Daily Gratitude, The Air Of Recovery #4

Its_me_Stella · August 28, 2023, 2:48pm

Good morning, I feel like its been a minute.

Many days I have come to this thread and started to write out my gratitude only to be ripped away by my very busy, very beautiful, very full life. I just end up deleting what I had typed whenever I happen back on it, so I dont really know when the last time I posted was. Lol, I am grateful for my crazy full life.

I am grateful for the seasons and how a simple chill in the morning air whispers to me, “start to slow down”. I am not sure I have ever made so much out of a summer in my life, it’s been incredible. I am grateful my body has held up pretty well with only minor exhaustion flares and a couple of pain flares.

I am grateful for all the family that took time out of their lives to travel here and stay. What a gift it has been to experience my family through clean eyes, I dont want them to leave, its making me sad. I am grateful for the noticable tug-o-war I am having between my inner child and my loving adult. One who knows about loving with dettachment and one who just cant grasp that concept and whats to hang on. I am grateful that I can show up for that sad little girl and remind her about interconnectedness, the souls journey, etc. I am grateful it calms her down and she listens.

My child will be starting Gr 12 next week, she was supposed to have used this summer to have gotten herself on a comfortable dosage of medication for her ADHD, she hasnt. I am grateful that she is turning 18 and although she has asked me to be her voice and do her medical “stuff”, I have a choice. She is very willful around medication and deflects her negativity to me whenever i approach her to take her meds. I am grateful I set a boundary with her and said I wouldnt do it anymore, nor would I come to her Drs appointments regarding her medication. I am grateful that I have choices today and that I know how to make a boundary, even with my teenaged daughter.

I am grateful for the beautiful sun that has kept me energized now for months and for the brilliant stars that put on a show each night. It was incredible to be a witness to my cousins family experiencing our starry sky for the first time. Seeing the vastness of the milky way and the trillions of stars so clearly that make it up takes my breath away everytime I see it. I am grateful that I remember the first time I noticed it too.

I am grateful for the universe.

Dazercat · August 28, 2023, 3:08pm

I’m grateful to be back.
I wasn’t gone long or maybe not at all but I sure had a lot of catching up to do.

Thanks again everyone for your support last week during some trying times. I’m grateful I have you all here. It means a lot me.

I was so grateful yesterday, I was up so early to walk Benson. I even had new Bombass socks and new sneakers which made me grateful for happy feet first thing in the morning. I had a long list of gratitude I couldn’t wait to post with you guys and I never did it. Not in writing anyway. I’m grateful I enjoyed puttering around our messy cluttered box filled house instead. I’m grateful it just felt right.

I was so grateful for a beautiful day and a half.
Early morning sunrise walks with The Burner.
All the bunnies that were afraid of us.
The covey of M quails running around like chickens with their heads cut off.
I’m grateful Benson wasn’t afraid of the covey this morning. He stopped and wouldn’t budge. I thought how can he be afraid of these silly little birds? I’m grateful I eventually saw he was looking at a squadron of javelinas that blended in perfectly to the desert background. I’m grateful we decided to turn around and go the other way.
I’m grateful I couldn’t think of anyone to be my grumpy, snorting, fat javelinas. Billy
You up for the title? @Soberbilly

I’m grateful to have you all on walks with me in the morning.

I’m grateful for civil conversations with my wife about difficult things. I’m grateful to get back to boundaries. Especially if I’m uncomfortable with her drinking at lunch when we go out to lunch. I don’t have to go. I’m grateful I’m not stopping her from drinking or trying to control her drinking. I’m just not going out to lunch with her if she’s going to drink.

I’m grateful we already got a contract on the Flagstaff house I’m grateful the market here/there wherever the fuck I am is a sellers market and in my favor. That almost never happens for us. I’m grateful we’ve sold a lot of houses and taken a lot of hits over the years. I’m grateful not this time.

I’m grateful I got a lot of good shit and blessings in my life. I got way more than enough. I don’t know why. Lots of times I think I don’t deserve it. But who’s to say. But I swear ya I do. I’d trade it all in for my wife not to have this disease . I’m grateful we had a pretty good 36 hours.

