Day 55. Feeling great! About to start yoga and heading to sauna in the evening. In between gonna play some pokemon go outside propably 
or ride a bicycle little bit. So much better then eating pizza and drinking soda whole sunday with hangover as I used to. 
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What a great quote!
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You guys! Full of gratitude today. Will be celebrating with my wonderful boyfriend and dug on the calendaric date, Thursday. Thanks for everyone participating in this forum, it has done me a lot of good, too.
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- Well rested. Sober and clean. Lifeās so much better than when I was using even though itās still hard. At least Iām willing to face my life and reality. Keep going all. Iām with @SoberWalker in staying in for the next hours as storm Ciara hits the Netherlands (your husbands marathon has been cancelled too now Claudia, hope heās ok). Perfect conditions for the Dutch Headwind Cycling Championships. They are on. https://www.facebook.com/NKtegenwindfietsen/videos/872187593215844/
Have a great Sunday all! Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam and Zeeland.
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I am bummed outā¦ Wanted to hit another meeting at 17:00 to pick up my 2nd 6 months Keytag. 
Time to clean up my garden from loose laying stuff.
High alertā¦ I hope itās not going to be that big off a deal like usual.
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Yes Menno, he just phoned me. Heās sad. He was already there, heās got no warning mail from the organisation. At first he wanted to do the run with some other runners just on his own. But later on he decided not to do it (thank god!). Now heās running 15 kmās to his birth house and then coming home before the peak of the storm. Heās aiming for the marathon in Groningen now.
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Congrats on this one from one human to another 
Celebrate it like you need to!!!
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Better safe then sorry right, have a great Sunday Claudia 
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83 Days: What an interesting day. I was at the gym today and I received a message from my sister. Opened it up and it was a link to my dadās obituary. He passed away on Wednesday last week. This was the first we had heard of it, she saw a post on Facebook.
He was 69 years old and I donāt know how he died. The obit said he had passed away peacefully at a hospital less than 5 minutes from where I live. I never even knew he was there. Lifeās so strange.
My assumption is that he did something to himself to put him there, but i donāt know for sure. You see my dad left when i was 5 and i had minimal contact with him the first few years after he left. By the time i was in Jr High School I had no contact with him at all, even though he has always lived within 30 minutes of me.
He borrowed money from me twice after my son was born. The first time I took him to dinner and we talked a little. He explained it was his guilt that kept him away all the years. The second time he borrowed money, $500, I didnāt hear from him again for 15 years.
Spring of last year he sent me a Facebook friend request. I accepted. We exchanged a few messages. Talked about music, heās a huge classic rock fan as am I. I sent him a few videos of my kids. He told me how lucky I was to have them and that he loved me.
That was last May, then today I found out he died. I really donāt know how that makes me feel. So far it just feels like a novel of my life has closed.
Why I mention this is two part. One: I needed to write about this, help me process a little.
Two: I canāt tell you how glad I am to be sober while processing all of this. Being able to be present and clear minded and to actually work through the different thoughts and emotions that have been surfacing all day.
In the past I would have used this as an excuse to drink even more than I normally would have. I would have drowned myself in alcohol and twisted my emotions and eventually just drink them away never to be dealt with.
Today I am sober, the way I plan to live the rest of my life. I have not been tempted to drink at all. I have left that part of my life and couldnāt be happier, even on a day filled with so many mixed emotions. Drinking was not living. I donāt drink. I choose life.
Rest in peace dad.
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Sorry for your loss Chris. We donāt choose our families. Strength to you for dealing and processing this. Iām happy for you youāre sober. And have no thoughts of drinking over it. Iām totally with you in saying itās much better this way.
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Jep! You too Mario! 
Baking fresh (tin can) croissants right now, mjammie! Hope my husband cheers up from them, he will be moody today!! 
That is a hell of a lot to process, good for you for staying sober.
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Sorry for your loss Chis, besides you havenāt see him a lot in your live itās still you dad 
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Good morning all itās a blustery 69 mph winds in Dorset today,so having a day in with kids chilling out getting ready for the week ahead I welcome day 68 today xx love light and laughter will help us all recover
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That sounds like a lovely day Conor you got the winds in Ireland.xx
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AHH itās not the rain here itās more the wind funny thing is the weather has been like spring for past 3days so yesterday I mowed my back and front lawn as it didnāt get done at end of last summer as I was knee deep in my addiction att so anybody that lives and knows the UK weather will know mowing your grass at the start of February is crazy but I saw the opportunity to get it down and went for it and then I wake up this morning to winds and rain so Iām mega chuffed I eventually got it done (small minds and all that)
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Be careful out there Connor! And yes, meeting TS friends is the best! Happy you got to meet some. @Lilemm many small things make a big difference together Emma. Well done. āwie het kleine niet eert is het grote niet weerdā as the Dutch saying goes. Nothing to do with small minds. Youāre doing bloody great.
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Smakelijk!!!
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āWho the small not honored, is the big not worthā
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