Daily Gratitude, The Air Of Recovery

[Dazercat]

I’m grateful I get to do 2 gratitude list this morning. I move the first one over here. Are you affected by a loved one who is an addict? - #550 by Dazercat I thought it would be more appropriate over here if anyone is interested.

I’m grateful for cool mountain air and rain, sleeping with the windows open. I’m grateful to get up at a reasonable time like 6. I’m grateful I had all 6 pets loving on me in the kitchen while I was making my coffee. They WERE loving on ME They weren’t hungry. But boy were they happy when I fed them. I’m grateful my pets all seem well. Especially the 16 year olds. I’m grateful for my hoodies and my woolen half gloves as it’s late August and I’m already cold up here. I’m grateful my maple tree is already starting to turn colors.

I’m grateful for all my blessings.

I’m grateful my wife and I felt very discombobulated when we arrived here. I’m grateful I felt borderline depression but reasoned it out and grateful I did a guided meditation on Insight Timer about depression. I’m grateful for all the sober sleep I got yesterday.

I’m grateful my wife and I enjoyed complaining together at the club restaurant about the food and the people around us and how strange and out of place we feel. We move so much we don’t know where we belong. I’m grateful for my adventurous life.

I’m grateful I realize I guess our summer is over. The great big things I been waiting for the Europe trip and my Granddaughter have come. And we moved out of Cali and into the desert. And I’m like. Now what? I’m grateful depression is not going to grab a hold of me. I’m grateful I can feel it. Sober. And it will come and go.

I’m grateful Minnie can sit outside up here and watch over her domain and I don’t have to worry about her frying to death in the heat. I’m grateful she’s seems so happy back on her deck in the woods.

I’m grateful my wife and I had a nice dinner out. Of course out. I’m grateful she did all her cat chores and I did all my dog chores. And I happily clean her mess in the kitchen. Because I wanted a clean kitchen in the morning.
I’m grateful she passed out on the couch so I could watch The Bear. I love that show. Thanks Callie. She doesn’t like it. I’m grateful I had the whole bed to myself. Except for Benson and Maverick and Daisy. I’m grateful my resentment meter is pretty dang low this morning.
I’m grateful for my view of the ponderosa pines.
I’m grateful for all my many blessings.
Especially Norma.
I’m grateful for y’all.

I’m grateful I’m learning
I cannot live in the wreckage of the future.

[Emwhit15]

Day 2

Grateful for beautiful weather, my chickens laying fresh eggs, my dogs, and my home.

I am grateful and proud that I have seen my issue with alcohol and want to stay sober permanently this time around.

I am grateful for this community. I am grateful for the air in my lungs and an opportunity to make myself better.

[Dazercat]

Welcome Emily. Congratulations on day 2. I’m happy you found us.

[desert_rose]

I’m grateful I feel like crying.

It’s strange, but it was the first thought I had when I opened the app.

I’m scared of the next few months. Of the potential to uproot the family. Of maybe changing jobs. Or having no jobs. Of having to be strong, and make sure everyone is happy, because I’ve done it all before. (Sounds familiar, @anon74766472 ?)

I’m grateful I feel like crying.

I also got scared because I was just standing in the parking lot, talking to a colleague, and a car backed into me, almost hit me. It really shook me.

I’m grateful I feel like crying.

Because this is a normal reaction. And it is ok.

I’m grateful I didn’t immediately think “I need a drink” to numb these feelings.

I’m grateful I feel like crying.

I’m grateful I feel.

The good and the bad. Cannot numb just the bad and stay with the good.

Much love to you all

[Dakotahjae]

GRATEFUL for the challenges that I’ve welcomed into my life with open arms. GRATEFUL that I’m excited for the refiners fire. GRATEFUL for these exciting & nerve-wracking changes that will take out what’s not serving me and hurl me into places and spaces I’m meant to be in. GRATEFUL to have intentionally set out on this journey and kept aware so that the startling and stark news that is being brought to me already only seems like progress and that it’s already working. GRATEFUL for the metaphysical that God has given us and that I’m aware of its awesome power at this stage in my life. GRATEFUL to be utilizing it, harnessing it, and GRATEFUL that I’m super charging my recovery. GRATEFUL that I’m up to the challenge! GRATEFUL for the visible and tangible growth of my relationship with my youngest over just this short weekend.
GRATEFUL to be grateful to be uncomfortable, because I now know that growth and transformation comes from uncomfortable places.
Grateful for my recovery. So, so, grateful for a second chance at life.

