And I may cry today…first time in over a year. It’s been hovering.
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Wishing you luck with finding a new home love – i know that can be super stressful. Hopefully something will pan out with work and home. I do also believe that things happen for a reason (the reason is not always known at the time and sometimes not ever). You are doing amazingly well with your 225 days.
I see you struggling to eat more again – is the stress causing this? Glad that you are managing to eat something. Don’t have to answer if you don’t want to.
Its ok to cry - it may actually be therapeutic. here if you need to talk things out or vent – you are not along 
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Stress is part - large part. Having no taste or smell definitely makes it quite a bit worse. If I wasn’t such a chewer, I’d drink supplement shakes. I probably should…
And I am not against crying, though for whatever reason, whatever happened to me in that accident (brain injury?) froze it. My kiddos and docs said I didn’t shed a tear for a month in the hospital - but I did tell people off.
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Things I am especially grateful for today.
I had a last morning today at my favourite place on earth. Chatted with family, ate great food from the garden, breathed the clean air. I’m immensly grateful such a place exists for me and I was able to go there this year.
A longer than expected train ride later I was back in the big city. I value the contrast of those two places. Here city life is at its summer height: skateboarding tournaments through the city, kids playing in water fountains, tourists everywhere.
I found a series of books about anime drawing and think the’lI be the perfect gift for my daughter.
My last evening here, I’m content and at ease.
Sleep tight sober friends 
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Saturday evening gratitude.
I’m grateful for some restful sleep allthough the rest of the night was crappy. Instead of getting up at 5 I slept in until 7. I’m grateful I got a lot of chores done in the morning. I’m grateful my multi-stop tour running errands was finished by noon. I’m grateful I am able to move in the heat a bit without nearly collapsing. I unloaded the car, put away the groceries, unpacked the new modem, stored the cans … I’m grateful I acclimatized to the summer heat and can do more than just survive as the next heatwave hit us today and will stay until mid next week.
I’m grateful for fresh veggies, a full fridge, a shower whenever I want, fresh cloths and modern amenities.
I’m grateful Missi needed her Mommy today, we had hours of cuddle time. I’m grateful she occupied my knitting box to sleep in it. I use old shoe boxes and have more than one 
I’m grateful knitting brought me peace of mind today.
I’m grateful I mounted the new trimmer cutter and it works. I’m grateful I used up a whole tank testing how it works and how to handle the trimmer.
I’m grateful for a relaxing evening with cats, snacks and crime series.
I’m grateful the grassland finally got mowed.
I’m grateful the little things in life make me happy and grateful. ODAAT
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Yeah that makes sense and is rough. Glad you are actively working on trying to eat or at least give your body it’s needed nutrition 
. Hope it gets easier for you. The shakes may be a good idea (maybe add a few nuts or banana chunks so you have something to chew:thinking:… This helped me when I had to start a liquid diet )
Sorry the tears are not coming. Glad you are starting to feel like you may be ready to cry again. Signs of healing.
Glad you were still able to express yourself 
Much love Jene 
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An easy day. Easiest in a while. I need a break
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air conditioning
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162 days sober
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lots of hope
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realizing that I am still in early sobriety and have to take things slower. If I want to stay sober.
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Being free of abusive people. I can choose better now, and will no longer tolerate any form of that sober…
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Sunday therapy session tomorrow morning. I need to keep working on trauma stuff. I feel better but I have a ways to go. Feeling better means you keep doing that thing. Same goes for sobriety. Feeling better tripped me up in the past but not this time
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Being ok with help. I don’t like to get help but this time I am getting help.
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For the little bit of patience I am learning. I was awfully uptight and impatient. In Before Times. Slowly I’m unwinding. It’s so strange. I no longer give a shit if people are mad or if they are rude or if they cut me off to get there first. Sick of this culture, everyone stepping on everyone. I’ll take my time and enjoy what’s left of my life.
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This wonderful app and all the good people here
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Grateful to be at work this morning feeling happy and enthusiastic.
Grateful for the reminder that some of my workmates gave me of how one functions after a night of drinking. A couple of them showed up quite hungover, and one didn’t show up at all.
Grateful that the workday is almost over and I’ll be home soon to see the family.
Grateful for having a gym to use at work. When I finish this post I’m going to try get a workout in.
Grateful for another day sober and hangover free
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I am grateful for the beautiful weather. I am grateful my work gives me the space I need to take care of my parents. I am grateful for the uncondional love and cuddles from my dog. I am grateful my son is safe and enjoying his travels.
Yesterday I met up with some friends in the city. I am grateful I resisted the craving for a glass of wine. The sunny weather can be triggering, but I checked off my list:
- What is the real reason I want alcohol?
9 out of 10 it’s social awkwardness. I am an introvert. I can always leave if I’m not feeling the vibe (and so I did after one hour). I used to numb myself with alcohol to shut off these feelings. - I say out loud I won’t drink today.
- I play the tape forward. I want to make a healthy dinner later. I want to wake up tomorrow without hanxiety, shame and disappointment.
- Drinking will make me want to smoke.
- I don’t want to throw away my 8+ months of sobriety.
- What is one glass going to do? It will never be ‘just one’. It’s not the glass of wine I want (it’s not that special), but it’s my brain craving the poison ethanol.
I’ve had a few cravings these last couple of months, but in stead of white knuckling my way through them I now pause, ask myself why I feel that way and what I need at that moment.
Playing the tape forward is also a very big help.
