Words of wisdom right there my friend 
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Day 1,731 clean and sober today. The doctor increased my gabapentin for sleep last week and it has been absolutely making me feel like shit the next day so I went back to my regular dose last night. Insomnia and anxiety suck but for me the side effects sucked a whole lot worse. I hope everyone has a kick ass day today, love you guys! 
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Hey all, checking in on day 1730. I hope everybody has a good one 
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Hahaha I beat you 
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lol I love it when we manage to post one after the other!
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Totally bro itās pretty awesome Have a great day!!!
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I realized this morning as I was sipping the aforementioned coffee that I no longer feel like being sober means I am missing something. Iām starting to really understand the new possibilities sobriety opens for me. Iām sure Iāll still have cravings or have feelings of shame or disappointment about my behavior while I was drinking, but this feels like a new step forward for me.
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What a beautiful realization @TS66
Hope everyone has a good, sober week
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Thanks. Apparently I booked at a different hospital than I intended and showed up too. So rescheduled for tomorrow morningā¦ drat!
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Day 35+
Not much to report. I worked, had a visitor, now Iām reading and will keep reading till the day is over.
Sober.
Have a good day everyone 
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Quick check in before I do all my catching up and forget. Iām on day 29 guys!!! I just gotta make it through today (and ever after) But this is huge for me. Now to catch up on here and get moving 
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Congratulations, look at you with your 29 days!!! Thatās amazing. Hope you have a wonderful sober day.
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Day 8. Note to self, do not drink a medium iced latte from Dunks, at an 8pm meeting. Oh, and maybe eat more than 1/2 a grinder for the day, instead of being fueled on Red Bull (idk why Iām drinking that crap), and coffee. I couldnāt sleep last night, think I finally crashed out around 3am (??).
Anyways, I am a whole other level of tired and not feeling right today. Been a bit emotional the past few days, still, teary eyed and all that. Realising Iām worth way more than Iāve let people treat me over the years, and mostly because of my drinking. Kinda hit me a few nights ago, when I got a phone call, at 1:44am, from a guy we like to call Mr. Random. A guy Iāve been involved with, off and on, for over 20 years. I didnāt answer, because I was sleeping. I did respond in the morning. Then I was like TF is he doing calling me at 1:44 in the morning, well I know WHY. Just, Iām not tolerating it anymore. I donāt want, or need to be, someoneās after thought. Someoneās drunken, almost 2am call because oh they miss me, and the what ifs, and couldāve beens. Iām not that girl you met 20+ years ago. Pretty sure not only have I had an issue with drinking, but sex as well. I donāt think Iām ready to dive down that rabbit hole just yet. Oh and for those wondering yes my BF knows all about him, yes he knows.
Speaking of the BF, he was a bit rude last night, I took it in stride, but he did come in and sit on the edge of the bed, kissed me and apologized. One of many reasons Iām with him, he can actually recognize when heās in the wrong, is capable of saying sorry, and having a conversation that doesnāt end in a screaming match.
Heās been cutting back on his drinking. Didnāt even buy any on the way home, I was pretty impressed, especially since there wasnāt much in the mini fridge. We talked about my sobriety, I think itās a general consensus that me being sober is good for everyone. He might make more of an attempt to cut back, maybe not be a daily drinker (fingers crossed on that).
I have plans to go to another tomorrow night. My friends sponsor is getting her 6 year (??) chip, which hell yeah!! Met her and another woman last night, who raised her hand as a temp sponsor. I might actually ask her about that. Iāve never worked the steps ever, never even read the big book, part of me is like wellā¦ Maybe I need to do that, part of me is like am I actually able to be AF for the rest of my life??? I honestly donāt have an answer to that question.
Hereās to day 8 AF, one day at a time.
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@Marit 60 DAYS!!!
Absolutely amazing 
I hope you heal quickly. I dumped Alfredo sauce on my arm and hand once and it wasnāt fun. Healing vibesā:sparkles:š©·
@JazzyS An inspiration as always. congratulations on the blanket 
completion. Thatās some dedication. š©·
@Hazy Sounds very relaxing (garden not the doc lol) Iāve been searching for alternative therapies as well. My doc did the same thing so I wonāt be returning. Good luck my dear. If I come across anything Iāll lykāØš©·
@Mno another awesome picture. Thatās one way to know where your food is coming from. I wish we had more like this here. š©·
@Butterflymoonwoman I will for (probably way more than) one say I look forward to your posts and like everyday. Thank you for being here and an inspiration
@sobernow sounds very relaxing. Keep it upāØš©·
@Betu You got this. Like you said ODAAT š©·
@Leveller Youāre doing great. Love the walk regardless of condition. Iām such a baby beyond rain lol š©·
@StacyAnn Thank you so so much. Sorry you had a rough night/morning. To a better dayāØš©·
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Day 15 no weed.
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Hey @StacyAnn ,
Just wanted to say it very normal to be extra emotional in the first couple weeks. I look back and I was a mess for the first month or so. I also remember a lot of those same thoughts and realizations youāre talking about. Realizing youāve let your drunkenness lower what you perceive as your self worth. I also couldnāt wrap my head around the āForeverā aspect either( still canāt to be honest) so I didnāt. I stayed sober just for today on most of my days and then woke up and decided to do the same the next day. When I first came here I knew I needed to sober up after a medical emergency at work caused by damage from my excessive drinking. But I also Came with a bit of a ā taking a breakā or ā just for right nowā mindset and the more time I spent here and working on me the more I realized ājust a breakā wasnāt an option. If you keep showing up everyday and put some work into this the answers and solutions to a lot of these thoughts will literally start to just fall into place. Keep taking it just one day at a time 
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@marit congratulations on your 2 months of sobriety 
glad your hand is healing well
@acromouse I did post the blanket in the crochet and knitting thread. I love the pictureā¦very artisticā¦you should also share on the art threadā£ļø
@sobernow congratulations on your double digits . Keep up the amazing work
@Scorpn sorry your washer is kaput. I had to pull the plug in my dryer few weeks back after a week of replacing many components. Sometimes FB marketplace has good deals for gently used appliances. So sorry to hear about your infection. DANG! I would not have expected a pamper day to turn out so horrible. Hope you are recovering well 
@Chevy55 oh man ..that sucks but luckily you were able to reschedule for tomorrow. Wishing you luck with the results 
Yeah it is 
flex them sober musclesā¦you are crushing it! 
@StacyAnn day 8 is impressive work. The emotional rollercoaster and the tired is par for the early sobriety days. Give yourself some love and be gentle with yourself. Lots of self care. You are doing great
Checking in on Monday morning
Got up early for me these daysā¦had to be at work at 6:30. Grateful I was able to move (snail pace but I managed) and was able to help out today - even for a few hours.
I am now going to get some more coffee and see if I can make it to the pool ā¦ wishing everyone a wonderful addition free dayā¦ sending you all so much love 
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Found the blanket. Thanks for sharing. Love that kind of work.
My drawing is an old one. Right now I am working with video games as my art. I sometimes create visuals for those I might post at some point.
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Thank youā¦still learning. This blanket turned out different to what Iād envisioned as I got some yarn that was fluffier so not consistent . Still a fun way to relax
Oh that would be lovely. 
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My stuff never comes out as envisioned. Thatās what art is about for me: the surprise 
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