[Dakotahjae]

Man I’m so grateful to be part of this thread.

[maxwell]

I’m grateful I’m on day 9. I’m grateful I didn’t even think of drinking today.

I’m grateful for my job and even though my boss seems to send me a ton of questions when I’m off for a couple days, I’m grateful for him.

I’m grateful I’ve decided instead of always having a To Do list, I’m going to write what I have done for the day, and just do my best.

I’m grateful for Max and Riley, but I’m concerned about my girl. I’ve made an appointment for her and I’m praying she’s okay. I have to wait 12 days.

I’m sad tonight, but having Max and Riley laying next to me helps.

I’m grateful I have somewhere to go and share my feelings.

I’m grateful for all of you.

[Shaunda]

I’m grateful Maxine is here and sharing about your sadness. I truly am. My heart is with you tonight.

I’m grateful I meet with my sponsor tomorrow and will complete my 5th step. We had to cancel last weeks meeting due to illness in my house. I think prolonging doing my 5th has added to my funky feelings about sobriety. It will pass.

I’m grateful for both meetings I was able to attend today and that my daughter went to 1 with me.

I’m grateful for the teen group she and I also went to tonight.

I’m grateful my husband cleaned out our closet and I now have room to hang some clothes also lol

I’ve found gratitude for dixie, the invading pregnant squirrel. She is so cantankerous. I wasn’t sure i would like her since she seems to have run my beloved rocky off but… she is wildly entertaining and definitely down for holding her ground.

I’m grateful for all my new to me clothes my co worker gave me. I legit had so few clothes. I cant say how grateful I am to have clothes that fit and look nice on me. I couldn’t afford to buy new clothes after my weight loss.

[anon74766472]

I am grateful to be sober.
I am grateful I don’t have to work atm.
I am a bit lost with the free time. I need structure. I am grateful for the challenge.
I am grateful for the cool nights and mornings now. I don’t need to rush before the heat gets unbearable.

I am still tired and sleepless but it’s getting better. Well, at least I hope so. Day 4.

[PinkyP]

Morning,
I’m grateful to have fields behind my house where I can walk my dog first thing. I took my tea and enjoyed the quiet. There was a big patch of mist that looked pretty cool.
I’m grateful my friend asked me to go on a mini break with her. Not sure when or where but nice to be asked. Better start saving, these things cost a fortune now!
I’m grateful to enjoy my granola and tea (not together!) watching the window feeder birds. Mostly blue tits and nuthatches.
I’m grateful to be in a good mood this morning, full of positivity. Maybe it was the dog walk, maybe the tea. Probably a mixture of everything, a good sleep, an ok day ahead, evening meal already made.
See you later

[DHkid71]

Me too! Every morning

[DHkid71]

I am here and i am sober one more day! I get the opportunity to do things like this!

[Cjp]

Good morning.

Im forcing gratitude today and hoping it puts me in a better headspace.

Im greatful for,

Not drinking yesterday
No hangover
My sobriety, day 114 free from weed and alcohol
AA fellowship
Tears
Progress not perfection
Hubby and Boscoe
Having enough
Basic needs met
Running water
Air conditioning
A new day

Let us go out and slay the day soberly.

[Dakotahjae]

Grateful for a gratitude list that I’m going to assume will help put things in perspective this morning. Gratitude is not flowing yet.

Grateful for my recovery. Grateful for the progress I’ve made, grateful that I know these circumstances are forcing growth. Grateful I can see that this clean and sober living (just the housing situation, not the lifestyle!) is temporary.
Grateful that my fiance is on his last week in inpatient and I’ll get my best friend back in person! Grateful for all the very cool things that I can feel right around the corner.
Grateful for the immediate reminder to surrender.
I’m not driving this bus, I’m just a passenger. My higher power has got the wheel so it don’t make no sense to run up to the front of the bus panicking right now. Grateful for that visual, to just sit back and enjoy the ride. Trust the driver!

TRUST THE DRIVER!

Grateful I gave myself an extra half hour this morning for gratitude meditation and that #1 I did not push the snooze button and #2 I’m using it wisely, I knew I would need it .

