Day 19 for me.
For my series of workshops on calling I decided, that I will become someone of a couch type of person.
My activity will be that of helping addicts in their recovery from addiction.
I’ll create the program myself and intend to work in close fashion with people needing help in the recovery.
The program, that I’ll be using in my activity will have core principles, but it will be written out in such faction, that it’ll be made in the way, that I’ll be able to personalise it to each person working with me.
The most important part - I won’t start my activity, until I’m myself have no doubts, that the principals of my program are actually working in the way I intend them to work
Other than that, days are going smoothly for me, so things are looking good
Early to bed routine broken by the winds preventing sleep and eventually blowing over the neighbours recycling bin resulting in their crap spraying across my driveway.
Guess who had to get out of bed and fix it?
Yup, me.
Anyway, 2 weeks to the day and doing OK.
Bit tired though.
Day 16
Sun is already shining here, it seems it will be a beautiful Sunday. Nothing already fixed so I’d like to relax some hours and maybe rest of the time some works on the garden as this kind of works ( let me say hobbies) helps me a lot to stay away from bad thoughts.
Yesterday was the first day with low motivation and energy… hope today will be better .
Have a lovely Sunday mates
That a huge steps to be proud of @Matt! Well done for it
Congratulations @Winchester with your 4 months milestone!!
That sounds difficult @Mno, glad you stayed sober though. Hope the two of you find a way to talk it over.
Day 517
Going to the beach today. Storm Dennis has arrived, but he’s less big as his sister Chiara. So we are going to meet Dennis at the beach
Short weekend for me: just this day! So going to spend it well with my family
Day 46 done. This is the longest I’ve been sober in years. I can’t think of the last time I was sober for this long. It feels like a lot of pressure now for some reason.
Good morning all, Oh I feel in a shitty mood today. I’ve been awake since 2ish and just dozing on and off since then. My wonderful wife had a friend over and they’d decided to have a drink in the kitchen while I’m relaxing watching nothing in particular on tele.
They have almost done a litre of vodka between them.
I went to bed around 10 and when “it” came to bed at 2 she was chatting so much shit I could not get back to sleep.
It is calm and sunny here so I’m dragging my tired arse to the beach with the dogs today.
I’ve got a feeling the Mrs will be in a fragile state most of the day. I’m really tempted to drag her to the beach as well but she’ll still be half cut and chatting shit.
Have a good day people
So annoyed. Almost dinner time, called the kids and husband. Kids come, no husband. Called husband, he is lying down. Are you sick? I ask. No. He says. (He has been fine all day) Just tired, he will be there soon. I finish doing everything, 5 mins pass, I call again, he still doesn’t come, still says he isn’t sick. 20 minutes of this I get angry. He sits up and retches. I think he is joking (he has said he is fine repeatedly) He makes no effort to get up or say anything and just vomits on the carpet. I get angry because he is not trying to go to the toilet, say he is sick or say get me a bag, and of course I am the massive bitch for getting angry at someone who is sick.
Sorry trivial, but at least I am sober.
And for reference I have had a cold and period pain all day. I just don’t understand why he couldn’t during any of this say ‘I feel sick’.
But one more day to 60 days!
Feeling good. Slight craving last night but not enough to blow it.
Gone overboard with gym the last week and 2nd day of sliding down stairs . So had to cancel my body pump today. Shall take the dog out for a very gentle stroll. Going to bake a cake as will go bankcrupt keep buying sweet treats. Read and do some less vigirous housework.
Great to see all your nos and insightful comments on here and i repeat thank you all would not have reached this day without this group.
Everything is possible. To drink or take drugs is as hard as not doing them. Both equally possible for a minute. That minute which changes your and others life entirely. Choose.
I was born alone, will die alone. Some was happy when i was born, some will be sad when i’m gone. The help is in me. Reality is my power. Now is the time. Now… not yesterday nor tomorrow.
If I can do it, you can do it too…
Breath consiously. Life is fucking beautiful and worth experiencing. Have a great day.
Again a new start. I’m getting tired of falling and standing up again. I know what to do with cravings, but doing it also… Most of the times when I don’t talk about my feelings I am a ticking timebomb, that in combination with cravings is dangerous for me.
When I am six weeks clean I can finally start with diagnostic tests for my disorder. While I was in rehab I had the diagnosis Bi-polar, later it was ADHD, and later it was Autism. In December I stopped using my meds after seeing a Dutch TV show (Tygo in de psychiatrie). There was so much recognition with the people in the show, that I cried a lot. All the diagnosis and medicine they were discussing in the show… I used the same medicine and saw similarities with the diagnosis and my behaviour. Always I get into trouble because of my behaviour…
Next week I have a appointment with my psychologist, to talk about my life story, I want to go sober to that meeting. And finally starting diagnostic tests… when I’m 6 weeks clean…
Today I’m going to Bingewatch a Netflix serie, easy on. I want to be alone today… tomorrow I go to my home group for another white badge
Yes, I need to use the telephone list from meetings more. I did it just once… I called someone with a long cleantime, and he could turn around my thoughts easily. I need to do that more…
Yes I recognize myself in ADHD (mild) and Autism. On my work I feel always like I’m having ADHD but at home I feel like I have Autism.
I felt the same way, then I started getting confused, like am I on this day? Or am I this many days? So I just started checking in at the exact decimal lol.
. So had to cancel my body pump today. Shall take the dog out for a very gentle stroll. Going to bake a cake as will go bankcrupt keep buying sweet treats. Read and do some less vigirous housework.
the work you are putting into your recovery warrants that. Have a good day
Most of the times when I don’t talk about my feelings I am a ticking timebomb, that in combination with cravings is dangerous for me.
I hope you were able to get some sleep in. Been there, and it just turns you upside down.