Daily Gratitude, The Air Of Recovery #5

Today I am grateful that it’s pay day and I will be able to go looking for Halloween decor for my house after work. I love Halloween and can’t wait to get some new decorations. I am also grateful for remembering about a vision board I made with a 5 year plan and some other goals on it. For some reason I had forgotten all about it.

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I’m grateful, even though I woke up hating my wife this morning, I know it’s the addict inside her I hate.

I’m grateful I’m having a hard time shaking this feeling and went right to insight timer for a quickie about releasing anger. Or better yet feeling it. And trying to let it go. I’m grateful in the middle of it, they told me to put one hand on my 7th chakra and my other hand on my third eye and I was like laughing to myself because I don’t know what the fuck they are and I couldn’t wait to tell wifey about it.

I’m grateful to try and leave my struggles here with y’all.

I’m grateful for TS Gratitude Tears because of all the love and support and genuine concern you all have for me. @Pandita your comments, the first thing I read this morning, brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for a nice cleansing way to start my day.

I’m grateful I recognize my stinking thinking about later today. Tonight. Tomorrow. When we get home. And I quickly try to bring myself into the present. IT DOESN’T FUCKING MATTER WHAT HAPPENS later today, tonight, tomorrow, or when we get home.

Right now is what I have:
My Stumptown coffee.
You all. Ya :coffee: comes first :stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes:
Beautiful hotel room.
Beautiful wife.
Beautiful family I’ll be moving to be near.
Beautiful friends from Austin.
My SIL and nieces showed up yesterday.
Our charitable foundation meeting today.
A great real estate agent who drove us around yesterday.
Y’all checking in on me.
My health.
My beautiful caring heart.
Sunshine on my face through the window warming me up.
Watching the sunrise from said window with my coffee.
My beautiful gratitude practice that has gotten me this far. Very far.

And PEACE our new Graticat. :thinking: you know what’s better than a kitten? 2 kittens :smile_cat::joy_cat: I can’t wait to watch Peace grow with you.
I’m grateful I’m going to show my wife Peace. I didn’t want to show her yesterday because I was so angry. SPITE Or show her today because I’m still mad. But I’m only hurting myself. Peace is going to help heal us as well. What a beautiful HP you got now Brian.
I’m grateful I get another day.
:pray:t2: :broken_heart: :heart_eyes_cat:

Happiness cannot be far behind a grateful heart and a peaceful mind
Melanie Honest/Glimmer

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Today I’m grateful for:

  1. My job
  2. God
  3. Children
  4. Working out
  5. Morning coffee
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@i.cant.we.can Awe -what a beautiful kitty and Peace is such a lovely name. :heart: Oh my goodness Peace – so lovely to hear your voice as well. Grateful that your human let you say your hello’s. You two are much needed for each other :hugs:
@eph-M-eral Oh my goodness Dog-girl so lovely to meet you and I know you are in good hands with your human too. Love your sense of humor and am grateful that you were able to stick with Emm during her hardships.

Yes – Yes you are able to do whatever you set your mind to!
@sasxoxo YEAH to getting Halloween décor and ooh the fun it will be putting it up. So excited for you!!! 5 year plan – love it – my sister has a vision board that she keeps in her bathroom and swears by it – says it has really helped her focus on her goals.
@dazercat I am so grateful for the insight timer and all your other tools you have to help you when the feelings become too much. It is ok to feel angry and hurt but also know that this is her journey. Hope that she will find her way back to sobriety but you can only control your own actions. I too am grateful for your beautiful caring heart (it is massive and that is why you hurt so deeply). I am sorry for the hurt but grateful for all the love you share. :hugs: I do hope today is a beautiful day for you!!

Tuesday morning gratitude’s!!!
OH MY – i’m grateful for another day on Earth. Grateful for the peace in my heart. Grateful that my chest is not hurting today and my throat is 100% healed from the EGD.
I am so grateful that i spoke with my doctor and she is also worried that the ovarian cyst is growing large fast and I should get the MRI so I will be scheduling this today. I did call for an appointment with a better OBGYN but that is a mid January appointment. Will get the MRI and see what happens.
I am so grateful that my renters left the place is fairly decent shape. The yard is a hot mess as they let everything just grow wild. Grateful that my aunt has a landscaper guy who is willing to check out the place Thursday and hopefully will be able to tame the beast.
I am so grateful for cooler days ahead so I can go when it’s not super hot to clean up the insides. Hoping to have it on the market by Monday.
I am so grateful that my sprinker vavle was not broken - the first tech was new and did not know that the zone needed more water to blow it out properly. Grateful that even though i waited 4 hours for the tech he was able to blow out all zones properly and not charge me for this visit.
I am so grateful that i have enough energy today to deal with our freezer that has decided to over frost. My goodness that was a lovely way to start the day.
I am so grateful that i will also have the energy to clean the house as my mom wants to bring my aunt and uncle (visiting from Iran) over tonight. The house cleaning is a breeze - just had a shitty moment on Friday morning as i was preparing for my procedures and i spilled coffee (lots of it) on the carpet. I was still out of it when i returned so the stain really set in. Have cleaned the carpet and somehow made it worse-- Hoping for some miracles today.
I am so grateful for my family support and unconditional love.
I am so grateful for how active this TS site has been - so many beautiful souls working on creating a better life for themselves. Love the support and love this community offers.

