What country you in. I hate it when we all go to bed different times, thereās like lots of little bunches of people that know each other well.
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Not at all. It was almost a physical pain for about a month, just constantly fighting the urge to drink.
Constant mental battles with myself everytime I drove past a shop, every morning I woke up.
Facing all my emotions and feelings without drowning them out.
I was kinda happy in my own little drunken world where I didnāt have to face anything hard.
But that was an extremely selfish way to live!
So yes, it was the hardest thing I think Iāve ever had to do.
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I can totally relate to this. My mind gets so intense and my emotions decay at my existence so violently its unreal sometimes.
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Same here 
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Checking in on Day 10!! Iām alive. Iām sober. And Iām not crying! #Winning!! 
Praise God for the bad days because it makes the good days so precious!! All the love sober soldiers. Until tomorrow 
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Double digits for you! 
Definitely winning!
Yay! Double digits!!
Great to see you
Hey team, checking in on day 11. Made it all the way up the Hakiramatas 1349 steps. Went to church and also did a bible study class. Iām so stoked with what I achieved today and Iām glad I didnt give myself an opportunity to even think about getting high. Hope everyone is doing well.
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Sorry I missed checking in on day 12 team. I was on but I forgot to check in here.
Checking in on Day 13ā¦yay one day away from 2 weeks sober. It has felt looooooong Iām not gna lie. I need to take regular oxynorm for sever pain (part of the reason I smoked weed 24/7) and Iām not gna lie it is taking so much mental energy not to abuse them. Praise God I havent been. But the temptation is real. And i could say just dont have them but then Iām basically fully incapacitated so it isnt really an option. My only option here is self control. Eeeeek. Not the best at that.
I also today got told that there may be a genetic component to my emotional instability due to bipolar after all. But Iām praying I dont have to go on meds. Iāve worked so hard to get off everything I was one (at one point 9 pills a day) only now to find out if I want a stable mood I may have to rely on meds because Iām already trying everything else mentally to stay healthy and constantly burning out.
Positives: I am struggling but I am sober. I am tempted but I havent conceded to my urges. I am not completely miserable only tiredā¦okay not onlyā¦like really!!! Tired. But I know today is another day, the same as tomorrow will be, and the day after that and I am 13 days into that journeyā¦sober. I praise God for the beautiful day and my life, which is hard but precious, and I thank God for all my sober friends on here who know what itās like to feel like I do, and stick around to help anyway. Keep on keeping on fellow sober soldiers! All my love
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Hey donāt worry too much about the meds right now. If you need them for a bit thereās no shame in taking them. And I remember that the first few weeks of my sobriety tired didnāt even begin to describe how exhausted I felt. Your body is still detoxing. Give it time. Take it one day at a time and keep pressing on! Youāre doing great!
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Checking in on day 14
I want to get high so bad. Iām upset about something and my body is just like screaming at me to make it happen.
Iām not going to. It isnt worth it. And it wont change why Iām upset infact it will probably make it much worse.
So Iām gna have a tea, maybe some chipsā¦and go to sleep.
Iām tired.
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So badā¦
Cant sleep
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Iām up tooā¦canāt sleep. Iām working on marriage issues, slightly different than wanting to get high but a struggle just the same. You can make it hour by hourā¦it will get better.
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Did you get any sleep? Hope youāre not too upset anymore. Itās hard to resist our DOC when the things of this world upset us but it can be done. Stay strong. Youāve made it 2 WEEKS!!
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I am doing alright thanks heaps.
Hi team,
Checking in on day 16!!! Yaaaaay!
I ammmmm sooooo exhausted and getting high has been on mg mind alot today. Iām in the midst of movingā¦AGAIN (6 or 7th time in one year). Hopefully I will be here for a while now. But the stress of moving has been a real temptation to get high. I havent but I recognise the thoughts are definitely there.
Anywayā¦one more day downā¦another knew to go 
Hooe youre all doing well x
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Youāre doing great! Keep it up and reach out if the temptation is too much. Recognizing the thoughts is a huge part of the battle!
I guess here we go againā¦
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