People and whiny issues are tiring me today. My grasp on holding my shit together is eroding quickly.
Yes, and a FRAYED thread, at that!
I have 0 tolerance and 0 filter when government owned authorities are rude.
Like the unemployment agency, insurance agency, tax agency or anything like that.
If they even try I usually ask them if they are payed to be rude or payed to help the citizens.
I know theyāre stressed out, but Iām not the one who made all the stupid rules weāre supposed to follow either.
I can understand how thatās not a nice experience.
We donāt really have guards around here much. Only in big malls and such.
Never met a rude one, theyāre always nice especially to the boys who thinks they are cool,and always wants to chat.
Not feeling good when you have a day offā¦no motivation to do anything.
Much worse when someone 's and doesnāt flush it. Itās almost someoneās way of saying: āLook what Iāve created!!ā.
Lol that cracked me up But yeah thatās so wack that people donāt flush the toilet after taking a shit especially lmao
I have no idea what that is, but Iāll believe you. Why does it have 2 digits too many? (Unless it is right and just something foreign Iām ignorant of )
Speaking of annoying commercials, Iām sick to death of the Huggies āButtā commercial. The first time I heard it I thought āWho tf let this cringy crap air?!ā A year later and I still see/hear it daily
Commercials in general can fro!!!
And now put a huggies on that butt is stuck in my head
Heartburn I got it daily while drinking and it cleared up almost entirely since stopping. Now Iāve been able to determine that raw onions and cooked tomatoes are real culprits. Spaghetti for dinnerā¦no bueno At least it will never be as bad as pregnancy. Felt like there was a jalapeƱo in my throat for 5 months straight
The fact thereās no hose spigot anywhere on my building! Sure, the buildingās surrounded by blacktop and thereās not one patch of grass, but it used to be a school and had gardens. Thereās certain things I just canāt wash in my bathtub, or donāt want to. Super annoying
Pride gone too far
heat. especially in april. iām knocked out on the couch with a crushing headache after mowing for 20 minutes. with my head covered! i hate heat, bugs, moskitos, wasps, headache, spring, summer and mowing .
I find this spring to be especially exhausting if one is weather sensitive. Allergies and headaches have been plagueing my family for days now. I am very much hoping for the rain next week
It is horrific! That creepy voice
For real!!!
Person 1: I hope this doesnāt offend anyone,
Me: No worries, who am i kidding i donāt care
Feeling guilty and awful right now. I realize I messed up so badly with my sobriety last night. I was thinking Iād be fine at a rave/bar since Iāve been away from my DOC for a while. I donāt know how I thought so stupidly about going to somewhere like that. I guess I felt too much FOMO when my friends invited me, but as the others said FOMO is a lie. I feel like such a fucking failure and loser right now. I didnāt use my DOC last night at least, but still it was bad enough that it reset my sobriety to day #1ā¦
Honestly, the guilt and shame I feel right now is kinda making me think like: āwhy donāt I relapse on my DOC? I fucked up so bad already, why not make it even worse? Not like I give a shit about myself right now.ā But Iām trying not to think this way.
Itās just difficult trying to navigate the sober mindset, but Iām really trying to understand my flaws now and figure it out.
Bro, stop beating yourself up man. You messed up like we all do. Youāre honest and upfront about it.
Learn and move forward. Like relapse, beating your self up over it will not help you at all.
Just learn and move forward man. Stop writing and start reading. Find out what is going on in your head and make the steps to correct it.
You didnāt hurt anyone other than your own pride. Itās all good man. I didnāt give advice to pound you down, but I hoped it would wake you to what you want to doā¦
As an add on, stop thinking of this like your own personal flaw, itās a disease bud, no different than others. You have to work to get healthy is all.
Okok thanks homie. Okay Iām gonna just put this guilt and shame behind me. All I can do is move forward, and realize that I CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT be in a party environment. As my therapist says: āwe cannot change the past, you can only learn from the past and move forwardā