Good morning!
Firstā¦ coffee 
and reading the daily meditation.
Todayās goals;
- Write step 4
- Clean my house
- Hit a meeting
@Mno sorry for your bike. Did you had an extra chain to attach your bike to something? I have seen it once, they throw locked bicycles in a van. They are only driving around to steal the expensive ones (without extra chain).
Wish you all a sober and clean Saturday!
Stay strong 
One day at a time!
Well done Darren eight months is fantasticā¦
Congratulations 
on 8 months 
@Misokatsu so wise that really resonates with me
@Girlinterrupted keep strong know you can do it
@Dolse71 your chilling comment made me chuckle. @BobIsGone sounds just what you need induldge yourself
Checking in on day 150.
5 months being sober today. It was a long way to get there and I only made it with the support of all of you on here. Thank you! Iām very happy today. Life can be so beautiful being sober 
Checking in Day 40
Went to a party last night i drove. But left early as friends having fun and definitely partying at this stage i tend to get abit bored . But nice to see friends and better had no inking to break my sober cycle. They cant believe i am not drinking and was offered shots the lot but just stuck to soda. Pretty happy with that.
Grey miserable day rain and more wind in UK.
@Joy nice to see you here
@GVLnative enjoy 49 days sober twin
Wishing each and all a great Saturdayā¦ off to gym for body balance as just had cake for breakfast 
need to get the 
out of the fridge!
Extra chain yes but all the attachment points in the street were occupied. And yes on the van taking it probably. Seen it happen to one of my previous bikes from the window on the 4th floor. Although not many people will say something if someone takes a bolt cutter and cuts the locks just like that either.
Mostly playing console and talking. Coca cola and coffee helped me a lot today 
your posts always cheer me up bc one day I will be posting numbers like that. Thanks for the inspiration.
200 so so soon proud of you already. Iāll be busy when you post it, well done mate.
Checking in Day 1079 Thank you higher power for keeping me on this sobriety path. I am checking in daily now as there is a risk for me thinking I got this now, thinking I am safe. Well I am as close to my next drink as anyone else you know. Quadrouple Numbers Will not save me if I dont watch out. But I also know all the benefits of a sober lifestyle now. Like Body Balance on a Saturday morning and no hang over from alcohol for 1079 days. Yey 
Keep safe and sober you all! 
Oh how I feel for you. That stress is a lot. Doing whatās right for you, but feeling like youāre letting others down, it weighs heavily on the heart. Once the bandaid is ripped off, youāll feel tremendous relief. Iām excited for your new band.
158.51
Iām waking up sad and itās bullshit. I donāt know what it is about me, but I just get thrown away. Iām disposable. Iām sick of being a negative whiny bitch on here, but you all are all I have at the moment.
Itās my own fault for falling for shit and loving too freely. At the end of the day, I make the poor decisions that lead to my own heartbreak. This why I hate myself so much. I canāt turn that part of me off. No matter how much I try. I can never seem to think of myself or how something will affect me. I only think about others.
Iām so freaking introverted, maybe itās my way of staying outside of myself. I donāt know. But I would give anything to love myself the way I love others, and man, what I wouldnāt give to have someone love me back the way I love. I probably missed the boat on that one.
So, aside from that, this partnership thing is coming back up. He doesnāt want me to leave. I guess NOW heās seeing my value. I keeping dialogue open as staying would cut out some overhead. I would technically be separate, like I am now, but staying on to consult him on the 2nd business for some ownership there. This makes much more financial sense. Weāll see what happens. I didnāt feel weak or scared to say what I needed in order to even consider it.
I have my brunch date with my friend today. Sheās all about mimosas. Iāll be dammed if I blow my sobriety on that stupid shit. Full bar, so I will have to be strong. Iām not feeling worth good things right now. Sobriety being one of those things.
I think these PTSD treatments are maybe opening me up to my trauma a bit and itās impactful. Making me overly emotional. You guys know about my recent DV, but it all started way back to when I was 7, molested, a few rapes, multiple DV relationships, kidnapped and held hostage by one boyfriend, thatās just some of it, and itās just a lot and we have to dredge it all up to isolate where my main trauma is. Iāve not mentioned the main trauma on here I believe. Iām so sick of talking about it and all it does is make me rage.
Happy Sober Saturday, TS friends! Checking in, Day 53. Off to my AA home group meeting this morning, doing service as coffee maker and cookie baker!
Hi everybody my name is kole Iām an addict / alcoholic and have been for the past 30 years I have a lot that scares me about addictions and being an addict the most scary thing is my suicidal thoughts which have been creeping in for the last 2 years it started with depression at first my solution was to have a drink or a drug and as that is the problem well most of the problem anyway it ends up being a vicious circle I had a year up at 1 time Iāve now been clean from heroin acid and what you would call the heavier drugs for over 15 years but I still have the alcohol weed cigarettes and believe it or not what has caused me the most damage in my life after all those drugs his believe it or not the power drinks or energy drinks like v drinks or Red Bull I used to drink 30 of them a day so that is bound to do damage to your insides and have had an operation due to excessive energy drink consumption so this is my 4th hour coming up to my fifth our without a drink of any kind apart from tea no cigarettes no beer add know weed I know that if I continue on the path that I am on I will be dead within 5 years I smoke three packets a day I drink an excessive amount of alcohol weed has become less of a problem that it used to be but nevertheless it is still a problem and when I take any mind altering substance the outcome is usually depression that leads that leads on 2 suicidal thoughts it is another attempt for me but I feel good about this one I know it is only 4 hours but to go 4 hours without a cigarette for me is a long time anyway you may or may not get to know me depending on how true to the program I can keep just wanted to have somewhere to check in this time Iām going to
stay in the program and stay sober
Hey Kole, really glad youāre here! There are a ton of great people and lots of good information on here to read through as youāre going through this. My sobriety was progressive too. Started on all the stuffā¦whittled my way to being on none of the stuff! Life is good when youāre free. I look forward to getting to know you more!
Thanks a lot Ely I gather youāre from the 80ās maybe you were born 83 I was an 80s child as well although I was born in 72 yes Iāve done it all back in the day including sniffing petrol in the whole kit Ć nd kaboodle that goes with it thanks for your reply looking forward to getting to knowing the people on here including you