Day 265 AF 
Had a lovely weekend spent with family. Lots to be thankful for. Not ready for the work weekā¦
Itās my baby girl (black labs) birthday today. Canāt believe she is 8 today. Where does the time go?!
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Its fantastic you are still here. I personally have a very large number of resets though now im approaching 3 months where as for years i could barely go 2 or 3 days when trying to quit..
Definitely not a loser. A loser would not check in. Delete the app and stay in active addiction. I absolutely assure you to keep trying. My resets wreaked havoc on me emotionally and mentally. Making me feel all sorts of levels of failure. Im litterally over 100 resets on this app and now finally feeling a sense of freedom and fullfillment in life. There will be a time that sobriety sticks.
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Day 168. Pt 2.
Itās been a long time since Iāve needed a second check-in, but I am feeling so agitated today. My nervous system is fried and I am so tired. Tried to nap. Couldnāt. Would really love a couple of drinks to let me sleep for a bit. Even poorly. I just want to close my eyes for a while. Let my shoulders fall.
My brain is so uncomfy today.
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Checking in, and what a difference a day makes. Had a big argument with my spouse, about 90% of it is stuff that has happened in the past, recent past, but past. We need to improve communication in the moment. And I still wonāt drink about it.
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Thank you. I am super excited to begin this journey 
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Nope. Losers quit. Youāre not quitting on quitting. Try again. What can you do differently this time to catch yourself before you relapse?
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Day 13 alcohol free.
Today I was very anxious and high cortisol and when my fiance asked what I wanted from the store I said āwineā ā¦he came back with an ice cream sandwich, THANK heavensā¦ 
or else I would not be on day 13 so idk Iām obviously not doing as well as I want to be. Need to get my head in the game: But thankful I made it through the day sober! Iām also coming off some benzos which I as taking for 30 days or so, so idk why I do that to myself, (not worth it) .. makes me very negative. I need to remember my why.
@Butterflymoonwoman your check in really inspired me today! Not only because youre doing so well with sobriety and kicking butt and dealing with so much with your son! ā¦ but that youāre also looking for new ways to improve your health with that healthy drink.. and I really want to try it!
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Checking in day 262. Nice weather, terrible allergies. Grateful for the big local outdoor AA gathering, families, kids, people in unity and recovery. Refreshing and real after the crazy-making news cycle. The world and its people are really mostly good. This I believe.
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Checking in on day 83. Doing good! A lot of changes coming up. All good. All things to look forward too.
Have a great day/night all.
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@tailee17
Lol heyy tailee
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Life is a bit too Busy right now. Weather heat spell causing early start of irrigation here. It is a job that must be done. 
. I get tired and feeling my age lately, Multitasking is really tough nowadays.
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@tailee17
You must be a addict if your hear lol as they say in AA
Well im a shty person but thats cool. Im happy with that. Shty isnt bad. Just kinda means, i guess, an azz hole. but i am not only a shty azzhole. Im happy so im thinking im doing something right. I think we are in the right place
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You want to know why i like multitasking?
Because i never do it.
But i guess im bad at it too
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So what i doā¦ is one task at a time
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2494
I slept well. Itās another Sunday here (Tweede Paasdag or second day of Easter) and Iāll work it. Good for my income. Iām glad I have this job to go to. I hope I can help some of the folks in my care some. It sure helps me to keep my own focus. Still so after nearly 2500 days. Lifeās always better sober and clean, even when itās hard.
Relapses happen as part of addiction and itās paramount to pick ourselves up immediately after. Every day without using our DOCās makes it slightly easier to make it through the next one sober and clean. But the opposite is true even more so: every day we indulge in 'm makes it much harder to be sober the day after. So quit now. Get help.
Iām going to make today as good a day as I possibly can and hope you will do the same friends. Sober and clean. Much love from my commute.
@Leveller Great to see you and Alfie checking in Col!
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I used to be a runner, but I switched to power walking, which I find much better for both my knees and hips! It took some time to build that kind of endurance, but I see so many people running in the morning, and you can tell by their form that many of them are in pain. I feel fabulous now. I know that switching from running to walking might look to some like losing physical power, but itās actually not. Walking has scientifically better long-term results than running, especially regarding your testosterone levels. Plus, since you swim, you need to add something less endurance-heavy; the body needs a balance of yin and yang energy. If you only do āyangā activities, eventually it creates some sort of injury. I say this because itās at the core of yoga practice.
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Hello everyone!
DAY 221 AF
DAY 188 smoke-free
I am still totally cortisol-overdosed. I managed to sleep a bit, but I obviously woke up at 3 a.m., when cortisol levels are at their highest. After lunch, I went for a long bike ride (more than 20km), which I did in just one hour 
. That shows the level of my adrenaline, especially considering I didnāt sleep the night before and spent the day cooking!
I will skip any commentary on āthemā because I am officially over them. I spoke to both my brothers yesterday; I explained to the one in Poland what happened and told him I need help planning my exit. He said he was shocked about how long I lasted in that toxic environment! I also spoke to the brother who was present at lunch and told him just it was time for me to move on and leave this place.
Both will help me, as they know people here and I have been away for 20 years in looking for a temporary position (at least three months) so I can claim unemployment afterward and have an income for a while.
Since I have never used unemployment benefits in Europe, it should last about 18 months, which is long enough to settle somewhere else and finally make a fresh start. I think I am strong enough in my sobriety and my commitment to my long-term plans to take a summer job at a campsite or somewhere similar by the water and in nature.
Knowing four languages will certainly help me. Itās time to move on, but I will not forget anything that happened, nor will I pretend it didnāt. As for my sister, I am officially done; that woman is finished with me. I will stick to the basics. She will definitely get nasty about me ignoring her, but I donāt give a flying f**k. She is a nasty person.
Today I am grateful for:
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An exit plan.
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Counting down the days until I leave.
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Taking care of myself.
Wishing everyone a solid 24 sober hours!
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You badass
People can suck
Keep your cool no matter what and keep getting better.
Ego means your forcing yourself right in anothers face for either nun or no good reason (bad)
Pride is doing what you think is right in your heart
Both are bad without the other
How to we handle conflict
We win the right way which involves you not introuble or in harms way
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Thank you, brother!
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Practice patients
Youll get out but itll need to be done right whichever that may be for you
P.s. if you ever need to, but dont over abuse, criminals go to jail
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