Good morning to all you amazing sober people. It. It is Saturday morning and you get to be sober today!
We are the lucky ones.
I’m grateful to be sober and healthy.
I’m grateful for my cozy modest home.
I’m so grateful to be in my marriage with a man who is learning and growing and gaining peace in his sobriety next to me and with me and also all by ourselves as distinct individuals.
I’m grateful to have enough resources to care for myself and my family.
I’m grateful that my home is safe and loving.
I’m grateful for good healthcare and the time to address some issues.
I’m grateful for the beautiful weather we are having, a bit of cool in the summer is always a fun break.
I’m grateful that a friend of mine is letting me support her in her sobriety. It is so good for me to help others get their start.
I’m grateful to have time this summer to work on some things in myself. My mental health is on the mend, but man, sometimes I still wonder why I can’t calm the f*#¥ down! Oh wait, actually I do understand why, I just wish I could master the process!
I’m grateful that I am finding myself getting a little bit excited about the start of the new school year shortly! Woot! It’s coming! New students, next level of routines! It’s going to be another good year of work.
I’m grateful for the progress I am making on my personal journey to peace. Striking a balance between trying to resolve childhood trauma, living joyfully in the present, and loving the people in my life is…… hella work!! Hahaha!
Nevertheless I persist. Am I stubborn and controlling? Or persistent and determined? And how does that lead to peace? Is it peace I’m seeking or resignation? It’s hard to define. But I will know it when I feel it. Moments of it come to me now. Can it be tended and grown? This is my challenge…. To get to a real and authentic bit of peace.
In the meantime, I’m sending big love out to all of us on this journey. If you are first just starting out, please know the first days and weeks are usually the toughest. But you can do this thing called sobriety. If you are past the first parts and are trying to sort out all that you have learned and are actively building an amazing life in recovery, well I send you big love as well. I’m so grateful for all the resources and kindness that have been available to me. My hope is to be a tiny bit of light for others on the path. It brings me joy too.
Enjoy today. Work hard, play nice, and take good care of yourselves. You deserve to be safe and healthy.