I am grateful to be sober and grateful for the insights. It does get easier over time.
Have a beautiful Sunday 
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Grateful to read you first this morning @Naomi 
the 8 months
I’m grateful to be listening to Guru Stotram in my catio after coffee and cats with a fire going this morning. I’m grateful for the Pacific coast chill in the morning and evenings. I’m grateful the sun is making an appearance. I’m grateful for my new little outdoor blue tooth speaker lamps.
I’m grateful for that first slug of coffee after I get situated after I get to do my little morning chores of feeding and taking care of the pets.
I’m grateful for a nice Gus afternoon evening yesterday. And he liked my cottage pie.
I’m grateful yesterday’s meeting was about perspective. Sometimes it’s healthy to change my perspective. Hell, more than sometimes I do believe.
I’m grateful for my 2 new house plants. And my outdoor plants I’ve accumulated and been taking care of.
I’m grateful no one is working in the house this week.
I’m grateful our best friends are coming for a visit Tuesday evening and staying a few days at Casa G. I love those guys.
I’m grateful for Om Shanti Om
I’m grateful for you all.
Do I argue, rage and weep to make my spouse behave in a way that I think will make me happier? Happiness isn’t won that way.
ODAAT In Al-Anon
“Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good.”
Romans
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I’m grateful for safe travels today. I’m grateful that I could see a good and kind doctor today who was helpful. I’m grateful that I could have a nice evening out for dinner with my friend in the city. I’m grateful that we had coffee and a nice dessert. I’m grateful for a hot shower it was so nice. I’m grateful my friend could travel with me and that we have a good place to stay while here. I’m grateful for the driver we had today we got picked up quickly (sometimes you’re standing there so long waiting to hitch a ride out) and am grateful he wasn’t a creep and also had other ladies in there traveling. I’m grateful for my neighbor who takes care of the dogs and horses while I’m away. I’m grateful that even though my wrist ended up being broken that it wasn’t a bad break and should heal up well. I’m grateful to be sober
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Yes I agree. I want my sixth month chip. I worked hard to get this far. I want to reward my personal very personal achievements! Sobriety is giving me strength and self esteem I cannot get anywhere else.
I am sure all here understands me!
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Grateful another sober day! Grateful I am finding strength from God to stay focused on what is important in life. The little annoying hiccups during the day are not worth losing my cool or serenity.
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I like the part about asking yourself what it is you need at that moment. The answer is never alcohol. This one truth keeps me sober. And a requisite part of it is not feeling shame about it if I have a craving. I don’t have to because the craving is a legitimate need…for something else! Somewhere along the way the wires got crossed. A lot of times it’s rest or people I need. Sometimes a plate of food. It’s legit and if I figure out what it is, the craving stops and I am stronger in my sobriety.
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Hi sober grateful people!
I’m grateful for a wonderful SMART meeting that started my day off right.
I’m grateful for farmers markets and the blackberries and raspberries that were huge and so sweet.
I’m grateful that my son has spent this past week with my Mom, and when I sent her a text thanking her for all she’s done for him, she replied “He’s mine, too you know”. So wonderful to know my kids are loved by my family.
Hope everyone has a wonderful sober start to your week. Stay strong, do what you need for yourself 
ODAAT
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I’m grateful for
The sunshine
Public transport from my village
My free exercise class
Being free of worry about lack of money this week
Having family to help me with food and sober activities
Having my sponsor
Having all of you
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I’m grateful for a good time visiting a friend and catching up. I’m grateful for coffee with cardomon and lemon scones😋 I’m grateful for my friend who understands my anxiety and strong dislike of cities. I’m grateful that we already found someone to hitch a ride home with tomorrow. I’m grateful that I’m learning to cope with my anxiety better and that I’ve not had bad cravings the past few days. I’m grateful to be sober.
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I’m grateful I woke up today.
I’m grateful for good black coffee.
I’m grateful I rescued 2 brother kitties almost 3 years ago, I love them and I love having them in my house.
I’m grateful I had an excellent dinner with my husband last night.
I’m grateful I chose to start recovering from addiction 2 and a half years ago. I’m grateful I’m still on that path.
I’m grateful it has taught me that I need to leave things that I can’t control alone. No word on the apartment yet.
I’m grateful I have a roof over my head today.
I’m grateful that anxious thoughts are just thoughts, they aren’t facts.
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I’m grateful I had a nice walk with Benson and a chat with a good friend.
I’m grateful I got a few minutes before therapy to be grateful.
I’m grateful our best friends are coming in town tomorrow evening.
I’m grateful I’ll be able to get my morning beach meeting in before they get here.
I’m grateful wifey and I enjoyed our long drive to the beach for dinner last night. I’m grateful we took the coastal route home.
I’m grateful for my health.
I’m grateful for my catio.
I’m grateful Benson is using his new catio bed.
I’m grateful for technology.
I’m grateful for Waze, even if it takes me on a long white knuckle canyon road that I hate to drive on to avoid traffic 
I’m grateful wifey daughter and grandson have a Monday play date at 9:45.
I’m grateful for my peace and quiet.
I’m grateful for my recovery and how far I’ve come and it’s never too late.
I’m grateful I have a wife to love
“Thou must learn to renounce thy own will in many things, if thou wilt keep peace and concord with others.”
Thomas A’Kempis
ODAAT In Al-Anon
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Nice post but you had me at Lemon Scones! . Reminder to self… get off your butt and make a sugar free baked good.
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