151 days. I finally got a sponsor. I was so scared of rejection and kept putting it off. I announced it at my meeting tonight and a woman I’ve been talking to every week, offered to help me. I’m so relieved.
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Good day mostly. I took kids out for brunch and we read books together, I did their nails, all fun. Later they went for a play date and youngest got hurt, not super bad but sore, an injury on her foot from knocking into sharp object. Poor thing. That plus work stress was freaking me out a bit tonight. But drinking would not help, definitely wouldn’t make me a better mom or better at my work, it just numbs my fears then they all come back. I know that. I ate 5 macaroons. Macaroons are really good. I’m lucky to be where I am. Happy sober night everyone
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One day soon it will be just another day… HONESTLY. The not drinking just becomes a part of you, and before you even realize it, the REAL you. ADAAT:sunrise_over_mountains:
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Onward to day 43!
Almost to 46. Didn’t think I’d make it this far honestly!
Onward to bigger better things!
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Thanks a bunch. Another day bites the dust. The goats are a pleasant surprise on your trek!
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This is the longest ive ever been sober and the first time ive done A.A. so the program is working in my life. A.A has giving me a new way to live. If your struggling to stay sober you should give it an honest try. Thank you God for my life today
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Whooooohooooo!!! Great news!!!
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Day 470, part 2. Moods continued to fluctuate throughout the day. I still got carried away by some of them unfortunately, but did practice healthier responses and ACT techniques as they came and went.
Now this is something I wish more people understood about therapy and psychological techniques: they don’t make your problems stop happening. They don’t even necessarily provide solutions to those problems. They provide a better response pattern for you to react to those problems, from where you can then proceed towards solutions and/or acceptance. So many people expect to feel better after therapy or by using something like CBT and get disappointed when they don’t feel any better, even after several tries — they give up and miss the point and the benefit of the therapy, and stay stuck in their old thoughts and behaviours. Did I solve anything with ACT today? No. Was doing it still useful? Time will tell, but most likely. I won’t be about to say yes or no until I give this a long enough period of consistent effort and application, and check in with my therapist to make sure I’m doing it right.
Not that there weren’t any immediate benefits. The mindfulness component helped me to be more aware, grounded, and less distorted in perspective. I’m practicing understanding that I may not be able to change my feelings or thoughts about something, but I can choose a new response to them instead of the automatic one. I’m reminding myself that my reactions to a feeling can create more distress than the original thing causing the feeling. My thoughts and beliefs about situations are often more responsible for fear than the situation itself. There’s lots of little things between ACT and other psychology that is getting exercised in my day-to-day living. This practicing part is by far the hardest part of the therapy for me, because it’s all day every day. I used to not put in much effort in therapy outside sessions and perhaps reflecting on what was said between sessions, but actually putting in the active repetition despite how awkward it might be, is producing the most change.
My day, overall, did not go well and I struggled a lot with my emotions. But I did have good moments, and the mental exercise will help me in the future, so I shouldn’t count it as a loss. I still have so little patience and acceptance I have for slow progress, so I’m having a hard time moving forward. I want to stay up another 4 hours getting things done, make up for earlier today. But I am exhausted and should sleep, and if I can’t accept my performance today, I should start by at least acting like I do.
Hoping to discuss some things at my appointment tomorrow, and later on meet with a vocational counsellor to discuss my options. I hope that will help me feel like things are moving along and I’m not just waiting for the clock to spin.
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Day 68! Today was actually really good. I didn’t do much, but I had a good day at work and in general just felt good all day 
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Good morning! Checking in on the 3rd day.
I don’t have much to share. Got a new white badge from the group, so now it’s really a new start.
First coffee!
After work some relaxing and in the evening kickboks training 
Wish you all a good and sober day!
Stay strong and sober!
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Day 18
Ready to start today for a couple of day business trip. A little nervous as it means to change daily routine, anyway motivation to stay sober is good.
Have a sober day you all here ! 
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Day 48 
. I survived the temptation of the alcohol my friends brought to my house. I declined once and it wasn’t even offered to me again, so that was nice.
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Day 231 starting. Hoping for a good day for all of us today! 
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Day 518 
Got some Lotus seed from a friend who has visit Bali. Found a instruction how to get it growing. The seed is very hard, like a stone. So I took an iron file to get something from the peel off.
I have to refresh the water every few houres and keep it warm. But my work paid out! A little Lotus plant is coming! To be exact: 3 of them!! 
Look how cute:
It remind me of my recovery proces in a way. You need skills to take care of both processes!
- A solid plan/ instruction
- Patience
- Focus
- Good equipment
- Willing to do some work
- Etc
Hard work pays out!! See yourself as that hard seed! You can grow, just like my little Lotus seed did. Put in the work! You deserve it!!
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Light a candle when you cut onions. The flame burns the chemicals which make you cry. No tears anymore 
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Wow that looks fab you doing so well… you would have heard screaming around the block if those goats were in front of me… great challenge you doing 
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GOOD MORNING everyone. Beautiful sunny winter day here. Slept little but full of energy. Bring it on sober Tuesday. Checking in on day 139. Sober life is beautiful 
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