Girl! I almost started crying for you! Omg that’s so scary and stressful!!! You’re such a warrior Mama! An ounce of what you manage each day would cripple me, no doubt! I’m so inspired by your strength, resilience, and courage. 
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Which is the opposite of what you should be doing if you’re already overwhelmed.
It might sound counterintuitive, but doing a bunch of positive things all at once is still a form of self-sabotage. You’ll out so much on your plate that the bites will make you choke. It’s a way of justifying your addiction.
Slow down and be content with your newfound sobriety.
In fact, if you’re burned from both ends already, slow down more.
Learn to observe and be okay with boredom and getting to know yourself—not distract yourself even further.
What you can be capable of is learning to set and maintain healthy boundaries with others. But also yourself.
I’m so proud of you!
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Checking in day 7672. Started the day chairing my homegroup meeting. I feel a change coming in my meeting routine - this 6:30 AM business is fine for working people but since I got off that train, it’s decidedly tough to get up 3 days a week for that. There is a nice Thursday night meeting local to me that I will probably check out more. If I can find something to sub in for a Sunday or Monday, that will work for me.
Great day today, nice workout at the gym, got some errands done and started re-booking my trip out to pick up my son - he needs to be home here to start his job a week earlier than anticipated.
It’s a beautiful day, isn’t it?
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Overthinking is something that I am intimately familiar with. In the spirit of full transparency, I overthought writing this; and I will absolutely 
overthink about posting it.
What helps me is remembering that thinking is physically stressful. Overthinking is even more so… depending on the level of stress and anxiety we get from it, our Cortisol levels will be increased. Long term, it has devastating effects on the body.
So… take a deep breath.
Something I have to constantly remind myself of is I cannot conceive of every possibility and I cannot know what others are actually thinking or feeling.
Are people deceptive? Sometimes. Rarely oftentimes.
One thing I’ve done to help temper my overthinking is to take things are face value—which is very uncomfortable. Practice makes perfect, right?
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It’s great to hear from my TS best friend! Much love to you!
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Well, they are prolific bugs eaters, and If we do it well, it will be some free Thanksgiving meals for folks in the area! I just hope mine aren’t ornery!
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Day 143. Watching Orion descend onto Earth. Just fascinating we are just living on this space rock. Incredible.
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Day 470.
Tough day at work. Wish I could say I was glad to be home. Will head to bed early so I can do it all again tomorrow. At least I’m sober…
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Checking in on day 50 alcohol free
Significant urges yesterday and today. Anxiety dreams all night. Fighting with my best friend over the continued existence of our friendship. I’m excited for the break the weekend will provide.
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Hold up…
…Your best friend?
You are fighting with your best friend over your relationship?
…Oh girl!
1.) Do you need a hug?
2.) Do you have anyone you can vent to while y’all eat chips and guac?
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Day 1517
It was a good day! I got the cake order done (posted a pic in the Sober time Bake time thread as to not trigger anyone with regards to food).
I got sooo much else done too… laundry, appts for my son, pharmacy, tidying up, and now Im looking forward to a nice hot shower and a good sleep.
The new HCA comes tonight to train. Im praying she does well. I honestly dont know how much longer I can keep doing these overnights and STILL try to function to get my daily tasks done. The gym has been non-existent for me this past week bcuz i have to reserve my energy for the things that HAVE to get done. Thats fine. Im proud of myself for how I (with my HPs help) got thru this week.
Now to get ready for work tomorrow. Hope everyone has an awesome weekend. Thinking of you all and wishing u all a good night!!
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What’s up fam. Day 877, things are going well. Got on some medicine to hopefully take care of the growth on my pitituary gland, I’ve been feeling a little better slightly less tired all the time. Today me and the girls went for a nice long bike ride to the park and took Jack-jack with us, it was fun they got to play, meet a bunch of new friends while jack-jack got all the pets. It’s wild to the 15th will be 30 months, this summer in July we will all be going to stay in st Regis at a cabin to watch the fireworks and have fun, Heather’s grandmother lives there so I plan on proposing to her, I’m very excited I never thought I’d marry anyone. And in my addiction I certainly never thought I’d find someone so caring and understanding as her. She is simply the best and I can’t wait to be with her forever. But much love everyone
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Checking in day 267. Glad I went with my friend to the meeting last night, even tho I was in the doghouse for missing a hockey game. Speaker told a tale, @Dolse71 , about taking the ferry to his boss’ summer house for a party, brought a nice wine as a hostess gift. Ferry was late loading cars and leaving, happens a lot here. He knew there was a wine shop right near the island dock (I know the one 
) and he had the RIDs attributed to the delay, so he opened the wine, sat in his car, and drank, casually breaking a pretty good streak. Arriving, as cars began to drive off, he remembered that he had an interlock / breathalyzer. He told the crew that his car wouldn’t start, and they unloaded the ferry around him. I love the rooms, bc we laugh with great hilarity at these past misadventures. And celebrate that we are all lucky to be here. Bc if we’re here, there’s no longer anything good out there. Grateful.
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So happy for you, Mike!
Glad to hear you’re feeling better and hoping for healing for you.
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348 days sober. Have a nice weekend!
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Me and my -now former- therapist Maaike said our goodbyes yesterday. We hugged and we cried. We laughed and reminisced. I’ll miss her, miss our meetings, miss the peaceful space she created in a quiet corner of the beautiful old center of Utrecht. Here’s hoping we will meet again someday somewhere as normal human beings and can renew our acquaintance.
Took a long detour riding my bike home, ate well after, and watched half a movie. Had a good sleep. Body’s a bit tired, I think I’ll take it easy today. Nothing planned. It’s fine to sit back and relax a bit too yes. One day at a time. I’ll make today as good a day as I possibly can and hope you will all do the same. Sober and clean. Pic is the Dom in Utrecht, after working and doing therapy there for four years or so I’m going to miss seeing it. Much love.
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Quick morning check-in!
I’m going to work now… or as I always say jokingly to my kitties when I leave “I’m gonna make money so you two get your food!”
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Day 34
Nothing to report. Super chill day my wife has the weekend of so we’ve spent the day buying cds and dvds to hunker down with tomorrow on in coming bad weather.
Sobriety has givin me more life than living in addiction being able to be present for our relationship is amazing.
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One of the hardest lessons i have ever learned. What a beautiful picture!
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8 years. Cannot sleep. So I decided to get up and do a few things. Life is good
Stay sober friends
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