Yes, totallyš.
Shair podcast
Addiction unlimited
Recovery elevator
3 of my favorites
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Awesome! Thank you 
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This sounds so similar to me. I have a good life except drinking makes me feel awful and I donāt want to ruin what Iāve got. I need to get this under control. 2 days sober
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You can do it! Iām at day 5 todayā¦
I am on day 5 for the second time. I relapsed bad last week. I have also done the same thing. Drunk driving, I think that is what is walking me up. I canāt afford to get in trouble or lose my job or lose my freedom again. Youāre in the right place! Something I have been learning and practicing is I canāt change what happened or what I did but I can move ahead and literally has been one day at a time. As the time goes on my mental clarity gets better. Start with small goals to not overwhelm you with the end goal/big picture. You can absolutely do this! I think the first 3 days were the toughest for me. Now I am trying to find alternatives to going out, mock tails, setting myself up for success when I know there may be a challenge in my week. So many tools! Feel free to reach out any time! I try to keep posting check ins here for myself too.
You can do this
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The realization that a lot of your trauma comes from your relationship with your mom I can relate to 100% percent. At a young age I had to fend for myself. My mom was a young mom and she has always wanted to live her life. She herself hasnāt had a good relationship with alcoholism. In my early teens I was very close to my church and that gave me a lot of hope for the future and a different lifestyle for myself. However in time I was derailed from my faith and havenāt been able to really get back myself into church. My faith has not waver but I donāt have a home church or a pastor I can talk to. I began drinking at the age of 15 and it only progressed as years passed. I am now the mother of 2 and I can easily say I been self medicating to not deal with my childhood traumas. I am currently on day 8 and reading through your story makes me realize how many of us arenāt alone on the journey of sobriety coupled with healing childhood traumas. Thanks for sharing.
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Thank you for sharing your story here too you are not alone. We are not alone. Childhood trauma effects so many of us and not everyone is able to become aware of it and work on healing it. I know every aspect of my life has been impacted by this. I donāt regret. I donāt have remorse or (trying not to harbor hatred) anymore. Everything I have gone through has shaped me and development me to the strong woman I am today. Some days suck and others I am a complete beast mode warrior bad ass lol. Iām happy youāre here and we can work together. Ironically enough I found my church through my ex (the only positive thing to come out of that 
) and Ive managed to stay connected. They stream online if you ever want to check it out! I know its not a physical person or church family but the messages have been life changing for me. Let me know if youāre interested and I can send you a link in private message.
Stay in touch! We can do hard things and we have survived every hard day and dark time. We are fighters and survivors
Warriors and survivors for sure! Like you said it taught us to be strong and I am thankful for that. Will apply that same strength to this journeys as well. Hope your doing better today 
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Today was a little better. Work has been a bit of a struggle with some tension and Iām questioning a lot right now. If Iām in the right place or not. I feel like a large fish in a little pond! But I think it means I need to get connect to some more people who can guide me in to another career path or direction based on my strengths. I am trying to not let my emotions get the best of me. I have definitely wanted to drink and try and rationalize it and say itās only one and Iām under a lot of stress. But I can not fuck up anymore. Way too much is at stake. I definitely need to journal some stuff. I also downloaded a new book to read so Iām hoping to use that for self-care and I signed up for a reiki yin yoga class Sunday before my wild trainings start.
How are you doing mighty warrior?
Hey girl,
My day has been smooth. Kept busy at work.
Sorry you are going through a hard time at work. I experience some issues in that department late last year and early on this year as well. Things will get better. You know something I did today to keep building upon this journey was to look into some positive talk and sobriety podcast. I feel that the more tools of others experiences and advice in this road the better it will be for me. Maybe thatās something that can be helpful for you too. If you donāt mind me asking what is it about your job that just isnāt fitting for you at the moment?
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I definitely want to check out some podcasts I just not sure when Iād be able to listen unless I was on a walk or long car ride.
There were some staff trash talking about me. They didnāt understand that I take initiative and I want to build and e successful in my career. I think they are intimidated. We have different approaches and styles of how we work which is fine but they are very cliquey and closed minded. I want to change things for the better and they are set in their ways. It actually triggered a lot in me from what I dealt with as a kid. I was rarely included and felt left out a lot. I also feel like a big fish in a small pond. I need to seek out a mentor.
Iām happy your building your tool box too! It feels good. I had my church support group tonight and it was awesome. I feel a little more connected.
Wow. It is so apparent what happens when I get disconnected and stop doing the work. I have had countless distractions, my own fault. Iām back at square one. Been drinking almost every day last week and making plenty of other bad decisions. I am a little worried about this long holiday weekend coming up. I have work Saturday night, which I am realizing that I am not sure I can continue to bartend and stay sober. I also am afraid of being triggered by my emotions. July 5th was the date I found out my ex was cheating on me. Itās hard for me to not get triggered and relive some of those awful moments. I feel like a failure. I have zero self discipline. I am also incredibly ashamed of what i am doing to my body with all of the weight i have gained 
. I know what I have to do and I hate that itās so hard for me to just do it. Just be sober.
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Its not an easy fight but its worth it
Thatās part of my frustration. I know itās worth it. I have a massive list of why drinking is bad for me and I still give inā¦I havenāt been as bad as before but I know itās coming if I donāt cut it out now.
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Havenāt been sober for two weeks. Ever since my training. Itās been terrible. Iāve been terrible. Resetting my clock again tomorrow morning. Spent all day hungover as shit. Called out of work on an extremely important day. I am not happy with myself.
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Katie why not reset it now. Iām not sure what time it is where youāre at but any day is a good day to start.
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I havenāt drank today. I just feel like resetting it tomorrow will be a clean slate fresh start since I was hungover today.
The fact that you didnāt drink today already counts even if you are dealing with a hangover. Use the journal on here so you can go back to your first day whenever you feel like your close to picking up. That helps.
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I was journaling ever day on here for a while. I need a complete redo and get my shit back together. In every aspect of my life right now
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You will I know you can 
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