Daily Gratitude, The Air Of Recovery #4

Good evening.

I am grateful for my body and that it allows me to practice yoga to take care of my mind.

My youngest sponsee is one year clean today. :slight_smile: I am grateful for that. She came into the rooms when she was 20, turned 21 in NA, and will shortly be turning 22. I am grateful for her strong personality and her big heart. Her favorite color is purple and I found her the perfect medallion, I am grateful that shipping was fast and that it arrived on time. I had ordered one quite a while ago and the order never showed up, maybe that was the universeā€™s way of telling me we donā€™t front clean time. :stuck_out_tongue: I am grateful it all worked out and she loves the one I got her.

I finally finished my step 6 today, good lord that took me a long time. Character defectsā€¦ there was one i found exceptionally difficult to write on. I am grateful that I can notice the discomfort and find some curiosity around that. Where do I feel that, and what is it bringing up??? Therapy has opened a whole different world to me, I feel like things are so much clearer these days. I am grateful for clarity and curiosity.

August is a busy month here, I have family visiting from Switzerland and from the UK. I am happy to see them all and especially grateful my uncle took the long trip from Europe, he is in his 80s. It is nice to have so much family around they havenā€™t seen me since I got clean, my aunt said ā€œYou havenā€™t changed a bitā€ when she saw me which once again solidifies how well I masked my pain. I am grateful to live authentically today, for people to be getting the real me.

With all of the coming and going of camping and visitors, my routine is a mess and yoga has been difficult. I am grateful that I made time to go today. " Breathe in Gratitude, Breathe out Love." the Yin practice was exactly what I needed. I am grateful. :heart:

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Iā€™m grateful for another sober day, and for all the gracious support here.

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Iā€™m grateful that I woke up happy and eager to live another day sober this morning. Today has been a busy day but it has been a great day. Iā€™m grateful for God, my family and all of you here. :heart:

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Iā€™m grateful to God for lovingly guiding me through today while helping me abstain from my addictions. Iā€™m grateful for my family, friends, TS and the gratidudes. Iā€™m grateful to be caught up on this home thread and that it so popular and totally worth taking the time to catch up on. Iā€™m grateful for what @JazzyS said about having knowledge and now putting it to use, I needed to read that. Iā€™m grateful to see @M-be-free49 enjoying her well deserved piece of land. Iā€™m grateful I got my six month chip at my AA homegroup tonight. Iā€™m grateful it was a wonderful meeting full of all the feels, tears, laughter, depression, anger, love. Iā€™m grateful I spoke from my heart and had a much needed share about hope. Iā€™m grateful I took my friend with me who is on day 4 and we had a nice talk on the 20 minute walk there and back. Iā€™m grateful for my sponsor lineage and my sponsee. Iā€™m grateful I accepted a postion as alternate treasurer on Monday for my NA group. Iā€™m grateful I am arranging a business meeting for Saturday night for the CA group I attend that has been falling apart in front of me, I will be damned if I donā€™t pull the friend card on some of my local recovery members who have more experience in running a group than I do to help becauseā€¦ I canā€™t but we can. Iā€™m grateful I have time to be of service to all the groups I attend and that if it starts to feel like to much I can respectfully withdraw. Iā€™m grateful for music, humor and laughter. Iā€™m grateful my job is going really well, that it is full time and canā€™t believe Iā€™ve been there over two months already. Iā€™m grateful I have this weekend off and will go to my parents cottage Saturday for my Uncleā€™s 74th birthday and get to see some of the extended family. Iā€™m grateful I have plans to golf Sunday morning. Iā€™m grateful for the serenity prayer and mediatation.

May our higher powers restore us to sanity and let us know peace.

p.s. Donā€™t quit before the miracle. Ya you!!

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Iā€™m grateful I had a good visit with some colleagues who were in town last night. Lots of laughs. I was still feeling icky-ish from the mosquito madness, so instead of me joining them for dinner, they came over after and I served up some tea and fruit. It was nice to connect over non-work, and sober to boot. :wink:

Iā€™m grateful for the day Iā€™ve had, catching up on files for one client and readying to transition them back. It felt good to get caught up, but I also feltā€¦ i dunno. Actually, I do know. Recovery and my therapy have helped me see how much I, underneath a calm exterior, am scared of some change. Change in something goofily small can trigger fear and insecurity about the bigger change - losing the people I love, those losses already. Iā€™m grateful I can sit and hold these feelings, and let them go too, and learn to embrace impermanence. And connection too. I donā€™t lose people (or pets) when they die. Death ends a life, but need not end the relationship, right?

