Today I’m grateful I listenened to my needs and drove straight home after therapy. No to dos, no errands, only home. I’m grateful I know that emotional turmoil, feeling lost & needy, missing a partner to share daily life and intimacy coupled with having biiiiig resentments towards my ex shall pass. Like everything this too shall pass.
I’m grateful for HALT. It turned out lot of this rollercoaster was fired by Hungry, Lonely and Tired. Made lunch, brushed the cats and rested on the couch for the rest of the day. It’s ok to put life on pause when it’s overwhelming. Today I felt weak and vulnerable. I’m grateful I took good care of myself and was kind.
I’m grateful I mounted the cat-net yesterday. Handling the seedlings on the balcony is way easier when I don’t have to always have one eye on the old boy.
I’m grateful I will throw away the book I read in the afternoon. Too much Jesus awakened me blabla for me. Spiritual and religious practice can be very helpful, ok, but I have no nerve for books lacking a glory halleluja from saul to paul disclaimer. Icing on the cake: The book was boooooring. I’m grateful that I grabbed the one book from my reading pile, that perfectly met my mäh mood today. Throwing it away will make me happy. Tomorrow. Already put it next to the door. Maybe even take it to the furnace and use it to make fire.
I’m grateful I’ll be to bed soon and hope for restful sleep. Last night was mäh. Weird dreams, had to go pee 3 times, didn’t fall asleep again for quite a while. Maybe it’s the full moon that makes my subconscious vomit again. I’m grateful it’s ok to have mäh days. I’m grateful besides feeling mäh my life is wonderful. I’m grateful for friends and chosen family, own & neighbours’ cats, comfy houses, reliable car, mostly organized household, seedlings, joy, peace, freedom, rest, homecooked meals, modern amenities, connection, courage, kindness, forgiveness, calm, smiles, awareness, patience, did I mention cats?
I’m grateful I allow myself to just be. Being is enough. We are human beings, not human doings. ODAAT