Being present is one of the biggest benefits I’ve noticed since choosing to get sober! There is a picture of me that was taken years ago of me holding my newborn nephew, but I have no memory of it because I was blackout drunk. It’s a sickening thought that I was so irresponsible with my loved one’s safety.
Sobriety has given me the opportunity to not only be able to responsibly take care of the young ones, but also allows me to set a good example for them when it comes to how I behave, what choices I make and why I make them.
I’m glad to hear your boys have an uncle they are crazy about I hope you all have a great weekend!
Id usually be making a mad dash to a bottle store to stock up for the weekend. Instead groceries are next on the list. We have 2 days of no retail trade this weekend I think.
Im glad that part of me isnt here right now.
Looking forward to some quality time tonight, got a good friend i havent seen in a long time in town too who’s also sober so a catch up and a feed will be on the books.
Going in sober and coming out of this long week end the same way.
I April fooled myself yesterday by showing up for work while I had the day off. This sort of forgetfulness has been a trait of mine forever, and I can laugh about it these days. My old group of friends called this sort of thing ‘doing a Menno’.
Anyway, I was glad I had the day off, went home, took my new bike and rode a good way through the woods and moors to the south of Amsterdam. Feeling strong and fit. Love that bike. Had a good day.
Today I may take it easy. I have nothing planned and that might be what I do. Sober and clean. I’m going to make today as good a day as I possibly can and hope you will all do the same. Much love form my ride.
@KellyKelly 4 years Kelly! Fantastic! Huge congrats! @OHsusieQ I call it discovery instead of recovery, for different reasons. And for me it’s finding a new way of living, of forging a life for myself I don’t feel the need to run from like I did for 40 years. It’s the most important thing I did in my life. And am still doing. And yes there’s time to do that. There has to be. And there is. You’re doing it too, I can see it. Keep going friend. Hugs.
I’m proud of every milestone achieved so far this year. Being a creature of habit means that virtually every week I’m doing something and not drinking, whereas historically that very something would have had drinking interwoven into it.
First of all thank you, really glad you shared very inspiring stories through your posts around the threads of the great community.
I’m on vacation today, wondering what I could do with my free time. Definitely want to spend the time in meaningful way and perhaps I should start with PLANNING in the first place
I do want to restart my training plan.
I do want to study, train important knowledge / skill sets.
I do want to stop drinking
But don’t want to stop drinking this every morning and lookup to God/ Jesus, higher power
The weather is gloomy and sad so I will do an indoor day with chores, a jigsaw and X-Files.
Been thinking about the past today. Not really in a negative way but more about the choices I made that got me where I am today. Almost 2 years ago I left my partner of 11 years and his kids (short story: he cheated). The first thing he said when I told him I would leave is: But you can’t take care of yourself. That felt so insulting and made me so angry that I made it my goal to prove him wrong.
And now I am here. In my tiny studio apartment in the city that I love, working on my mental and physical health everyday, sober for almost 3 weeks. And I did it all myself. My life, my choices, taking good care of myself. What started as an act of revenge and anger turned into self love and happiness.
I am grateful for being part of this little community. You are all so supportive and loving to everybody, it makes me realise there are still good people out there!
There is no inevitable failing Susie, that is your addicted mind talking. You ARE in control of how tomorrow looks. Would you like to wake up clear headed, proud to add on another sober day? Or would you rather the guilt, shame, and feeling of defeat that comes with another day 1?
No judgement here at all, I’m 87 days sober. I don’t know how many times I told myself tomorrow will be different, I’ll start again. But that day doesn’t come, it really is just an excuse we give ourselves to allow us to use our DOC. The change has to start today. Sobriety IS a choice. You have to choose it my lovely x
Thank you for sharing, what I’m sure is a painful memory. I can’t believe what that man said to you, it is shockingly cruel. I’m glad you left him, and that you’re turning your life around. He’s inadvertently done you a big favour. You’re in control of your life again, and doing well too
Had an awesome night with my old friend Jesse turns out it was his 90th sober day. Was nice to hang with a sober buddy catch up and discuss current events, life’s issues, health issues and sobriety. We have had very similar paths in life.
Also made me realise just how nice it was to feel a solid friend connection without an ulterior motive. We havent seen each other in years but always the same when we do.
Day 7664 AF, 6622 nicotine free
Attended my men’s study group last night - we are considering doing a 4th step and 5th step together as a group in preparation for switching up our studying. We are almost finished with the Plain Languange Big Book, probably only one or at most two meetings to finish that, then we are moving into “Drop the Rock”, which is a step 6 and 7 guide, and begins with the instruction to do a thorough 4th and 5th step first. I have anxiety about doing another 4th and 5th, I have a thing or two that has come up since my first one 20 years ago. But I did survive that one, so I expect to get through this one as well.
Planning on physical therapy, then the gym, then an evening AA meeting today. Thanks for listening, you lovelies.
Thursday morning check in. Did my 05:30 group workout. Office work is perfect. My daughter (turns 3 soon) is a lot of work constantly these days, but she’s healthy and smart AF, and doing all the things a healthy toddler should do.
Trying to focus on positives and stay out of the self-pity hole today. I wouldn’t have all the amazing things in my life if it weren’t incredibly hard work.
Peace and love.
Edit 1) will have the house to myself for 1/2 hour after work. Dreadful that part of my mind would consider cracking beers to numb the day’s grind, but here we are. Better late than never that I quit putting poison in my body for cheap pleasure.
Day 1509
Its like a freakin blizzard out here today. But the snowflakes are huge and its making the sidewalks slippery. Im sooo done with winter to be honest.
I am heading out now to run and errand. I have to pick up some cake ingredients/supplies for a sewing themed cake I have to do for a sweet 90 year lady, for April 12th. Then Ill head to the gym for some cardio and then home to do some cleaning. Thats about it for my day.
Hope everyone has a great day! Lets do this day addiction free!
I hope you all have a great weekend!
