Day 1 and scared, sad, depressed, and hopeless

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I read a post by Soli that might make sense to you right now.

Checking in daily to maintain focus #75

I spent a big chunk of my life wishing I was dead, since I was 10. I’m 32 now. I then came to a realization. One day I asked myself what death meant to me. What did I find appealing in the idea of not existing. What does death represent? What did it release me from? And I meant to be real specific. It’s a life or death question after all. It represented to me peace, calm, rest, and forgiveness since life was punishment so to die would be a cessation of the punishment: forgiveness. I then decide…