Grateful to be able to try to open my mind to the possibilities that I don’t know best, that maybe I will be grateful Im getting a new roommate today, even though it’s out of order and I am definitely the last in line at the house to be getting a roomate, grateful that I can AT LEAST try to think that I might truly be grateful at some point. Again, lol, omg I’m going to have to say this all day, “TRUST THE DRIVER!!”
Grateful that I’m not bulldozing myself into ignoring my actual feelings on the subject, but grateful for the options that my recovery is allowing me to have. In active addiction my options and ability to make choices are so wildly diminished.
Grateful that I finished step one yesterday. Grateful for the little advance and to move on to step 2 today. Grateful I made it back last night from taking my daughter back to my parents to make it in time for IOP. Grateful I’ve stayed in compliance even though the dire consequences are now gone if I don’t. Grateful for the intrinsic motivators that keep me going. Grateful that I am looking to and know I will graduate IOP. When I first entered recovery I was surprised when I first met someone who was graduating. I really didn’t know that was something people actually did. Grateful for that shift in my vision and place in my recovery that I’m knowing and seeing people who are accomplishing things they start. Grateful that pretty soon that will be me.
Grateful for my employment, that takes me out of this squirrely place I get after a 3 day weekend, grateful it will take me out into the world and OUT OF MY HEADSPACE! Grateful for the therapeutic and cathartic power of cleaning and the satisfaction and exhaustion it brings me. No joke. Grateful that when I’m done with a day of work I have zero energy for that bullshit emotion we call anxiety.
I am grateful that even though I am not yet to a place where I’m grateful I have to share my personal space with a stranger (roommate) I went ahead and left a welcome card for her. Grateful that in the midst of my angst and worry about getting a roomate like the last one I tried to treat her as I would want to be treated, and that I’ve set out to create positive energy in every way possible. Grateful to have realized that any possible negative energy will be countered and won over by the positive and high vibrations I have intentionally set out to create in my room.

Very grateful to end this gratitude list on my 159th day consecutive clean day with a win, with a much brighter outlook on the day and the reminder to SURRENDER! TRUST THE DRIVER!
Let’s kill it today.

[Dazercat]

I’m grateful for so much this morning
I’m grateful I did a check in last night before bed and mentioned I was depressed but I’m not drinking. I’m grateful to share my pain to help reduce my pain. And it did. And I’m grateful I did a bed time meditation about letting go.

I’m grateful Maverick gently woke me up with his paws on my face and I didn’t get shredded. I’m grateful for the sense of knowing if his claws are out I’m toast and to lie there cautiously and let him pet my face without scratching me is indescribable apparently.

I’m grateful I see my Twins avatar. Good morning By the way I’m ready for a new avatar

I’m grateful I woke up with one of my recovery songs in my head “Decide To Be Happy.” Now that’s an ear worm I can live with.

I’m grateful I didn’t trip and fall and kill myself walking to the kitchen with 6 pets bashing around me doing their thing. I’m grateful I didn’t step on any of them. I’m grateful for my pet entourage. I’m grateful I get to see Minnie wake up with a big old girl stretch. I’m grateful I say good morning to each of them.

I’m grateful I took my pixie outside and already had a major cry this morning. I’m grateful I guess that’s how I decided to be happy. I’m grateful I thought of Rain Drops on Roses and Whiskers on Kittens and balled as I thought of my mom, she was a music teacher. And Dad and sister. The 3 dead ones I was never sober for.

I’m grateful I thought I’ve been affected by loved ones, myself included, who are addicts all my life in one way or another. At home and in the work place. My recovery, codependency, is going to take time. And that’s ok. I’m grateful I think maybe it’s all being shoved on to my wife the only person I have in my life. And that sure as shit ain’t fair. I’m grateful I’ve had all these heavy thoughts and revelations and smiles and tears before I even got my coffee in.

I’m grateful one of my readings ask if I was wearing my martyr face. Fuck me! I wore it all day yesterday. I just couldn’t get it off I guess.

I’m grateful for this prayer I read from Todays Hope
Daily reflection.
Perfection and grace
Lord, help me to hold myself and others to a standard of grace, rather than perfection.
— Prayer
I’m grateful, I reckon the battle of my perfectionism will never be over. It’s so hard sometimes. Why can’t everyone be perfect like me? It would make my life easier

I’m grateful I smiled and was happy to see wifey this morning and we shared dream stories. Mine are always brief I can’t remember shit. But I was drinking a green beer Hers are a fantasy of chaos and confusion and she tells them in detail. I was drinking scotch in her dream I’m grateful for my sober deep forgetful dream like sleep.

