Today was a coming back home day. All the excitement of travels already receding. Doing all the boring daily life stuff. I am glad I can take my time to get back into normality again, glad I know the boredom and dissatisfaction is just a part of coming down from all the up and up of travels.
It was rather hot today. I am grateful our flat is in one of those old stone houses that don’t take to the heat too fast. The temperature here is still reasonable. I hope the night brings some cooler air.
My neighbours downstairs smoke some vile stuff. The smell drifts up into my flat. I am grateful I can take this with far more equanimity than I used in the past. I still can’t stand it. But I don’t get so riled up about it any more.
My ex visited today. I would have been our wedding anniversary today. We agreed to go to couples counseling. Maybe this will help us to communicate better, maybe we’ll learn better ways of interacting. I am grateful these opportunities exist. I am glad we actually do have the means to live apart. I am getting fond of my independence.
I didn’t make it to the dharma meeting I wanted to join today. But I am grateful to know tomorrow will be a meeting aswell. Grateful for the technology making it possible for me to connect in this way.
Monday gratitude.
I’m grateful I have medication at home, my old boy had another seizure and cramped heavily. He is resting now. My heart breakes facing there might not be much together time left. I won’t let him suffer when he doesn’t recover to his comfort level one day.
I miss my parents and my ex. I would be grateful for someone huging and holding me. I’m here for my old boy. I must be here for me too. I won’t allow myself to fall back into codependent patterns and turn to my ex for emotional support.
a) We don’t do that anymore
b) Why do you want to go to the hardware store for milk?
c) Go to bed. Tomorrow is another day.
d) Letting go is part of every life. Been there, done that. Enjoy the time left. It will be ok, there will be peace.
e) I am not alone
I’m grateful for crying. I’m grateful I’m a loving person. I’m grateful I notice some of the crying is about older losses. My old boy is the last one who loved and lived with my parents and my ex. When he is gone it’s only me left. I don’t know what I’m afraid of loosing but I definitely feel like I will loose a part of myself. Grieving in advance is horrible and I’ve been doing it all my life.
I’m grateful summer depression, heatwave and exhaution play a big role why I feel like this. It too shall pass. All of it. I’m grateful this mantra keeps my head up.
I’m grateful for the reasons why I am exhausted:
met the new real estate agent in the morning
went to IKEA for a storage rack and saw fika described in the food department
finding someone to finish the fucking dry stone wall is work in progress
having Schnauze voll and bringing the mulcher for repair. With the tractor. At 34 °C. Without A/C. That was a long drive forth and back.
A part I needed was in stock and this time I did not forget to buy it.
I’m grateful for a nap, showers, peppermint oil to ease the headache, food in the fridge, putting my needs first, insurance agent called and told me the new PC is covered by insurance.
I’m grateful the old boy ate, he is very hungry after a seizure. I’m grateful he joined me in bed. It’s a miracle that he is up and moving around 2 hours after those heavy cramps and being so desorientated. Astonishing every time anew. I will tell my nerves to relax too ODAAT
For batch cooking, saved my ass today.
Making do with what we have.
Resourcefulness.
Cold fridge water
Jalapeño ginger ale
That this heat might bugger off.
My clever boys staying as cool as they can like bosses
A breeze tonight
Episodes of Cobra Kai to see me past the torture of a 32 degree living room #teamJohnny
For five hours sleep last night
Coffee
Kindle time
Breathwork today
grateful for every “one day at a time reminder” and all the personal storys I read in this forum. Feels very connected and helps alot, at the bad days or moments.
I’m so sorry Tiglat is having such seizures. I’m glad you can be there for him and you have meds at home. It must be very scary to have to watch that. I’m sorry you guys are going through this. You’re a great cat mom and I’m sure the old boy appreciates all the love in your heart for him. I’m hoping maybe he just had a bad day.
Sobriety
AA Meeting
Bookkeeping work caught up.
Gym pool exercise
Healthy Food
Feeling Good & Happy
Fresh berries
Productive positive communication with spouse
Time moving at a doable pace
I am so grateful for all the connections today with YOU my friends.
@erntedank I’m so sorry about Old Boy. Big virtual hugs. I hope you can love and live in the good moments and try not to grieve in advance too much!
I’m grateful that my son is home safely from his road trip. He got a whopping speeding ticket on his way home. I am grateful that he is learning a hard lesson.
I’m grateful that the weather has cooled down a bit. It’s only going to be around 90 for the next several days, I know it makes it easier for the firefighters out here.
Grateful for frozen yogurt and a nice sing along in the car with my daughter on the way there.
Idiopathic epilepsy in old cats is not for sissies. I hoped it would be a single occurence 2 months ago and I’m grateful I prepared for not. I will watch the time periods inbetween, the 2nd and 3rd were only 8 days apart. Maybe the heat is a trigger. I’m grateful this is the last heatwave for this summer.