Iā€™m grateful to feel Fall in the air. A weird weather summer, but oh - how fall is my favourite!

Grateful to see @desert_rose and @Frazzetta! And new Gratidudes too, @Sara.eve!
And pics of @Lisa07 in @Dazercatā€™s Momma Lisa duck form!
And @Bootzā€™ ducklings too! Now those are adorableā€¦
Iā€™m grateful that @erntedankā€™s cats wonā€™t leave her side. That warms my heart. We would bring you soup and hugs and laughs if we could, but instead I will send them through the antics of your dear feline companions. :smile_cat: :people_hugging:
Iā€™m grateful for our milestones! Congrats @rainy7!

Iā€™m grateful for all of you.

Iā€™m grateful for another day. :orange_heart:

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I LOVE THIS :heartpulse::heartpulse: Thank you!!

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Over a month late, but thankful for your message, Jazzyā€¦

It was an alcohol-free vacation. Short, a bit hectic, but the kids reconnected with their friends and my family. I had some time with hubby, which was wonderful.

I completely understand @M-be-free49 's concern about keeping a calm appearance when underneath things are not as calm. The past 6 months were a lot. We had the potential of a big change, moving country (to a not dry country anymore, which worried me), and I was preparing for that. Halfway we had a full 180-degree change again and I had to undo all those plans and prepare to stay. With other challenges associated with it.

Long story short, the stress got to me and I damaged my tooth badly from grinding it constantly in my sleep. Insane pain, almost lost the tooth. All fixed now. Picked up a bad habit about 2 months ago and now need to drop that bad habit. I know I will. There is a light at the end of the tunnel.

Most importantly, I feel incredibly grateful for all of you. For helping me keep on the right track. For being on the right track with me.

Sending much love to you all :heart:

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Sending you a big, caring hug from one dentist chair to anotherā€¦it will all be ok :heart:

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Greteful today for the wonders of medicine and science. Grateful I have time, money and capacity to go on weekendtrips, whereever my heart tells me to go. I am grateful for friends who want to tagg along. Grateful I can drop in here on this threat and feel right at home. Grateful for my sobriety. And special thanks to @bootz for sharing the district 14 alanon family group podast a few days back. Grateful for Al-Anon too. Have a spectacular day, everyone :orange_heart:

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Yes yes yes!!! Doing a little dance in my head!! LOVE THIS!!! :heart:

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@erntedank hereā€™s my hand for yours at the dentist. Wish you could take one of your emotional support kitties. Theyā€™ll be there when you get home.

The hand is extended to all, also.
Big hugs. For the every day and the more challenging ones.

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Good morning sober fam,

My cousin is on maui and has been evacuated from the fires to a church. They dont have food and limited cell service. If you can, can you send some positive and comforting energy her way? Thank you!

Im greatful she has big faith and can pray to her lord for comfort and strength.

Im greatful for my sobrietyā€¦
1y3m9d free from weed and alcohol
9.4 days free from vaping
Woke up and got a good workout in
My gym is 5min drive away
Boscoe cuddles
Hubbys love
Hubby did the majority of the dishes
Interview went well and cfo told me i dont have any competition and theyre checking with hr if they can meet my salary request
My parents love and support
My family
Hope
Im getting thru vape cravings
This amazing community

Much love to you all. We are blessed.

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I havenā€™t seen that thread yet I will check it out. Thank you. Hope you have a great day @Soberbilly

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Today I am grateful that I found out about a meditation thread that I can check out in this community. I look forward to checking it out. Thanks again @Soberbilly

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@erntedank how are you doing today? I do hope you woke up refreshed and ready to have a kick ass day. :people_hugging:
@bootz what a lovely picture ā€“ so beautiful! Wishing you luck with your race ā€“ my goodness the training would have me feeling like a big bowl of jello
@i.cant.we.can always great to read your gratitudeā€™s. Have a wonderful time celebrating your uncleā€™s 74th bday. Grateful for all the support you lend to all the groups and even more grateful that you know you can bow out if it gets to be overwhelming.
@m-be-free49 Totally get the fear and anxiety that comes from change. Hopefully you can take baby steps and embrace the changes and be able to see them from a different view point. I do love your take on not losing someone just because they have crossed over. That relationship will go on in our hearts and minds.
@desert_rose its good to hear from you and glad that you had a sober wonderful vacation!
@cjp yes many prayers for all those in Maui. I do hope your cousin stays safe and hoping that these fires are controlled / put out very soon. Fingers crossed that your salary requests are met ā€“ glad you had a great interview.

