Yay Yay Yay @Natnat!! So proud of you! Congrats lady. 
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Day 109. Headed to brunch with one of my daughters and husband. It feels so good not to wake up hungover!! Power on sober people!
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Thank you Jane! Iām scared to death but Iām doing this!!!
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These days between Christmas and New Yearās are always a bit of a struggle. I get to missing my routine. I just do better on a schedule lol Iām going to try to find some projects to work on to keep busy.
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@SoberWalker doing ok. Spending time with friends, coming to terms about marriage being over. Sad but okā¦no trigger at all.
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Thanks needed that yeah i know but still my anxiety has dropped a little thanks x like you said i have been back in last mon tues and friday so if it was deemed serious enough they surely would of said 
but still wont feel 100 percent until my team leader is in work with me tomoz and pulls me in for a meeting ? Surely it will be a bit of a telling off ? But i tend to overthink and think the worst ie sacked etc etc
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Thankyou so much for your kindness x happy New year to you xx
Thankyou so much . How are you feeling today x
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I finally found relief in rejection. It is actually pretty awesome. Personally, professionallyā¦ whatever!
Being unwanted for one reason or another sets you free. Free of chains. Free of expectations. Free of trying with everything you have. Feels damn good and light as a cloud or cotton candy, something. Got to be light. Lol.
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Beautiful logic
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Welcome @NancyH so glad you have found this community and congrats on putting yourself as your number 1 priority. Take full advantage of this site. It can be a huge tool and support on your sobriety journey.
Back to day 1, let my MIL get to me and I caved. Didnāt sleep well at all Friday night. ( I wonāt be to day 2 until 11 pm tonight) she didnāt say anything bad, I just feel so uncomfortable around her because of stuff she has said to me in the past.
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Checking in day 275.
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So sorry to hear that @Licorice. Just glad to see your back on here at day 1. Just worry about today and making it to day 2. Holidays are almost over and hopefully you can put some space between you and your MIL!
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Try not to let the external world affect your internal world they are two different entities. You cannot control everything and everyone to bend to your will but you can control the picking up of your substance. If you donāt meditate already I suggest you start because with inner peace others cannot hurt you. My Mrs still drinks and smokes in front of me but her actions are not my actions and it would not be her fault if I relapsed. After reading that back it sounds a bit shitty but what Iām trying to say is donāt react to your thoughts unless they are positive ones. Well done for getting straight back to recovery. Learn and be strong 
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Thank you for the encouragement!
Iāve been super tired today. Not sure why. A little anxious because I need to start my step 4 and I am just scared to write it all out. Also, I think maybe Iām just dreading going back to work tomorrow 
after being off almost a week. Iām going to drag myself to the grocery and then maybe do a walk/jog with my pup before I just chill out the rest of the day. Itās only 3pm here so Iāve got a bit longer to enjoy some down time. Hope you have a fantastic week! I think itās just about bed time for ya if my math is right.
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Yes nearly bed time . I know so many people struggle on step 4 ā¦ I loved mine as i knew it was my way to freedom. Whatever u write down itās nothing your sponsor hasnāt done or heard herself. Enjoy the rest of your day . And please donāt worry. Your a lovely lady and gonna be ok x
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This is so true. The desire to be liked must be my ego. People can not like me for a lot of reasons and I just need to accept that and move on. Thank you @siand!!
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You are spot on. Thank you again for always speaking up and speaking out 
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