I’m grateful I really do try to enjoy this lazy, burning hot summer days. I’m deeply grateful looking forward to normal temperatures and the days getting already remarkably shorter makes it possible that I enjoy summer mid august. And of course I’m grateful for my house that stays at 24/25 °C and showers galore. It makes being outside bearable and coming back inside joyous.
I’m grateful for the luxury that I could spend the cooler morning hours from before dawn until now puttering around the house, trying to see falling stars from the Perseid meteor shower (will try again ), drink tea, read, cuddle with the old boy, play with the juniors, do my stretching excercises. I love being up early
It’s 7 a.m. and time to close the windows and shut down the blinds on the east and south side.
Have a calm, peaceful and lovely day dear fellow sober gratipeople
A cooler day so far, thankfully. Only 27/28 today
A great spin class, banging tunes
A Drs appointment today for my foot pain.
Coffee
Leftover bits in the fridge that somehow made a nice meal.
Feeling strong
Water
Safety
Optimism.
Healing
Returning confidence
Six hours sleep despite the horrendous heat
Ability to have a refreshing shower
My gorgeous boys, I love it when Bluey wants cuddles… It’s far more intense but rare than Bear’s love of cuddles.
I’m grateful I’m up early enough to get to my AA meeting at the beach. I’m grateful it’s a beautiful 45 minute drive.
I’m grateful I’m looking forward to the meeting but still a little anxious. I guess that’s normal. Especially in a new town where I don’t know anyone. I’m grateful being in a new state or town and not knowing anyone can also work to my advantage.
I’m grateful for catio coffee mantra mornings.
I’m grateful my friends will be here this evening.
I’m grateful for my wife and daughter and son and DIL and SIL and granddaughter and grandson. I’m grateful I’m so blessed to have this gorgeous family. I’m grateful I live near half of them now. I’m grateful god willing the other half may move here too. I’m grateful I have no control over that. Or much else for that matter. Ang for that I’m learning to be grateful
I’m grateful for my catio fireplace.
I’m grateful I get the pleasure of Benson, Alice, Maverick, Beatrix, and Daisy. What a treasure to get to have gods beautiful little creatures bless me with their mere presence.
I’m grateful for the humming bird that stopped by to check us out this morning. I’m grateful she didn’t get in the house through the open door.
I’m grateful for my plants and garden and the guys that work so hard maintaining it once a week.
Grateful for gratitude.
“The function of prayer is not to influence God, but rather to change the nature of the one who prays.”
Soren Kierkegaard
I started a running gratitude list. Every morning, I write in the notes section of my mood and wellness app one thing I’m grateful for and one goal for the day. It helps me start each day with what I call the 3 P’s: presense, positivity, and productiveness. It kicks off each day on a positive note and helps me stay motivated to make the day productive in at least a small way; in turn, this keeps me more present in my life. I try to come up with something new for the thing I’m grateful for each time, but there are some repeats. I listed coffee six different times in the last six weeks!
The other day, I started a journal entry that lists in order everything I’ve put down as something I’m grateful for. After a month and a half, the list is already long, and it’ll be incredibly satisfying to watch it grow longer every twenty-four hours.
Today, I went one step further in including gratitude in my life every day. I began amending every negative thought with something I’m grateful for that’s related to that thought. When I had to clean the bathroom, which I hate doing, I thought, I’m grateful I have a bathroom to clean. When I had to do the dishes, which I also hate doing, I thought, I’m grateful we have food to eat with which to dirty our dishes. When I remembered we only have the big giant mailers to use for mostly very small orders (I’m in shipping), which is incredibly annoying and feels like a waste, I thought, I’m grateful I have a job to complain about.
Too often, we spend our days bitching about what work makes us do or what we have to do to keep our house livable, when we should be reminding ourselves of how lucky we are to have a job and a home.
This doesn’t mean I’ll never complain again. That’s an unattainable goal. But if I can then find the positive that accompanies, if not replaces, the negative, it makes it feel a little less bad.
I’m grateful that we made it home safe today. I’m grateful for the happy greeting I got from my dogs- this is always the best part of coming home from a trip. I’m grateful that I’m managing my anxiety better these days even though sometimes its still high and overwhelming I am coping better and in healthier ways. I’m grateful to be sober. I’m grateful for a successful trip but am most happy to be home. I’m grateful that I feel hopeful and that I’ve been able to have a more positive outlook on things lately.
I am grateful I have a place to live, still no word about where that might be next month so I am grateful for today.
Kitties curled at the bottom of my bed.
Stacks of boxes remind me of the things I own and the hope I carry.
I’m grateful for work.
I’m grateful for my strong body.
ODAAT
