Thank you 
how is your journey going?
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It’s going good. I’ve dug myself into fitness. I have always been into the gym but never gave it priority. This time I am. Feels good to be doing good things for your health. Been listening to podcast something I didn’t do before. Weekends my little demon tries to talk to me but I’ve kept busy and trotting along.
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That’s great!
I wish I had a passion for the gym. I know it would help with a lot of things. I can totally relate to the downtime and weekends being a time of temptation. I actually have this weekend off and I’m finally taking my kayak out 
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That’s amazing! I hope you have a great time.
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Just sold my 2 person Dagger kayak- it used to bring me such fun, living right on a big lake, paddling out on the 4th of July to watch the town’s big fireworks. Stuff’s changed, no one to paddle the front anymore but I’m very happy you can go out and experience the peace, and sometimes big wakes from the 25ft boats that make it all interesting. Have a peaceful night? Thank you. Kenny
Relapse last weekend , shit Spiraled out of control to saturday. My mental health is completely in the toilet . I haven’t been sleeping well at all. I fell asleep and couldn’t wake up to get my son from daycare. Guys this is very scary. Things are starting to affect other areas of my life. I don’t understand how I can go months without drinking and then all of a sudden if I’m binge drinking and acting a fool of myself. My days have been a big blur. I’m at my parents place because I do want to be alone.
I haven’t been feeling like myself for the past few months. I feel burnt out. My emotions have been all over the place. I’m constantly crying and have negative thoughts. I feel like no one cares or love me. I’m battling writhing myself because I know it’s not true. I lost a lot of weight because I do not have an appetite. Things with the child’s father have been very stressful. He’s Is not here when he needs to. I’ve been taking care of our child all alone. I feel like I don’t have a life. He should be seeing him every other weekend and since the weather has been nice he’s missing his visitation. I had plans for my son and I this summer. Now I’m feeling extremely defeated. I have anxiety every day. I beat myself about everything that goes wrong. My parents don’t fully understand what’s going on. They wante to do AA meetings and medication for depression.
I not a fan of medication so I’ve been stressing about it. I also don’t want to become addicted to them. I just feel like my life is a complete shit show and I don’t know how and when I’ll bounce back from this.
I want to packup and run! Im at a all time low 
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Hi,
Things sound very tough and serious.
To me it sounds like professional help may be needed. I’m glad you are with your parents and I hope that you are able to get the right help.
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It’s hard but you can do it! I’m on day 12 after my 6000th relapse on alcohol. They say the first step is admitting it and realizing you need to stop. Your body gives you signs also. Not feeling like shiznit is the best part! And waking up and not having your friends and family tell you what stupid things you said and did that were not acceptable to sober ppl lol. For me it’s what has kept me sober for al.ost two weeks after relapsing once after 4 months. The cravings are the worst! But I wish you the best and I get on here from time to time especially days I feel weak on one addiction which is only alcohol anymore. I personally have a big handful of addictions that I deal with but still nothing like alcohol. It has been my go to since I was 12. Hopefully day 30 will come easy and the day 180 is a good one too! Goals! One day at a time.
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Yes! It has been tough for sure with cravings or just doing it as a habit too. So used to picking up when things get tough or I get triggered. OR when it’s a nice day out 🤦
I am learning more about myself. I know what I need to put in to action and practice but I can’t get my head out of my ass. I keep making dumb excuses. I have had a stressful couple of weeks and I’m hoping things will slow down after tomorrow and I can get back to yoga classes and kayaking and walking.
It’s so good to be here and know that we are not alone in this journey. I know we can do it! I can’t wait to get to 30 days. That will be such a beautiful accomplishment. Stay in touch
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You can do it again! You can get sober again! You and I both know how much alcohol effects our mind and body. When I drink I get extremely anxious, I get careless and hopeless, depressed… but that is the alcohol messing with you. Hopefully day by day, some of those issues will subside. I would definitely seek out some professional help for the other issues with relationships.
I haven’t been to an AA meeting yet but I have a life group through my church. It’s good to connect on Wednesdays my fault though is that I don’t reach out when I want to pick up. I am sort of hyper independent and I don’t like to ask for help or feel like a burden on people, even though i know that’s not the case. Especially here.
I’m happy you reached out here. I made it one day today with out drinking. It always starts with one day.
I think I am going to start putting sticky notes and reminders in my phone for reasons not to drink and to get more active and take care of myself better. We know how good we feel when we do.
We can do this stay in touch. I’ve been using this thread for my own check ins but keep going here if you want to
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I made it, day one again here proud of myself. Especially since I had such a difficult day with work.
One day at a time.
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Thank you for the encouragement. I’m doing much better today.
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Hey hun , yes we can do it again!! I’m on day 3. Much better attitude but I still get waves of emotions of being embarrassed. My therapy session went very well. I’ve shared with her that right now I don’t want to focus on apologizing for what happen. I’ve always let that over take what’s happening with me. Almost like I put others before myself. This time around I gotta focus on me. But I’ll definitely will revisit the family relationship topic at a later date. All I can do a take it one day at a time. I hope you had a great day today and a much better one tomorrow
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Day 2 I actually successfully denied all my thoughts of going out to drink after work. It helped I had my kayak in my truck and a bunch of boxes that couldn’t get wet so I had to go home and put them in my shed before the rain. Divine intervention 
i can do this. I can take care of myself again and reach my health and wellness goals
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That’s goood!!! Keep up the good work
So sick of this battle. Why is it so hard to just say no? I thought during this month I would be taking better care of myself but it’s been opposite. I had a very scary Thursday night. I put a lot of things in jeopardy. Made a fool of myself too. Wasn’t present at work…
Why do I struggle so much with self discipline? Because Ive never felt worthy? Because I really don’t care? No one else cares so why should I? Fuck.
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Try not to let the negative talk take you down; it’s the devil beating it but you can DO IT.
Shake it off and start a new day today. 
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Thank you
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Something that’s been in the back of my mind lately and i know I’ve read quite a bit about it here but having to cut off ties with family. Was reminded a couple of times that my family doesn’t care about my sobriety or helping me. They still send me stuff about partying and drinking 🤦 I need to build a support system. This app is great but it’s not enough. I need people who will check in on me more often and someone that i can reach out to when I’m struggling
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