Gratitude for today.
I am grateful I went out for my run this morning, grateful I have established this routine and am holding on to it, even when I felt like crap this morning. It did not get significantly better while running, but it usually shows its effects later. Every run is an investment in my physical and mental health and I am very grateful I am capable to do those runs. I am grateful I am able to do something I would have thought eternally impossible half a year ago.
I am grateful my daughter‘s migraine developed in a way that made it possible for her to relax, read, do some chores around the flat and visit her grandma. She will be home soon, and I am very grateful I got some time for my self.
I am grateful for my work. So grateful I found this work of making video games. All the stuff I always enjoyed doing, that at the same time felt like a total waste of time, is now part of my work. I can research the craziest stuff, bring together ideas, histories, designs, colors, characters, mechanics and it feels like I am living the dream.
I am grateful for the teachings and practices of Buddhism, for mindfulness practices and compassion practices. There I have found a way of surviving and loving life. I am grateful for all the wonderful teachers. The well known ones like Tara Brach, Thich Nath Hanh, Pema Chödrön, but also the people who will help guide a meditation or make a track on Insight Timer.
I am grateful for coffee, for autumn weather, for rain and wind and sunshine, for getting stuff done and off my todo list.
I am grateful for books, TV and podcasts.
I am grateful this mess of my marriage is still a mess, but a living mess, a mess in transformation. No mud, no lotus. So to garbage and compost.
I am grateful for this life, for this day.
Sleep tight sober friends 