wishing everone a wonderful addiction free day! sending you all so much love :heart: :heart:

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My first thought reading this was “I love these people”

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79 days sober. I am grateful for my husband telling me last night that it had been a good day. I need to hear that more often.

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I am grateful for acronyms.

Why
Am
I
Talking.
:boom:

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Lunchtime gratitude.

I’m grateful I fell asleep again yesterday before even catching up on the thread. Seems I need lots of sleep atm. I’m grateful I can take a nap today. I’m grateful it’s a full day at home today. Life has gotten busy again and I’m not always comfortable with it.

Today I struggle with a necessary task. I’m afraid to try and fail. I’m not grateful for such homemade bullshit, it’s exhausting. I feel overwhelmed and insecure. I’m grateful it’s ok to feel that way. I’m grateful I work on these feelings, sadly nothing is helping up to now. I permanently fall asleep when I mediate (better: try to meditate). I’m grateful Missi is purring on me. I’m grateful I enjoyed a chill minute of sunrise on the balcony. It’s disturbing that it’s dark outside when I get up. A week ago I woke up with sunrise at the same time. I’m grateful I notice that I feel very uncomfortable with so many changes at once in my life. I’m grateful I trust that I can handle all one day at a time :pray:

I’m really struggling today with overthinking and the hamsterwheel in my head. I’m questioning myself and my decisions. I’m grateful this too shall pass :pray:

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Good morning sober fam,

Im so very greatful for…

My sobriety
64 days free from all unhealthy addictions
Giving myself grace
Time with hubby and Boscoe
My folks
A new day
Improving mental health
Progress rather than perfection
Hope
Patience
Fall weather
Midweek
Looking forward to friday payday
Hot coffee
Our home
Our safety

Much love my sober warrior buddies

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I’m grateful action speaks louder than thoughts :pray:

I did it. I tackled the task. I’m grateful it went well. I uncoupled the 600 kg rototiller from the tractor. On my own, alone. I’m so grateful I watched and listened carefully in spring when the mechanic showed me how to couple it without help :pray:
I’m grateful for my late friends who always encouraged me to try and don’t give up. I know they were with me and they are proud of me on the other side of the rainbow :orange_heart:

I’m grateful I’m crying of relief and gratitude. Another brick in the wall to rebuild confidence in myself. How come that I lost so much of it in our relationship? Because there was always someone to take care and help so I didn’t have to face things alone? Because I thought others can do things much better than I do? Because I avoided to do things I was not comfortable with or had anxiety?

Whatever the reasons are, it’s possible to get competence again! There must be a rest of trust in my own abilities, otherwise I would not try and get help where I need it. Words can hardly share how I feel now, my heart is sparkling with gratitude, relief, joy and so many other feelings.
And I’m grateful for my reliable tractor which started without problems after standing around for months. And that I managed to park it in front of the garage before it started to rain. Love my big boy. I’m grateful I gifted myself with it on my 40th birthday 10 years ago. Now the time has come that I use it myself :smiling_face_with_three_hearts::pray:

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Go you, that must feel so amazing to achieve yourself :heartpulse:

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Good morning.

I am grateful that I woke up today.

I am grateful that I am clean and that I have another chance to live another beautiful day making the right choices to keep myself that way. I am grateful that it always comes down to a choice.

I am grateful for equanimity and how well that spiritual principle serves me daily. I am grateful for detaching with love, sometimes detaching with hope and sometimes just detaching because Im too tired of the games to feel love or hope that day.

I am grateful that when I got this text at 9 last night I felt numb…

I am grateful for all the ways my body and brain help me survive this crazy life. I am grateful that this morning when I reread that text I felt some sadness, deep sadness and a whole lot of powerlessness.

I am grateful for the program of Narcotics Anonymous and that I KNOW that ANY addict who wants recovery need not die from this disease. I know that friend of mine, knows my phone number, I know she knows where all the meetings are and that I would pick her up. I am grateful that I know its all about her choices.

I am grateful for my life today. I am grateful I am not faced every minute with chasing a fucking high that I can never attain and that chaos that comes with active addiction. I am grateful for the addicts who go back out and are stark reminders of that for me.

