that’s some great sober days right there mate. I forget how far you have come sometimes. it’s worth the odd bad day though isn’t it.
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Conor your made of strong stuff my Irish friend,I know the past few days have been overly tough on you,but on a positive response you did all the right actions to stay safe l.You hit the rooms you reached out to your sponsor ,you talked with friends and you didn’t suffer alone ,as we all know where alone gets us so I’m proud of you so now it’s time to give ysself a break, congratulate yourself on how you handled it all and move forward with more experience and wisdom to put in that toolbox for our ongoing recovery.lovevya mate:pray:
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I wouldn’t bother.
It’s toxic shite.
Scrapped all mine at the start of the year and haven’t looked back.
It’s something people should relearn to live without. It certainly isn’t a necessity.
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That’s a lot!!! But you definitely have cheerleaders here 
I understand the boundaries thing, keep that up. I’m finding it life changing myself.
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Check check… survived the morning @ work again,
As you can see, waking up is not my thing…
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Checking in, kinda purgatory. Stressed but ok. I love you all, and I’m incredibly grateful. Have a great sober day everyone.
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Day 80 today. Have a much need massage therapy appointment this aft. Definitely looking forward to that (and so is my sore back). My RMT is magical lol. Lots of snow headed my way this week. I spoke too soon when I said winter was on its way out. Have a great day, sober peeps! 
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yeah I want it all and I want it now, the only problem I got is I don’t know what IT is yet but its something different to this. I’ve spent time and money planning a wellbeing therapy hour each week for disabled people and now staff are leaving work and I’m needed to cover another department. I keep saying god has got a plan but I wish he’d stop bloody interfering with mine. As ever well done on your sober days. You still rock.
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don’t look behind you but a bear is about to bite your head off. 
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21st day without alcohol,
got more yoga classes tonight …I have a short temper that has shown itself the last week and is becoming very obvious to me and others …I gotta look at that somehow…,any suggestions?!
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don’t say anything for about 5 seconds, the mind has a lot to say whether you agree with it or not, don’t let it speak without your permission. Brilliant 3 weeks, well done and keep being you,minus temper
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I would love to say that looks great but at least it’s good for you.
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- There are 4 bottles of Jack Daniel’s in the house. This week, there was almost 0 bottles of Jack Daniel’s in the house. I’ve never known anger like the anger I felt the last week - Its been all encompassing and exhausting. I got close enough that I opened up one of the bottles and sat with my back straight to a wall sniffing it for about 15 minutes before I calmed down, put the lid back on and walked away from it.
I’m starting to let go of the anger but in its place, I feel nothing. My tools are all really blunt at the moment. I talked with my mother about how relapsing feels inevitable right now and I felt like I should just get it out the way and get fucked up but I’m too aware of the consequences of those actions. She knows me well - that if it didnt kill me, it would still destroy me because my relapses in the past have been full on. Also, I know that @Dejavu would kick my ass. I’m not going to relapse over this - I’ve definitely been challenged and almost lost but I’ve learned a valuable lesson and that is to take my own fucking advice and dont be too proud to walk away from something when it’s dead.
So I’m still moving forward, a little but bruised and I’ve got a bit of a sore throat from shouting…I’ve lost even more weight because I havent been eating at all really - Yesterday I had 4 full meals and I’m starting to realign. I have my driving test on Tuesday, naturally hoping to pass but I dont test well at the best of times…Maybe I’ll surprise myself but who knows? Back to my usual bullshit.
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Hey Josh, no real words of wisdom, but I totally get where you are right now. All of it. From over here it seems like you are doing everything right and will get through this. The anger is hard and all consuming. I’m dealing with that myself now. Keep on eating and take good care of yourself. Good luck on your driving test next week 
Day 56…checking in friends😊
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Thanks Beth. Sounds pretty wise to me 
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Quit Like A Woman is by far one of my favorites. The entire book resonated for me, it might not for everyone obviously, but for me I didn’t want it to end, it was that engaging.
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Slow down Josh and take some deep breaths. I know the rage because I’ve used it to relapse many times. Right now I am at peace. Almost too peaceful; don’t trust it one iota.
I don’t know how to describe it. It is like sleeping with one eye open watching a cobra. The rage is never at the outside world, or people, or anything, just at me. I have not figured out exactly where it comes from.
I am rambling, but certainly know where you are coming from. Do not give into it and remove its power over you!!!
Pulling for you!!!
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Checking in, today makes 
weeks sober! 
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