Good morning!
I slept in this Saturday morning to 5:30! My normal wake up is 4:00 and this time I was able to roll over and go back to sleep. I’m grateful to have had another good night of sleep.
I’m grateful to be sober. I’m so grateful every day that I made the change in my life and that I mostly have so much of my life in a good place.
I’m grateful to be sober because a clear mind with appropriate sleep and nutrition can handle a lot of work and a lot of life with patience and kindness. A hungover body and brain has so much going against it. So I am grateful for the work I do in my sobriety and recovery to take good care of myself.
I’m grateful to be sober so that I have the mindset and mindfulness to be able to make good decisions and continue the journey of finding my best self to share with the world.
I’m grateful to be sober and to be on this sober journey with my husband. Each of us has our own track, our own supports, and our own strategies. But doing this beside each other has brought us closer and made our marriage very special. We are able to be present for each other as we continue to process the meaning of our lives and what we want to get out of it in our remaining time together. To be in a sober marriage in which two people are truly working in themselves is a very special circumstance. This is a second marriage for both of us, and while we have always taken this seriously, it gets to an amazing level of emotional intimacy when we are working on our recovery in sobriety.
I am grateful for all the work that others have done in recovery knowledge and skills and the understanding of trauma in our lives. I benefit every day from learning and working on strategies based on the teaching of others. I’m grateful that I have been able to recognize when my mental health is at risk and have been able to access supports to get me through hard episodes.
I am grateful for the relationships I have with my adult sons. I am grateful that they allow me to be a loving mom of adults and that they are learning important lessons along the way. I am grateful to be able to keep working on being a good mom for them.
I am grateful for meaningful work in my life. I’m grateful that while it is demanding and rewarding, it is not emotionally dangerous or damaging. I’m embracing this stage of my career where I want to enjoy the routines of the school days and not be responsible for so many of the difficulties that school leaders face. It was a good decision 4 years ago to leave the principal role and return to the love and joy and organized chaos of the classroom. I am grateful that the little school I’m at recognized something in me and gave me this chapter of my life.
I’m grateful for my physical health. I escaped most of the physical damage that 30plus years of drinking can bring and with good nutrition, exercise, sleep, and a big reduction in stress, I am calmer and better than I have ever been in my life. I do not wake up sick and dehydrated every morning. I do not participate in the anxiety cycle that alcohol placed on me. I can work hard for long full days and maintain a sense of calm and kindness.
I’m grateful to have a safe and loving home and the resources to take care of myself and my family. It’s a small and humble bit of property and my car is old and dented, but I have what I need and I know that is an amazing thing in today’s world. I’m so grateful I jumped off the crazy carousel of trying to keep up with some unrealistic and unhealthy version of home. Being a wine lady just made me poorer and sloppier and full of angst. I’m so grateful that I was brought to the moment of despair that finally woke me up and shook me up and made me make a change.
I share all this to say that 1057 days of sobriety has undoubtedly improved my life. It has not been easy and it took a lot of energy to make the changes, but it is absolutely worth it and I share this to encourage you to keep going in your journey.
I wish you peace.