I’m grateful it’s not even 7:30 and I’m emotionally drained and exhausted.
I’m grateful I got my Pilates trainer today and tomorrow afternoon.
I’m grateful I got my Al-Anon meeting tonight.
I’m grateful to share, apparently, ALL MY SHIT here with you all if you’re willing to read it.
I’m grateful for Sober Time and the Talking Sober Forum. It’s magical. And it works if you work it and you’re worth it. I’m grateful I know I am

Music, it saved me
But it drives me crazy
'Cause it forces my eyes, to take a look and see
Got to decide to be happy
‘Cause it don’t always come naturally
Been feelin’ like a stranger in my body
I haven’t been myself in a while, I’m sorry (I’m sorry)
Got to decide to be happy (happy)
'Cause it don’t always come naturally
'Cause flowers, don’t grow without the rain
And goodness, don’t grow without the pain
Flowers, don’t grow without the rain
Goodness, don’t grow without the pain
Decide To Be Happy
Song by MisterWives

[Its_me_Stella]

Good morning.

I am grateful that I was up in time to watch the sunrise this morning, still grateful even though I didn’t make it out my door and I missed a beauty. I now know where my to-go coffee mug is and I am hopeful I will catch tomorrow’s.

I am grateful for the meditations I have been reading and listening to over the last week or so and for the place I am in my step work. It seems all the meditations have been focused around resentments and step 5. My step work ( Inner Bonding Steps) is in a very heavy area around pinpointing false beliefs. And my mom, well she has just started a fresh cycle in her ED of extreme restriction.

I am grateful that my dad feels he can come and talk to me about the insanity of my moms behaviour. I am sad that he has no idea how it affects me even after I have told him many times. I am grateful that I can cry today. I am grateful that even when I feel so alone fighting wars within myself I know that I am not alone anymore. I have all of you. I am grateful to be of sound mind today and see my parents behaviour for what it has always been so that I can understand myself on a much deeper level.

I am grateful that I don’t have to have resentments today, that I can look past the resentment and see what is really causing it… feelings of being unseen, alone, hurt, unheard, unloved. It feels good to be able to feel those softer emotions today instead of being stuck in the energy sucking darkness of resentment that makes me feel sick inside.

Feel and release your resentment.
Feel the feelings underneath it too.
You’ll become clear. The resentment
will dissolve. And you’ll return to love.

I am grateful for all of the congrats I received yesterday when I celebrated 16 months free from self injury. My recovery from self injury has been a journey just like everything else. I have been to lots of therapy to learn how to live with my very sensitive nature. While I was growing up my parents told me that my feelings were too big, that I was a good actress so I quickly started internalizing them. Being so sensitive and absorbing everyone else’s feelings too, I became like a pressure cooker and found ways to release that…all of them involved hurting myself. I am grateful that I had many years of remission from self injuring during my 20’s and 30’s. I am grateful that this behaviour came back with vengeance in my 40’s because I honestly believe it is the reason I am still alive. I am grateful that over the last 5 years I have only injured myself twice. I am grateful for my scars.

I am grateful I get to choose a new avatar for my Twinnie… or maybe not but I will send him a cool one anyways.

[JasonFisher]

700 days!! Congrats!! Awesome number!

[Peace]

I am grateful to be sober although I am frustrated that I still haven’t reached the amount of days of continuous sobriety that I would like despite trying various methods. Odaat.

I am grateful that I never quit quitting.

I am grateful that I am about to get a quick 3 mile walk in as my brain and body really need the boost. Frustrated I haven’t been good with this lately and it is showing in my mood.

I am grateful that eventhough I am feeling frustrated with myself today, tomorrow is a new day.

I am grateful to be here with everyone.

[Shaunda]

Congratulations on 700 days!!! Very inspiring and so proud of you!

Thank you for all the encouragement also.

[Shaunda]

@Its_me_Stella

I am grateful that I don’t have to have resentments today, that I can look past the resentment and see what is really causing it… feelings of being unseen, alone, hurt, unheard, unloved.

I am not eloquent with words so I am grateful when others are and seem to write out how I feel.

I am working on this and you wrote it beautifully.