Anyway…… I’m grateful to get a glimpse of @JazzyS up above. The glimpse I saw was Pumpkin Spice it’s not that I don’t like it. I just OD’d on it back around 2013 and I don’t do sugar anymore and it’s just not good for me. Grateful I know that. Grateful I can enjoy it through you. But pumpkin spice Oreos are Right Out!! Nope. No way!

Hi Twinnie I see you too.

And M and the Covey just showed up for an NA drink poolside.

Leaving so soon?

I’m grateful to be silly this morning.
I’m grateful it’s better than being depressed.

I’m grateful I ran out of my turmeric green tea as I get to enjoy an Açaí green tea over ice this morning instead. I’m grateful it’s pretty fucking good too.

I’m grateful for my meeting last night. I didn’t enjoy it. I didn’t actually really feel better after it either. But I’m grateful I went.

I’m grateful through all this I’m sober.
I’m grateful I’ll probably be sober tomorrow too.

“There are no words that can express my thanks for you. If words could be hugs I would send you pages.”
Unknown

Dazercat · August 28, 2023, 5:43pm

Be safe out there.
Better yet. Get the hell out of Florida

And belated congratulations on the 16 fine moths of your life and us being blessed to have you here.

Hoss · August 28, 2023, 6:00pm

Today I’m grateful for:

7 days sober.
It’s been very easy. I chalk it up to multiple TLC meetings per day, texting/talking with sober friends, getting off my bloody cell phone and reading instead. I think possibly my subconscious is finally attuned to my conscious mind and the cognitive dissonance has left the building.
Staying confident but vigilant.
This community.
My goofy dogs.
My handsome horse.
The very real possibility of moving into the New Mexico house prior to closing, per the builder all he needs is the certificate of occupancy and we can move in.
My 60 year old body that can still run, do yoga & sit in meditation.
Trees.
Birds.
Flowers.

erntedank · August 28, 2023, 6:47pm

Evening gratitude. Spend a day on the couch and I’m fine with it. I’m grateful I can spend a day on the couch and feel the feelings. Pretty exhausting since afternoon, lots of loneliness, missing the nice, loving times with my ex, being stuck in the heartbreak hamsterwheel for some time. I’m grateful this too shall pass, especially as the old boy demands dinner and I’m off to bed afterwards. I’m grateful for the shower I’ll take before. We are expecting heavy rain maybe thunderstorm at night, so maybe I’m a bit nervous therefore, got a mild headache in the evening. Good night sober friends

Pattycake · August 28, 2023, 7:11pm

I’m grateful that I’m learning to be more grateful, seems I’m always looking at the hole instead of the donut, as my husband likes to say.
Speaking of husband I’m grateful for his support and his undying wish for me to be happy, even though after 40 plus years of marriage, we easily irritate the hell out of each other sometimes.
I’m grateful that I had another sober day yesterday, and looking forward to being free today too.
I’m grateful for my two kitties who love me no matter what and I love them to pieces.
I’m grateful for all the veggies we’re getting from our garden.
As always, grateful for the TS community and the wisdom and support I find up here every day.

erntedank · August 28, 2023, 7:46pm

Thank you so much Billy! I get so much from your posts and quotes, some are set as bookmark with reminder. It’s the ups and downs that are exhausting, after a loving laughing time follows the opposite with missing, crying, sadness. I’m grateful the intensity declined a lot and I am able to cope with it most of the time. Nevertheless I would appreciate the heartbreak feelings to fade out, to be honest I’m tired of crying about someone and something that’s simply gone. There should be a snooze button for feelings to have a break and rest/recover

Its_me_Stella · August 28, 2023, 11:11pm

What are theeese, I will have to look them up.

Its_me_Stella · August 29, 2023, 4:29am

Bomb-ass

Dazercat · August 29, 2023, 4:37am

@Its_me_Stella

Dazercat · August 29, 2023, 4:42am

Alisa · August 29, 2023, 5:03am

Are you out of harms way? I caught a glimpse of your map somewhere but now I can’t find it.

