anxiety - itās been a long time since Iāve felt any of that and itās all bc Iām back to work tommorow after having a week off. Thereās nothing there that I canāt deal with so not sure why Iām feeling anxious about it. If anything I should be feeling resentment bc now my partner is unemployed Iāll be working all week and still not have enough money to live off. Serenity prayer blah blah blahā¦
havenāt had to get rid of any negative thoughts but today Iām throwing anger into the bin, got woke up too early and canāt seem to shake it off. Not the biggest life problem Iāve ever had but still in you go
Laziness in the bin today. Thereās only a few more hours left to this weekend. Iām gonna try and get things done that Iāve been putting off.
Paranoia, anxiety, delusional thoughts psychosis!
These last two days shitty and the sun shining, whatās wrong with my brainā¦smh, sad day
Throwing in āThe Sunday Scariesā (that melancholy feeling as the weekend comes to a close and the impending work week is looming over you.)
āI CANāT,ā in you go!
morning anxiety. How do I know today is going to be a bad day Iāve not got out of bed yetā¦ in the bin.
Tonight im getting rid of all the anger i have at the worldās injustice and unfairness. Some of it can be positive and productive but too much is like poison in the blood. Good bye!
Morning meditation Paul, it sets the tone for the day. Good morning my friend. Make it a great day in sobriety.
resentment - Today I got a problem with everyone, whether they have done anything to justify it or not. Fuck of world. actually if I wasnāt at work I would be OK. Weāre all just slaves to the system.
Paul, read page 417 of the big book. FEEL ITā¦ LIVE ITā¦ All will be well.
thanks I needed that.
When I stop living in the problem and began living in the answer, the problem went away. Live in the answer my friend.
And acceptance is the answer to all my problems todayā¦
ā¦I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudesā¦ FEEL IT, LIVE IT.
getting rid of a bit of anxiety this morning, in the bin you go.
Itās been a while bc I could have filled a skip with the shit thatās been in my head ths last few months or so but tonight I want to throw complacency into the bin bc Iām a very fickle person and think after a few days sober how easy it is. Itās taken about a year and a half to feel even remotely sane so easy is the last thing it has been. Still gonna enjoy this feeling but never gonna take it for granted again. So in you goā¦
US politics and covid
Losing hopeā¦ In you goā¦
Dear self criticism, go fuck yourself