I’m waking up feeling grateful, thankful, blessed this morning.
This will be a long one. This has been a very meaningful milestone for me. More meaningful than days and months.
Grateful I hosted a beautiful, cozy, welcoming Thanksgiving dinner for about 30 friends and their kids…it was a lovely evening. Lots of work doing the decorations, prepping the food, setting the music, and I could not have been happier with how it turned out.
I’ve hosted big Thanksgiving dinners for the past 10 years… For a long time, it was fine. For the last hm…5 years? I overdid it after the party. Sort of a reward after putting my feet up. For the last 2 years it brought a 3-day binge after a streak of sobriety. To say I was anxious about this date is an understatement.
This is the first time I didn’t drink before, during or after.
I’m grateful for my first sober Thanksgiving.
Grateful I enjoyed my friend’s company, taking the time to talk to everyone. Grateful my kids’ friends saw in me a mom who was welcoming and funny, and thanked me for everything at the end. My boys too. I loved that
I’m grateful that every time I saw bottles being passed and glasses being clinked I reminded myself of why that wasn’t for me. Not this time. Not today.
I’m grateful I asked my husband to put everything away as soon as everyone was gone and that I brewed a cup of tea to enjoy with a last piece of pecan pie. My favorite. I’m grateful I enjoyed the taste of the food.
I’m so grateful to be reflecting on last evening over a cup of coffee. I remember everything. I don’t have to make up excuses for anything. I looked well and felt well. Healthy. I don’t have a headache.
My best friend who used to organize those with me many years ago called me to check how it went. First thing she asked was “How are you feeling today?” Expecting I’d be hungover. I was so happy to tell her I was feeling great! I think she was surprised, but happy for me too
I’m grateful for so much. But today I’m grateful I recognize that I can change my behaviour in any situation. I have that choice. I have that power.
It’s a very delicate thing, sobriety. It can go away with a few seconds of carelesness. But it didn’t yesterday. And it won’t today either.
Sending loads of love to you all! Have a wonderful weekend, everybody!
PS: Also grateful the US didn’t lose to England yesterday…and the US deserved to win Watching soccer instead of football was really cool!