Lisa07 · August 29, 2023, 9:01am

I’m grateful for all of you here, your kind words and warm welcome.

I’m grateful to wake up before my 5am alarm and have time to post before going to work.

I’m grateful I’m not allergic to bees after getting stung in the shoulder. It flew into my long hair and couldn’t get out. After a vigorous head shake while it was frantically buzzing, it was finally free to sting me. Not the bees fault though. Our world’s happen to colide unexpectedly. I’m grateful I was at home and able to ice it right away. Grateful the swelling and pain have gone down overnight.

I had an extremely busy day at work yesterday but I’m grateful I get to go to work. I’m grateful I was able to stop what I was doing and come to the aid of 2 new teammates. I’m grateful they (and my boss) take advantage of the knowledge and experience I have to offer.

I’m grateful my daughter is able to keep herself busy during the day while I’m at work. I’m grateful she knows how to use the microwave and nourishes her body with yummy food we leave her. I’m grateful she’s responsible and calls me for every little thing including the annoying beep from a dead battery in the smoke detector. I’m grateful she enjoys walking the dog when we’re not home. I’m sure he’s grateful too. After their walk, she puts him on this big swing with her, in the backyard next to the lake, and they enjoy nature together. Watching the birds, turtles and fish.

Have a great day all my fellow gratidudes and gratidudettes.

Aww! You’re too sweet @eph-M-eral. You gave me a big smile. Yes, I am a hugger!

Mbwoman · August 29, 2023, 10:34am

I’m grateful that even though I woke up at 4 a.m. (2 hours before the alarm) I woke up welcoming sobriety day 907!! Not because I went to bed drunk and slept poorly. Actually, the dog howled in his sleep and woke me. Then I was worried about him. He’s fine.

I’m grateful @Dazercat shared an article about Anxiety and Gratitude. Goooood stuff.

I’m grateful that today I plan on turning worries into actionable items. Example - realizing some paperwork should hsve been done BEFORE I got married in July. Huge life insurance policy going 50/50 to husband’s daughters. Ummmm…no to that. It will take at least $25,000 to get this house cleared out (I married a semi-hoarder) and ready for sale. Not a very romantic notion for a newlywed. But, I’m 63 snd practical and it is causing me worry. So today i find an estate planner and set up an appointment.

Hmmmm…I guess that counts as gratitude?

Good morning sober friends.

Mbwoman · August 29, 2023, 10:37am

I like this and relate! I had a rough summer medically…and so unexpected. Over the hump. C’mon fall!! Vroom!!

Cjp · August 29, 2023, 12:15pm

Good morning sober family,

Im so very greatful for…

My sobriety!
1y 3m 28d free from weed and alcohol
28d free from all unhealthy* addictions…what can i say i have an addicts mind?!
A workday to hopefully catchup
Leftovers
My mom can watch Boscoe
Boscoe loves playing with my moms pups
Hubby and i had quality time yesterday
Feeling supported
A fricken clean house…taking bets on how long this lasts…
Survived monday
Got a workout in
Modifying my meals and not giving up on my weightloss journey after a setback
Love
My planner mind
Countdown to coasta rica 5 months!

Much love to my peeps

JazzyS · August 29, 2023, 12:41pm

Awe love I totally get being tired of shedding tears for something that is gone and devoting so much brain / heart space to what you want to be rid of.
I know they say time heals all wounds and for me I thought this was bs cause I was still hurting strongly after 5 years of ending a 13 year relationship. But you know what – one day I found I was hurting less and then this started to be the pattern and I am shocked to say that yes time does heal all wounds. Now I can even think about my ex and not have pain or heartache associated with the memories.
You are doing great and I see that you do have some great “the ex can fuck off days”. Your wounds are healing my friend – they are just taking some time to make sure they heal properly and not just put a child size band-aid over your pain.

