I LOVE THIS THREAD
Never could I ever have imagined I’d find such an amazing source of strenght, support and empathy in an online forum, with people I’ve never met and live all over the globe.
I’m so grateful for TS. I truly believe it’s been one of the key elements that is making my sobriety work this time around. This thread in particular, because it keeps me accountable and forces me to think hard about my perspective on things.
I’m grateful to you all, the source of support in recovery I have access to and rely on greatly.
I’m not grateful I’m painfully shy, and feel like it takes ages for me to speak to or connect with anyone, in a way that seems so easy for everyone else. I feel stupid that I panic to simply ask someone to join them for lunch at the canteen (it’s a rare occasion when that happens). You’d think I’m still 11 years old, and not more than 4 times that age. This is just to say that if I don’t communicate as often and freely as others do, it is simply the way I’m wired. I don’t like it. But it’s how I’m built.
But I AM grateful I learn every day to live with this shyness and introversion. I’m effective at work in spite if it. I’m functional in social occasions in spite of it.
Alcohol was a crutch to overcome shyness in social occasions. I’m grateful I’m learning thaf it’s ok to be uncomfortable. It’s normal. Losing my natural inhibition with alcohol is not a good thing. It also makes me lose perspective, common sense, and good judgement. I’m grateful I see that now.
I’m grateful sometimes I push myself to do/say something to demonstrate to people I’m not so close to that I care about them/think they are amazing. So here it goes.I was away for a bit and not sure of the moderation rules that apply - so I’ll keep it short.
So I’m grateful today to observe all the love, care and dedication you show each other - and me.
I love you all.
Grateful for you. Grateful I’m here. Grateful you post when you’re happy and when you are not. You are an amazing group of human beings and I don’t think I’d have made this far without you. @JasonFisher @Butterflymoonwoman @Dazercat @I.cant.We.can @maxwell @Cjp @Shaunda @anon74766472 @M-be-free49 @Bluekoolaid and all of you who post, respond, pour your hearts here, just know I look forward to opening this thread every day. It means a lot to me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
PS: @Dazercat I’m rubbish when it comes to memes, but here it goes…