:pray:

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I love this.
I’m grateful maybe I don’t always have to detach with love.
Thank you. :folded_hands:t2:

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I’m grateful, I guess I’m trying to learn it’s ok to give myself time to heal. Not beat myself up because I’m was so fucking angry and resentful towards her for the past couple of days. Yes it was an Al-Anon relapse. I’m grateful I did have some good moments the past few days.

I’m grateful I shared over here this morning and worked things out in my head Are you affected by a loved one who’s an addict? - #1146 by Dazercat

I’m grateful sometimes it just comes down to forgiveness. And maybe it just has to fester a day or 2 before I can let go. And can forgive. I’m grateful for my feelings. The negative uncomfortable ones and the comfortable good ones.

I’m grateful I stubbed the shit out of my 4th toe yesterday. I actually think I broke it. It looks like a knockwurst. It hurt like hell. It still hurts today. But hurts less. Tomorrow it will hurt even less. I’m grateful to learn I got to give emotional pain just like physical pain time to heal. I still feel the hurt on that toe the day after. Hurts like hell today. But it is a little better. Maybe tomorrow I’ll forgive that stupid little toe and it won’t hurt anymore. Should it be any different with emotional pain?

I’m grateful for my last :croissant: with coffee.
Grateful I don’t do that at home.
Grateful for the nice meals out while here.
Grateful I get to go home and see my cats and dog :cry: I’m grateful it still hurts to write dog and not dogs :cry: I cannot remember last time we were a single dog family. I’m grateful for my Home Screen pic of Minnie. Sometimes it hurts. Sometimes it’s love. But all the time it’s beauty.

:pray:t2::heart:

“Without forgiveness life is governed by an endless cycle of resentment and retaliation.”
Roberto Assagioli

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I’m grateful to God for guiding me and helping me abstain from my addictions. I’m grateful for my family, friends, TS and the gratidudes. I’m grateful for kittens and that Peace talks when he eats. I’m grateful for the twelve steps. I’m grateful for prayer and meditation. I’m grateful that when I meditate now its harder to stay awake with this little angel purring on my leg, chest , shoulder, of foot. I’m grateful that my sponsee and I had a good chat yesterday and he threw out his paraphernalia. I’m grateful for the Thanksgiving lunch I just enjoyed with my fellow tenants and that a few of my friends from the rooms came in and prepared the meal. I’m grateful I will see my sister and parents for early dinner. I’m grateful I can share photos on this home thread and not have to search for a pet thread, I know they are there. I’m grateful for now this thread in conjunction with the rest of the things I do for my recovery is enough, sometimes maybe too much.



I’m grateful for music, humor, laughter and creativity. I’m grateful for the fun, creativity, joy and tears the communication between the dog girl and Peace brought me thanks M

God bless us all. :v: & :heart:

p.s. You are a miracle. Ya you!!

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I’m grateful for the way I am.
I don’t mean that in a selfish way, more in this way that I accepted who I am. And I like who and how I am. With all the good and the bad.
I’m grateful for my curiosity, the way I feel when I look at the stars, my humor, my optimism, my creativity.
I may not have the healthiest body but it’s still a fantastic vessel that lets me do what I have to do :heart:
Years ago I did hate myself. I thought that I earn everything bad that happens to me, that I’m a failure and that my family… everybody would be better without me.

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I am grateful you awoke today too.

Pretty happy I woke up too. Actually hubby woke me up as he slept late too.

Grateful day al good

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Morning gratitude.
I’m grateful @Dazercat 's post reminded me to work on forgiveness. I have heavy resentments on my ex and this fucking dry stone wall. This dammed wall got way more attention and time than we and me during at least the last 3 years of our relationship. Well, I have a lot to detach and forgive but atm I just want to cover the whole thing with concrete and thus finish it so there’s finally a driveway. Serenity and patience … Everything will work out as it is meant to be :pray:
I’m grateful I slept quite well and the cats were purring and cuddling on me. I’m grateful I calm myself from destructive thoughts, at least for now. Chewing on issues out of my control only hurts me and doesn’t change a iota. Besides that I get angry on myself. I’m grateful a hot cup of tea and a hot shower will help :pray: ODAAT

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This is a very interesting post. Lots to Google! Thanks

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Good morning sober fam,

Im so very greatful for…

My sobriety,
522 days free from weed and alcohol
65 days free from vaping
Got my ass up and to the gym
Kickass workout that burned 550cal
A workday
Payday tmrw
My homegroup ladies aa meeting tonight
Hubby said he’d cook us some steak for dinner tonight
Feeling better
My folks
My family
Get to celebrate hubbys birthday this weekend
Freedom
Autumn weather
Sunshine
Hope
Laughter
This amazing community that reminds me to be diligent

Much love my sober peeps

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