Mid morning gratitude.
I’m grateful I kept my gratitude to bullet points the last two days, I was tired but wanted to write it down. I’m grateful I have a rest now and I feel comfortable to catch up and express myself.
I’m grateful for solid sleep allthough the nightmares are haunting me every day. I’m grateful I went back to a morning routine where I get up right after the alarm and start doing. I’m grateful the cats are fine with getting their pets and snuggles later when I pause and rest. I’m grateful they settled in completely and feel very comfy. I’m grateful they find so much to play and watch. We love our farmhouse.
I’m grateful for fake it till you make it. Adulting can be sooooo boring and ennervating, I’m grateful that I chose procrastination fast for one of my Lent tasks this year. I already see little benefits and they motivate me to proceed every day. I’m grateful I don’t force myself, I only ask myself twice a day whether I am able to pick up one unloved task before I turn to whatever I’m fine doing it. As normally one turns into more this little steps add up and the pile of unloved work shrinks a tiny bit. I’m deeply grateful I encorporated the concept of babysteps over the last years, it’s so helpful for everything.
I’m grateful I’m still thinking about the schoolmate I mentioned, yesterday the report about the sentence of a similar case was in the newspaper. I’m grateful that I’m free and never killed anyone except moskitos, flies, wasps and critters like slugs. When people are full of desperation, frustration, anger, resentment, feeling being treated unfairly and drugs are involved it can be a deadly cocktail for the people they blame, regardless if there is really an issue, fault or even no connection. Being grateful definitely is a good concept to stay away from such a slippery slope of immagination running wild, frustration eating one up, wallowing in self-pity and resentments and blame others. I think gratitude also prevents us from accumulating too much bad (in any way, thoughts, habits, …) because gratitude and bad don’t go together.
I’m grateful that these events keep me thinking about the good in life and how fragile it is. About what distinguishes me from this offenders, especially the schoolmate. I’m grateful I still can chew on practical and philosophical questions at the same time.
I’m grateful for the waste app telling me monday is trash pickup at my late mum’s house. Time to fill the trashbin again. Another unloved task I will do and be grateful for proceeding.
I’m grateful the farmhouse stays warm for a couple of days without heating. I’m waiting for the chimney sweeper and hope I didn’t miss him. Neighbour told me at their’s he was at 6.30 a.m. Boy, then I was still asleep 
I’m grateful I’ll take the rest of the day easy, I’ve been diligent from 7 to 10, now I’m tired.
ODAAT
seriously? Never thought it was a thing. I’m grateful my agent has a great fireplace and chimney guy to do the minor repairs I need done. I’m grateful this is going to happen. I’m grateful that even though there are a lot of repairs or more like replacements on some original equipment of a 20 year old home, I can deal with it.
But seriously. This is it!
