You are finding what works for youā¦that is part of the journey. And you are discovering that different things work for different people, as well as the world is full of so many differing belief systems and ways of being. It is a lot to take in!
And in my experience, many of us here also went thru a similar journey of frustration and discovery and so many feelings.
My thought is try not to be so hard on yourself. We are all humans, doing our best and learning and growing. Who I am when I came here 5 years ago is different than who I am now. Sobriety, recovery, life are all journeysā¦there is no finish line when we know it all or understand it all or have perfected our selvesā¦well, at least not that I am aware of.
Thank youā¦ As you said we are all human. And in a stumble like this we should have instead the negativity. Helped you. And again I think thatās the point of this group we are fragile and were all learning from our mistakes and learning to recognize when we are making them or when others are making them. We should be apologizing to you for not catching you when you needed us the most in that stumble. Your always welcome on here. Keep your chin up and lets get back on track.
I really hope they donāt sell either. The building is unique and Iām really over all the new soulless buildings being put in. And to be honest, if I ever decided to go to a meeting that would be the place.
Well since you asked! Lol
Grateful for my sponsor and my AA home group.
Anxiety attacks are coming back strong in the mornings. Canāt sleepā¦1:15 A.M. here.
Dealing with my job which is imploding. My wife and daughter refuse to move for a new job until my daughter finishes high school. That is in 2 years. I just donāt know if I can wait, due to my company implodingā¦ugh.
Iām speaking with recruiterās about positions and Iām applying. I have to get out of my situation. Very stressful and intense working environment. Iām the CEO, so the pressure is off the charts.
If I take a new job, I would move separately from my family for two yearsā¦crazy, but I may not have a choice.
I took a DNA genetic test to see what anti-anxiety and anti-depressants work best in my body as well as a folic acid test. Amazing science and Iāll be speaking with my psychiatrist this week about the results. My anxiety is through the roof, so Iām thinking the medication Iām on is not the right one.
Grateful to be with my family and grateful for my pets
I hadnāt been meditating lately, need to get back into it. Reading the Bible and Big Book consistently and that helps. Learning how to pray too. Just heard about this site Daily Stoic. Pretty cool! https://dailystoic.com/
Im sorry to hear you have some difficult decisions to make, that as you said may become actually not a choice in the end. I do hope it works out for you.
Definitely alot of pressure to deal with
I read about that test to see what meds will work best, i hope you get the right help through the results.
Iv tried 7 antidepressants over the past 2 years, i dont think the dr knows what to do with me any more .
I had the mental health team appointment on friday morning, wasnt the greatest they want to try a different medication and reading this post i may suggest they do this test for me, as it is hard taking medications that may or may not work but also mess with chemical balance in our brains whilst beating an addiction is scary for me, all of us.
I do alot of research, the way id been feeling lately my dr prescribed benzos, iv never had a problem with them but use them scarcely as im always nervous and anxious and know they arent a long term solution.
I really hope your appointment goes well, and in a perfect world everything ends up working itself out at work.
Il check out the link, never heard of it before. And if you ever need a chat and im around you dont have to wait for me to ask how you are, my ears and support is here for you
My spouse is going to take the DNA test. In the meantime he just started a med with a very low dosage at night. Hope it helps him. At this point, heās not easy to live with on a daily basis.
Lol We should have a TS āpartyā for his return. Like a thread of everyoneās favorite Derek moments or quotes. For example, the time he told me to get my head out of my a**, jk jk
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I think Aybee might be in the running thoā¦
