Ah nice you have it, its just dressed differently lol 
it all taste the same in the mouth tho lol
Owwww i miss tesco, marks & Spencer’s and waitrose! 
we dont have them in oz sadly…
Anyhoo im derailing the thread so leave it here…
Heres to celebrating sobriety with doughnuts everyone!! 
4am on day 24, have had a cold, and have a tickly cough and blocked nose, bit early to be getting up so hopefully will dose back off for a couple of hours! conscious that I’m coming into monthly cycle and have been over consuming sugary things. In active addiction this would be a week of over consuming alcohol and tobacco, (and food sometimes) and i wouldn’t have a chance of stopping (or reducing) until menstruation. PMS is a biochemical trigger that caused me to self destruct tenfold. today I can feel the uncomfortableness and have no desire to self destruct with a drug or drink. however i can feel the ‘fuck it’ switch is just there, only for chocolate and biscuits! however there could be other things, now sober, that I might say ‘fuck it’ ‘why not’ to in this PM period 
… i will do my best to be vigilant 
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@Aurelia Acceptance would be a good topic to read about 
I’m not sure of any specific threads, but it was something that really helped get me past the past. All the best 
@Refreshedperspective Congrats on your 100 days! 
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Not much to tell. My back felt better, but I didn’t have the same motivation today. It looked beautiful outside like yesterday, but it was a trick. Dropped 30° overnight! It was still a decent day tho 
ODAAT!
Day 8. Man knowing that it should be nearly 48 days is tough, but something to keep in mind when i think about relapsing.
Today was a roller coaster, started off not feeling well but forcing myself to go to work. Got as much done as I could before scrambling to two doc appointments, the second of which left me feeling pretty raw, and full of self pity. Im struggling to find the balance between letting myself feel those genuine emotions so they dont get bottled up and wallowing in self pity. Which as many of you know is a huge trigger for drinking which is of course what I was craving.
The plan was basically to get home as quick as possible, get under the covers, have a good cry and reemerge tomorrow. But after some crying i called my sponsor, somewhat begrudgingly, on a bit of a whim. I hadnt called yesterday so I felt guilty, but maybe 2 or 3 minutes in I was already feeling better. She talked through it with me and gave me the motivation I needed to keep doing my best for the rest of the evening. Did some good journaling and went to a sound bath that soothed my nerves. Now its my ideal bedtime and im putting my head down sober, grateful, and a little stronger and smarter than I was this morning. 🩷 sending love to all my TS friends who are struggling with all the $#!+ of life right now but I know you will get through it sober
I find its a lot easier/less guilt inducing to say fuck it im having ice cream tonight now that im not saying fuck it ill have 1.5 bottles of wine tonight, like i was EVERY night 
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I did actually get some triggering stuff done yesterday -like standing up for myself against some bureaucratic institutions. And had at least one good result from it. So that was a good day yesterday. And in hindsight the stuff and doing it wasn’t that triggering at all. it’s looking up to it before that makes me anxious. As I knew and know. Still learning odaat.
Work today and tomorrow. It’s cold again but the sun is shining. That always helps. Until it doesn’t rain for a month and I get anxious about that 
. Have as good a day as you can friends. Sober and clean or nothing will come of it. I will. Pic are some cherry plum trees close to where I live. Deliver each early spring. Love.
Thanks Jazzy!
All those classes sound good. I may even look into something completely new to me like kayaking as we do have a club where I live (though the water leaves something to be desired - better stay out of that). I actually got my kayaking levels when I was a kid but would need a refresher.
The other reason to stay away from AF wine is that it is disgusting! Never met a decent one and I have tried.
Hope you’re well and building more time for yourself into life 
Congrats on getting back to work. I bet it’s a huge weight off your mind!
I love South Wales - Afan is my favourite place to mountain bike (and a lot easier to get to than Cwmcarn from London 
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Good morning from North Yorkshire, a snow flurry filled North Yorkshire.
Its great to be here on day 23/24.
An anxious one ahead, my wife gets her latest scan results this afternoon. We are always in a positive frame of mind for these days.
Have a good one 
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Feeling a bit better than I did this morning. Had an absolutely awesome session at gym. Finally, it has cooled down and looking forward to a restful night’s sleep.
Thanks for checking in with me @JazzyS
Checking in on Day 76
Really don’t want to go to work today. Kind of funny I knew I was in shit yesterday and got up and went in to face it no problem but now today I’m anxious about going in. Back to normal cold March weather again today. It’s ok though nice weather will be here to stay soon enough. Hope you all have a great day . Stay safe and sober everyone
Love this the difference between relapse or not relapse can be as littel as 2 to 3 minutes 
Glad your feeling better babe 
Yesss FINALLY thank lordy lord the rains came! And epically a sky show to boot. Did you get any good photo’s of the sky tonight ? The rainbows here were crazy when the rain hit.
End of day 10…start of 11.
Feeling pretty good. Not stressed currently ( much lol ) in bed at 8.34pm. Going to watch the vin diesel film … " the last witch hunter" … cant believe ive never seen it!.
Had a cool change hit FINALLY. The heat wave slowly subsidised tonight. An epic rainbow and sunset followed the storm…it was magical…here are some photos above
You rock my friend 
Hoping your work transition goes smoothly 
Congratulations on tripple digits 
476 sugar
340 UPF
214 gluten/dairy
Cloudy, cold and foggy today. Slept pretty well, woke up early, got to morning meeting. Wonderful time with my community there. Going to work on my gamejam submission today, want to implement climbing. Want to support my daughter with some school stuff later. Also Yoga in the afternoon.
Today’s picture is me dreaming of summer
Peace and love always 
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Trying to work while I’m laying in bed with pretty nasty abdominal and neck pain. The older I get the worse the symptoms get at that time of the month. I’m taking some hours off this afternoon, can’t wait for this day to be over.
Today I have more nicotine cravings then usual. I think I’m looking for a pacifier because I feel like shit. Instead I pacify myself with comfort food, I made some egg muffins in the morning and will have rice with beef for lunch. That’ll do.
No rainbows here, some thunder and lighting and the sky was Orange for around 30mins
Krispy Kreme are delicious, but my fav is Shipley’s chocolate-filled doughnut. It’s a glazed doughnut with dark chocolate filling, more like icing than the cream so many places use. They are decadent.
Early morning check in. Up at 5:15 am. I complain about my early morning class now, but I’ll change my tune when I finish work by 2 pm. Avoid the traffic, I hope. Plan to have lunch out, then grocery shopping. I’m going to fit a walk in between classes again; I enjoyed it Monday, and it gave me more energy throughout the day. Stay sober, my friends.