Sasxoxo · August 29, 2023, 1:21pm

Today I am grateful I get to participate in a narcan training at work. Hopefully I will never need to use it but it is good to possess the knowledge to be able to help someone if necessary.

JazzyS · August 29, 2023, 1:21pm

You do deserve all these blessings and more my friend.
@soberbilly I do hope that you and your Mom stay safe Billy – looks like the hurricane is gaining strength. Just saw your update – smart to turn off the news as you just add to the anxiety. Stay safe and I do hope that the storm is a non event.
@cjp I believe it’s your 4 week vape free mark! Well done CJ – Its great that the cravings have gotten less. You are kicking ass and a great way to start of your new year in life addiction free – just a few days till your bday!
@hoss Hell yeah – sorry for being late but wanted to congratulate you on 1 week! Age is just a number and as long as we take care of this vessel we can do whatever we put our minds to.

HUH – this is clever and really made me think. Thank you Patricia – that picture was very peaceful to gaze at :smile
@lisa07 the imagery of the bee stuck in hair and the vigorous head shake was a bit of a chuckle – been watching way too many cartoons I guess (would’ve been a great skit) – I am very happy that you are not allergic and were able to get the swelling down.

Tuesday morning gratitude’s - HAPPY TUESDAY to all your beautiful souls
I am so grateful that the market is in Eric’s favor.
I am so grateful that Bombass brought so much joy to the thread!
I am so grateful the “be a curator of your life” quote. Wow – so much to take away from today’s gratitude’s
I am so grateful for energy! So blessed to have loads of it today!
Iam so grateful for my coffee- grateful that i can make it to my taste and strength level at home.
I am so grateful to see that my cc bill was much lower as i do not need to buy supplies and inventory for the bakery.
I am so grateful that i do still get the chance to bake and provide for the restaurant but it is on my schedule and not something i am obliged to do.
I am so grateful for my family. Had a lovely chat with my mother (where i was mostly crying) - left her house feeling lighter and heartache free. I love that she is so fucking amazing! I too think my mom is the best and my best friend and that there is nothing wrong with that - in fact it’s a blessing @Mia2 --I did enjoy your gratitude post
I am so grateful for the day already slipping away and i will make the absolute most of it today. Grateful that i have taken on the deliveries and catering drop off for today. I am grateful that it is beautiful and sunny out and not too hot or humid! I really will be a GOOD DAY!
I am so grateful for waking up with meditation on my mind. Grateful for incorporating prayer into everything i do. Grateful that i no longer feel shunned when i have someone in my car and i only listen to teachings to help me better connect with my HP
I am so grateful for showers and the clean feeling. Grateful that i am starting to have more enjoyable showers (that’s got to be healing right?)
I am so grateful that i did find my soap collection and hopefully soon i will be able to shower with all the amazing scents again.
I am so grateful for this group and all you beautiful souls! SO much love / comfort and compassion felt here on this site. I am grateful to be a part of this journey.
Hope you all have a wonderful addiction free day - sending much love to ALL

EarnIt · August 29, 2023, 1:44pm

@eph-M-eral How beautiful. Actual celebrations of a life well-lived is so much better IMO than somber affairs of mourning. I am glad you found so much in in. Sounds like a great person!

@Mbwoman - OOF- Turn worries into actionable items! This has been on my mind a lot! I am glad I read that this morning.

This morning I am grateful for forum shenanigans and Bombass socks.

I am grateful for my 7am meeting with such an impactful message and sharing with as much vulnerability and honesty as possible in the moment.
I am grateful to recognize I have been spending more time thinking about what I don’t have than what I do. Lack of gratitude breeds a feeling of scarcity and I already feel that shifting by coming on here daily again.

I am grateful my future landlords agreed to waive the deposit for the time being. Now, I am only short a grand and not four. I am grateful that something is going to happen to make that OK, as I know I am meant to live there.

I am grateful to enter this day knowing that I can’t change yesterday, or even a moment ago. You can only aim at targets in the future, as soon as you take a step forward, what’s behind you is unmalleable.

Today, I will make my “worries actionable items.”

Much