You mentioned you were feeling insecure about your weight so you were canceling your plans this year to avoid being uncomfortable (I’m assuming).
One of my reasons for drinking was to numb social anxiety and help me relax my insecure mind. Instead of working on my unhealthy mindset around my self worth and body dysmorphia, I would turn to alcohol to give me confidence/ peace of mind.
Over time I’ve developed some different patterns of thought and coping mechanisms for these issues that don’t include alcohol so my natural instinct is to tap in to those mechanisms now over alcohol. But this only happened over time.
Which I think is why a lot of people with years of sobriety are suggesting you hold off on these types of events (for now).
My response kind of sounded emotionless, but I totally understand this is a really hard decision and can completely relate to you. I have 3.5 years of sobriety and things have gotten drastically better. I feel more comfortable in my body and trust myself so much more. If you can, try to give yourself some time with these events you will see the benefits, you are worth it 