyone and if you see any birds that arenāt magpies, please tell em I said howdy.
Note: I have an archenemy, a magpie, who swoops down at my head every year around this time. Well, I canāt be sure if itās the same magpie but itās not like I can see it, they come at you from behind. Last time I had to get a tetanus shot. We donāt get along.
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Times are tough and I have lots to work on but Iāll get through somehow. If I stay sober and keep trudging along Iāll reach a better place in life eventuallyš¤·š¼āāļø
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Checking in on day 71
I havenāt slept well and I REALLY donāt want to go work my 10 hr shift today. But Iām hiking up the big girls pants and off I go . Have a great day and stay safe and sober everyone.
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Hey all, checking in on day 1727. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Thank you Jasmine!
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Day 1,728 clean and sober today. Have an amazing day everyone, love you guys! 
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@Bearos sorry that you are feeling judged. I know the early days/ months of sobriety were so hard with food and sugar as it was my go to so that I wouldnāt give in. Donāt be so hard on yourself. We can find our way back to healthier eating habits and some movement. You should be super proud of your sober days. You can join us in the March Workout Challenge šš»āāļø to get some activity going 
@Soli check out Wild animals we adore and Post your most inspiring photos of nature #5 threads.
@mno hope therapy goes well. Not stupid to see someone who can / is helping you get better. We can not do this sober journey alone and we canāt heal from some of our traumas alone either. Greatful you have a safe space and someone you can connect with that helps you
@sobernow congratulations on your 1 week 
. Hope you start feeling better soon
@aMaverickSoul wish I could help with the pain. I have heard that acupressure helps for some. It did not do much for mine. Glad you found the thread. Lots of cool threads here to help with distractions. I do find this helps keep my mind off of the pain and also my addictions. Just keep pushing forwardā¦I hope you have a wonderful day today
Checking in on Friday morning
Busy day aheadā¦gonna get my day started. Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free dayā¦ sending you all so much love
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Day 41
Restful sleep, easy to wake up, feeling calm
No to any alcohol today. ODAAT
-Solar
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This scares me too. I have cut out the social media, so Iām not following the drip, drip, drip of bad news. But I am scared about my job and the state of the country.
I really get this. Therapy and recovery are incredibly valuable, but there is more to life. I understand mine is a life-long addiction, but my addiction is not my life.
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Itās the same magpie.
Glad things are going well and that the brain fog has cleared. Have a great day. 
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So sorry to hear all the shit youāre going trough. I can only encourage you to stay strong. I know you can do this! I know all your solutions for all of this will eventually work out. Stay strong!, one day at a time. I pray for you.
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Waking up to three weeks sober. Iām so glad to be here: on the planet and on TS. Not so glad to be in the US, but thatās a common feeling these days.
I was up early. I tried to go back to sleep for an hour, but my mind was not having it, so Iām on to coffee, baseball trivia on my phone, and checking in here. Later, I will do some reading for work and pleasure (most of my reading fits both categories) and maybe go out to lunch at a BBQ joint where the alcohol selections are so disgusting that drinking there never crosses my mind.
Otherwise, Iām going to read more threads here. Iām going to meditate to express gratitude for the sober time I have and what I have gained, but also to keep my mind vigilant whenever my alcoholic brain tries its sneaky shit.
TGIF. Wishing everyone a super sober Friday.
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402 days AF
13 days no unnecessary trigger shopping
Thanks for your messages @Mno @tailee17 @CR84 @JazzyS
I am alive.
Had some hope, but now I feel very lost again.
My life feels like a film.
I donāt feel ābelongingā.
I feel shame. And pressure.
I created some plan and way to loose weight. But feel so blah. Donāt even know what to eat at weekend and donāt have motivation to cook. And I want to be alone! Finally for some weeks.
But I wonāt.
Next week I have to travel for business and be in lot of social interaction. Next saturday I am already planned for cinema and dinner with niece and mum. I am planned. As I was asked when niece was around. Could I say no?
Ah. Guys.
Guys, guys.
Letās go 
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