Happy Thursday morning my sober companions
I am grateful for a solid 7 hours of sleep. I am grateful for not feeling too groggy this morning and grateful for the chance to make another beautiful day happen.
I am so grateful that I was able to wake up and make cookies for the restaurant. Still going through all the inventory ā€“ itā€™s actually not so bad (knowing that I donā€™t have to do it if I donā€™t feel like it).
I am so grateful to be enjoying my cup of coffee I re-heated from yesterday and listening to the fresh pot being refilled. OOH that will hit the spot!
I am so grateful that I got to talk with my cousin for a bit last night and I will be seeing the family on Sunday. They are visiting for 3 weeks and already full booked for each day. So crazy- we have so much family around and everyone is pitching in to do something special for them. If I can keep this energy level up I am hoping to take them to a paranormal cirque show on Sunday. They are having it right down the street in the Malls parking lot.
I am so grateful for my family. I am grateful that I can be totally me with them. Grateful that I have my parents and brother around me so I donā€™t feel isolated. Grateful for the support they provide and their unconditional love.
I am so grateful for finally seeing my stress level at 20 on my watch app -its been over 40 for some time (think thatā€™s due to the pain) ā€¦ I feel like I am able to better manage that these days (God willing this will continue). Grateful that I am not fighting fatigue every second and am able to be active (feeling a bit more alive).
I am so grateful for healthy clean eating ā€“ light exercise ā€“ sore muscles (I know Iā€™m actually doing something) ā€“ sunny days ā€“ overcast days ā€“ clean fresh air!
I am so grateful for my Higer Power ā€“ grateful for my connections to Him and to myself ā€“ grateful for mediation / prayer to help make these connections and to help keep me grounded ā€“ grateful for learning to control my anger and gain patience ā€“ grateful for learning to see situations from different perspectives
I am so grateful for this thread this site and this community. Grateful for each of you / us showing up everyday ā€“ for fighting to protect your sobriety ā€“ for wanting to live a healthy happier life without being bound by our DOC. YEAH US! WE ROCK!
Hope everyone has a positively charged addiction free Thursday ā€“ sending much love :heart: :heart:

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30 days went by really quickly after 2 weeks and excruciatingly slow the first 2 weeks :sweat_smile::two_hearts::two_hearts: thank you for everything :face_holding_back_tears::heartpulse:

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Good morning good buddies! This morning Iā€™m grateful for early morning puppy snuggles, a mild and sunny morning bike ride to work, co-workers who are happy to see me and who laugh with me, a special lunch with my co-workers to look forward to and date night with my special man. Grateful for the opportunity to pause and remind myself to appreciate this life.

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Always the hardest days at first, is that knot beginning to ease now? Keep working on your sobriety and be ever vigilant, i think u are amazing :clap: :heart: xxxx

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Yes, the knot eased once I truly apologized to everyone (including myself), and made a commitment to me that this is it. Everyone forgave me and that made it easier to move forward. I get the knot when I recall old shit but I use it as motivation to not be that entity ever again. Itā€™s scary how vile my drunk tongue can be :pensive: and the knot loosened once I realized thereā€™s no end date. Thereā€™s no date this is completed and Iā€™m cured. This is my new normal, ODAATā€¦ and I need new friends lol. I think coming to terms with this all really loosened that knot and anxiety. Add the clarity and ashwaganda to it all and it all fell in place :two_hearts:

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This is brilliantā€¦i think that tooā€¦that we are never able to go back and are never cured its just something we live with and have to continue to work onā€¦ive found though that as i go along sobriety gives me little gifts that mean so much that now i dont want to ever go backā€¦there is no destination but im beginning to enjoying the journey for what it isā€¦lifes never going to always be peachy and thats ok its alot easier to manoeuvre while sober thats for sure!xxxx

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