Aw Mischa… that sucks. It’s terrifying how similar your husband’s behaviour is to my dad’s. Even down to the same stupid ‘jokes’. If I didn’t know any better I’d ask if the two are related. 
But in all seriousness, you’re such a strong woman and you’re doing so well staying sober while living through this. It can’t be easy for you. Sending you virtual hugs. 
Daylight savings time, can straight up F-off.
That’s completely disrespectful, and unacceptable behavior. Reminds me of some things my ex would do, absolutely no regards or respect for my boundaries, or hard lines, and took things to another level when I really started standing up to the BS he was doing. Eventually I just had to tell him to get out and leave, because there’s no point in being with someone like that, or someone that is absolutely not willing to put any work in. Hope he wakes up and realises that what he’s doing to you is completely wrong and unacceptable.
Sounds like the sort of stupid stuff I used to do to torment my big sister. In my defense, though…I was a CHILD then. 
Holy shit! Just as I got comfy, I was startled by some loud banging. It was my next door neighbor coming home shitfaced. Like, falling down stairs, laughing uncontrollably, unable to unlock her door, shitfaced. I don’t really know much about them, except there’s a mother and young daughter (maybe 6yo, whom I’ve only seen once), and possibly another woman living there. It was silent for about 10 minutes, until I heard this blood curdling scream from what sounded like the little girl, over and over. So much so, I opened my front door, but then it stopped. Not a minute later, I heard that old familiar knock. I cracked my door again just to see if it actually was the cops, and an officer goes “in here, right?”, to which I nodded.
Idk what happened. It’s been a while and I still hear some commotion over there. But it isn’t the neighbors that can FRO. I’ve been that neighbor many times. It’s this feeling I’m left with. I was just going to bed, but now I’m wide awake…past 3am! This all started at 1:30 and I’m still on edge. Tense and shaky like I had too much caffeine. Haven’t felt this way in a long time. I think I might have PTSD from those nights with my daughter’s father. Grateful to have gotten away from that situation when I did 
Oh, awesome! I can hear yelling again 
And my daughter’s room shares a wall with theirs 
Maybe they can FRO now.
Oh Laura, what a horrible night. How are you doing? Could you get some sleep? Hope your feelings were able to calm 
Man, ain’t this the truth. Can’t even tell an innocent joke anymore. I noticed YouTube has really heen going overboard censoring out words that aren’t even profane.
Dang, that’s scary. Im more worried for the kids having to live with this.
Well, I still don’t know exactly what went down, but my daughter said her friend’s dad(upstairs neighbors) said that both women were arrested. Idk if it’s true tho. There was still commotion up until I went to bed, which was 2 hours after it started. Maybe it happened after 
Luckily, it didn’t bother my daughter. She said she didn’t hear any of it
Alarms, waking up to alarms…
You binge watch “Visiting with Huell Howser”.
Krieger can FRO today! The little shit. He peed on my $200 pair of sorel boots! Oooh I haven’t been that mad in a while 
(*before any questions, he’s my cat 
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Distilled white vinegar bath for a few hrs then the dryer?
Happy new year.
I wanted to stop being triggered by my mum.
I slept 2 hours before midnight.
0.07 I woke up from firework.
When going down, the tone in her voice (can’t even explain, it is just full of hate in my ears, it isn’t obviously, but it is to me) triggered me so hard, that I looked at here totally shocked.
And went out.
Now we are in fight. Later I said sry for going away. And she went on her other program. Giving me all the blame and blocking me emotionally.
I went away and said ok we found out who is the mother fucker again (me) and repeated my suicidal ideas, silently to myself. Later I noticed she went back to the program she had during my childhood too (emotional blackmail). It is all a game in here. My inner child wants to build harmony. And she is repeating her programs. This is all not proper for my adult me. And I can’t put boundaries at all? Question is if I can heal here. It’s a therapy playground I guess.
Not being triggered failed in 2025 within 7 minutes. FRO
Forgetting to shut my alarm off on my day off, wasn’t that bad, because I was able to go back to sleep but damnit lol
I forgot too @StacyAnn. 
So annoying on a holiday.
This year’s Rose Parade I’m watching this morning. There’s a bazillion commercial interruptions. Used to be there were NONE! And who the heck is this Pressley gal? God, she’s annoying!
The magic is gone. 
Join the club. I woke up at 5 A.M.
Yep last day of vacation and first day off with no plans, an actual day off and the alarm goes off, I had to laugh about it cuz OF COURSE 
