Wow! Big Congrats on 9 months @Mno! I always look forward to seeing your beautiful pictures every day.
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Iāll have to try that exercise out, thank you for sharing. Maybe Iāll look into other similar exercises with CBT.
I listen to Tara Brach a lot. But lately I havenāt. I got into a bad space in my head and everything got really fuzzy and my anger was overwhelming me. It was so frustrating feeling annoyed at everything and not understanding exactly why. I think talking about it helped soften that hard shell that seemed to be developing. Thank you again for reaching out.
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2 hours shy of 3 days sober and I caved 
Iām disappointed in myself because I did so good at the dinner event, asked my boyfriend if we could get a bottle of wine and decided to leave the package store without getting out of the car! Went home and slept well. I woke up this morning and there was vodka in the houseā¦ I have no work tonight and a house that needs to be cleaned. I caved and poured a drink just now. Iām grateful that I am more aware, and I understand home is a trigger. I will talk to my boyfriend this evening about keeping alchohol hidden away, or only purchased/used on the nights I am working and away from him. Itās getting warmer out so I am going to finish this drink and house work, and take the dogs for a short hike instead of pouring more. Resetting my day/time back to 0. Itās okay. I am learning. So glad I can post this to get my feelings out.
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Day 63! Celebrating my daughters 2nd birthday party today. Glad I will be sober. Her 1st birthday party I was not. I was hiding my addictions so badly when I confessed to my family they freaked out and threatened to call CPS on me. It was scary. It was the beginning of me trying my hardest to get sober and failing constantly and hiding it and having nobody to turn to. (Except you guys 
) Anyway, something finally stuck and here I am at my longest streak of 63 days, only forever to go. So grateful for my sobriety, especially on days like today.
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Congratulations! Happy birthday to your daughter. You should be so proud of yourself to be celebrating this day sober!
Relapses are learning opportunities. I for one could not have alcohol in the house, especially in the beginning. I also had to tell my fiance that no matter how much I begged he would not let me buy any. After a few weeks he was like āits okay if you have one drink.ā I got soooo angy and yelled and cried and said āNO its not okay!!! I am an alcoholic, I cannot have ONE ever!!ā I than began telling him all the times I was drunk and hiding it. Anyway he is 100% on board now which is helpful for me. Anyway good luck getting sober. It is worth it.
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Enjoy your daughters birthday you doing really well at 63 daysā¦ take plenty of pictures of both your day
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Good you have owned the relapse and not going full throttle . A walk will be good. Wishing you strength on your sober journey. Checking in really helps 
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Yes, Congrats on 7 months!!! Lets get that glass half full today!!
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Back on day 1. Full on relapse in which I drank more than I ever did before. I started SMART this time and feel optimistic about it. Working on not going down the negative selt talk rabbit hole and dwelling on the stupid choices I made after drinking again. Iām making small goals this time. 30 days sober to start, and then upping it to 3 months etc. Appreciate all of you for being here so I can post/chat when there isnāt a meeting available.
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Restless Leg Syndromeā¦I feel your pain
We call it leg anxiety on our house. Dont ask me why lol
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Sorry to hear that Chris. Thatās hard; itās a hard space, a hard feeling, searching for a point to all of this. At times like that I find volunteering (or any type of service) pulls me out of the funk. It gets me out of my own head 
Church is a good place to ask about these opportunities; 12-step programs; just a couple of examples, there are lots more.
Actually this funk is probably a good sign. In the early days of recovery itās mainly about you, the person recovering; as you build strength and independence, your circle grows, and youāre capable of doing work beyond yourself. This may be a signal that itās time for you to step into that domain.
Take care brother and good luck!
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Sober arguments are the best. Iāve been having more with my wife. The main difference with being sober is Iām not numbing / avoiding my boundaries & needs through my addiction. Instead Iām asserting them, and also listening to try to understand hers. (Iāve been working on my listening skills.) I actually found really trying to understand and validate her feelings has helped her to better respect my needs as well.
Congratulations on 25 days!
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Day 5. Emotions and thoughts are all over the place, I feel like I donāt know who I am anymore and itās a pretty shitty feeling.
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good morning everyone 
day 34, another beautiful day. @Desire2ChangeToday thank you very much and congrats on 225 looking forward to keep watching youāre milestones, @Clarity wow 63 days thatās awesome, and enjoy youāre daughters 2nd birthday so fun watching them open presents and seeing those faces. @BobIsGone congrats on 25 keep it up. The things Iām doing are so huge here lately, instead of getting drugs and being stupid, Iām buying myself my nice colognes that I like, shoes, making sure the fridge is stocked for me and my girls, and today I went and bought myself a nice bike so I can start doing some trecks. I took her out for a spin today and even with all the jogging and lifting Iāve been doing, all I can say is holy crap. Itās amazing what can happen when you surrender. This is all things that wouldnāt be happening if I did not. Thank you all for your support, have a great Sunday everyone.
day 34, another beautiful day. @Desire2ChangeToday thank you very much and congrats on 225 looking forward to keep watching youāre milestones, @Clarity wow 63 days thatās awesome, and enjoy youāre daughters 2nd birthday so fun watching them open presents and seeing those faces. @BobIsGone congrats on 25 keep it up. The things Iām doing are so huge here lately, instead of getting drugs and being stupid, Iām buying myself my nice colognes that I like, shoes, making sure the fridge is stocked for me and my girls, and today I went and bought myself a nice bike so I can start doing some trecks. I took her out for a spin today and even with all the jogging and lifting Iāve been doing, all I can say is holy crap. Itās amazing what can happen when you surrender. This is all things that wouldnāt be happening if I did not. Thank you all for your support, have a great Sunday everyone.
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Love this!
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@Mno gefeliciteerd met 9 maanden!
@Fargesia_murielae gefeliciteerd met 7 maanden!
@ everyone else with a milestone, congratulations!
I had to reset my counter because of a slip. This time I am going for gold 
Wish you all a sober and clean Sunday!
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cool! korte prinsengracht/brouwersgracht right? some moments I do miss amsterdam. especially in photoās when you do not hear of feel the buzzing crowd haha. congrats on the 7 months!
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congrats on the 7 months! keep analysing, keep writing, keep sharing!
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